The chapter is really long ass. The longest I had written till now. So be aware.
Xander Pov
Flashback Continue
As soon as I completed my sentence I felt a harsh push against my chest and this time the strength forced me to fell on the bed on my back.
Mia instantly stood up and that was the time I realized how much of the biggest mistake in my madness I had done. Her sobs ripped out of her throat and then I realized.
I snatched her happiness. Because of my selfishness.
Her happiness. The man that stood at the foot of the door keeping his hand on the wall for support. I couldn't believe what I have done. My senses kicked to me and my heart cursed me for doing something so vicious.
"Max I swear. I swear I didn't. He tried to --" Her words got cut short when Maxim snapped his teary eyes up shooting her a death glare.
"LIAR. Stop fucking lying to me already Mia. That fucker already accepted that your cheating on me. If you had feelings for him THEN WHY DID YOU ACCEPT ME. WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME. YOUR SUCH A WHORE MIA."
As soon as he uttered the last sentence I couldn't control the anger that entered my veins. Jumping on the bastard I punched him hard. And was ready to punch again but stopped when I heard his next words.
"What. Your gonna hit me. Go ahead. But this wouldn't change the truth that she's a fucking bitch who didn't think twice before breaking my heart. I was an idiot for giving my heart to her. I was ready to fight everyone for her. To keep her. But no. That desperate hoe---"
"SHUT THE FUCK, YOU BASTARD. OR I WILL KILL YOU." I punched him multiple times.
Soon I felt a hand grabbing my wrist and pulling me away from almost killing the guy.
"STOP IT Xander you have done enough." I left the guy and tried to touch her but she pushed me away running towards the bloodied man.
I gritted my teeth as tears blurred my eyes as well when she helped him to sit up and held his cheeks. He also turned his head towards her and they both stared into each other's eyes.
After all the things he said to her she's still looking at him like he's the most precious treasure. Heck, he didn't even believe her. Doesn't he had a little bit of trust in her that she wouldn't cheat on him.
"Don't touch me." Maxim spat out pushing her hands and stumbling on his feet. He pulled out something from his pocket and threw it at Mia who gasped out when it hit her chest.
"We are over. I was an idiot who wanted to start a new life with you. But you don't deserve it. Don't ever show me your disgusting face." With that, he limped out of the apartment while I stared at Mia who grabbed the box from the floor.
Her cries turned louder and then I realized. Ring. He wanted to propose to her. But I ruined everything. She clutched the box near her chest while sobbing hard.
God. What have I done? How could I do that to the girl who taught me what life is? How could I ruin her happiness just because of mine? How.
What have I done? What have I done? What have I done?
That was the mantra flooding in my brain as I stared at her figure crying hard while sitting on her knees. I should have said the truth. I should have proved her innocence. I should have never let my madness take over me.
"M-Mia I am s-sorry. I don't know what happened to me. I --"
Her head whipped towards me as she stood up with her trembling legs. I felt a hard punch on my heart when my eyes met hers.
Hate. That was the only thing flowing in her teary gaze. So much hate that I couldn't help but wince at the pain I don't even know where I felt.
"Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. DO YOU THINK SORRY CAN CHANGE ANYTHING? DID YOU HEAR WHAT HE SAID? DID YOU HEAR THE NAMES HE CALLED ME? YOU RUINED ME. YOU RUINED MY DIGNITY. HOW COULD YOU XANDER. HOW COULD YOU."
She yelled her lungs out while sobs again ripped out of her lips making me want to jump in the river and drown myself. How could I do that? I tried forcing myself on her. I forced her. I lied. I ruined her happiness.
"I never thought I will say that but I regret the day I pursued you to be my friend. Maybe if I had stopped going around you today I wouldn't have to hear the things my love said to me."
My lips parted and eyes widened hearing her words. Those venomous words were enough to stab my heart again and again.
She cried harder before standing beside the door. Her hand clutched the box like her life was depended on it. I took few steps closer but I didn't know what to do.
I never thought I can turn this heartless. How did I even end up doing this? How.
Author Pov
"How could you Xander. How could you do this? I trusted you more than myself and you. How Xander how." The girl said crying harder. She palmed her face trying to believe that her most trusted person did this.
Xander stood there stared at her not knowing what to say or do. He gulped before trying to touch her but instead, she pushed his hand away and stepped back.
"M-Mia listen to me. I am sor--" Mia looked at him with sadness all over her teary gaze. Disappointed and loathe were the only emotions she was feeling at that time.
"What. What will you explain Xander? I never thought you can stoop this low. I trusted you, Xander. I trusted you." She said crying letting tears fell from her green eyes. The same eyes he loves the most but now he was the reason behind their sadness.
He again tried grabbing her arms but she stepped back shrugging his touch away. Xander's eyes started shedding tears when she shot him a disgusted look making him visibly flinch with how much hatred she looked at him.
"I am sorry Mia. I don't know what happened to me. I am sorry I am so so sorry. I swear I will make everything right." She chuckled sadly before sitting on the sofa lifelessly.
"There is nothing you can make right now Xander. You destroyed everything. I will never forgive you for this Xander. Never." Xander bit his lip from crying out when she refused to even look at him.
"Get out. Never show me your face again." She mumbled hurting him even more. He tried to say something but flinched away.
"I SAID GET OUT."
Flash Back End
Amelia stopped breathing for some time. Her body was paralysed in shock. He did that. Even if she tries. She could help but to feel an immense disgust for what he did to her.
While Xander was crying. Tears were kept on streaming down his eyes. Till this day he cursed himself for what he did every second. He had redeemed himself a long time ago. But no his heart refused to forgive him.
He refused his mind to forget the sin he had committed. To move on from the damage he caused the one he exclaimed to love. How can he say that he did everything because he loved her?
No. This is not the way you show that you love someone. His acts were nothing but poisonous. He ruined her. He snatched her happiness. But he wasn't ready to let that happen.
"I left from the place. I knew I have committed a grave sin. I wanted to comfort her. But how can I even think that she will find comfort in the same embrace who tormented her." He sobbed hard softening Amelia's eyes.
"But I refused to give up. I wanted to make everything right. I wanted to give her happy life back. I wanted to show her how deeply I was regretting the thing I did. I wanted to return her happiness to her. I couldn't tolerate the burden my heart was feeling after the things I had done. So after almost a week, I gathered Maxim's information. I got his address and went there to explain everything. I wanted to apologize and wanted him to apologize to her. I was ready to give up on everything just to see the same smile on her face again. I also decided to just leave the country after explaining everything to him."
He suddenly stopped making Amelia curious. She looked at him only to find him struggling to control his cries.
"But when I reached his house. I encounter something I didn't even in million years thought can happen. It was like a nightmare."
Flashback
Reaching Maxim's house Xander was surprised to see that no one stopped him from going inside. It was almost like they were having some kind of party inside.
As soon as he reached the doorstep he stopped hearing a familiar voice. It was Maxim. He followed the voice and it took him to the garden back yard. The garden was decorated too.
Xander left paralyzed on his spot when his eyes met the figure standing in front of Maxim. He was almost growling at her while there was a small child he was holding in his arms.
No way. It's not what he's thinking right. That can't be possible.
"I already told you to not show me your face again. Then why are you here? I already had lost a lot because of the fucking love I had for you. But now I am not ready to be a fool in love again."
Maxim snarled at the girl who stood there frozen stared at the kid in her lover's arms. The little boy stared at the girl with a confused gaze trying to understand why she was crying.
"Max. You. You lied to me. All this time. You had a son. And a w-wife. Y-you lied to me. How could you---" Maxim laughed shaking his head in disbelief.
"Lied. I lied. No Mia. I didn't. I was loyal to you. I wanted to divorce my wife when I met you. We were having too many arguments so we decided to break up. Yes, I never told you about my son but I wanted to when I decided to propose you. But you. You're the cheap one here. I should have known better than trusting a teenager desperate bitch. I should have never thought of leaving my wife for some whore like you. You---"
"YOU BASTARD," Xander screamed before grabbing his collar and was about to punch him but Mia grabbed his bicep.
He turned to her in disbelief but she shook her head motioning at the kid in Maxim's arms. Xander's eyes soften when he realized that how much he scared the kid. He left Maxim's collar and stepped beside Mia.
Maxim was ready to spit another rubbish but Xander held his hand up with warning in his eyes. Maxim slowly put his son on the ground and asked him to go inside.
"What are you two disgusting shits are doing here now. I have already reconciled with my wife. She hardly forgave me and accepted me. I don't want someone like you to destroy my family again. I-- fuck."
He yelped out when a hard punch landed on his face. Xander was burning in anger. He couldn't believe what this bastard had done. And all of that he dared to say that they destroyed his life when the truth is he destroyed an innocent girl's life.
No, both of them did.
"We destroyed your family? You bastard, you destroyed this girl's life when you decided to hide the biggest truth of your life. How could you even think that it's fine to fool a young girl and then after the truth come out? You will become a saint and she's to blame. Let me tell you the real truth. And I swear after this you will never be able to forgive yourself. Never."
"I lied. I lied that night. Mia never cheated on you. I was the one who was in love with her for years. I wanted her. I kissed her. Touched her. Without her consent. She was loyal to a lying bitch like you. I can't believe you didn't have the slightest trust in her. Whoever come and will lie to you about her and you will believe it. Is your love so weak that you don't have a little bit of trust in her?"
Mia said nothing. She felt like her soul left her body. She would have been happy if the truck of truth that hit her a while could have missed her. Her love had a son and a wife. And he lied to her. He said he was single. He said she was his first love.
How could he fool her like that? And how could she let herself be fooled for over a year? She should have known after how much of an age difference they had.
"W-What." Maxim felt like the floor has snatched under his feet. His head snapped towards the broken girl who looked at him for a second before dropping her head.
She was hurt. She was broken. Her heart was sliced into pieces with a butcher knife. And the knife was the truth.
"I was in love with Mia for the whole of my life. I wanted her to be mine. So in the spite of being rejected, I tried forcing her to give me a chance but she didn't. She kept on saying that she loves you. And only you."
Xander said making Maxim stumble back. His eyes turned teary once again. He looked at the girl he verbally abused. The same girl he exclaimed to love.
"M-Mia." She shook her head stepping back before running away. Maxim dropped down on his knees while Xander out of rage gave him the last punch.
"Fucking bastard." Cursing him for the last time he ran behind the girl.
Xander ran outside the main gate and instantly sighed in relief finding her in the parking lot. She was walking while hugging her arms as the cool breeze was hitting her body.
He instantly ran towards her before slamming his front against her back. He wrapped his arms around her shoulders only to hear her soft sobs.
"Mia I am sorry. I am so sorry. It's all my fault. If only I hadn't done that. I am sorry. Please forgive me." He said hugging her tightly while she didn't protest.
"Why Xander. Why did it happen to me? I never did anything wrong. I never wronged anyone. Then why. I loved him so much then why. He played me." She cried harder making him pull her deeper in his embrace.
"Princess please relax." He mumbled trying to calm her down but instead, he heard her breathing slowing down. Even her body started becoming heavier.
He instantly turned her around only for her body to fell in his arms limped. She blacked out.
"Mia. Mia open your eyes. Shit." Picking her up he ran towards his car. He brought her to the hospital and waited impatiently outside the room. Finally, after few minutes doctor came out.
"Mr. Storm. She's fine but I wanted to know why is she not taking care of her nutrition especially in this condition. She needs to take good care of her body otherwise it wouldn't be end well."
Xander stared at the Doctor in confusion. "What are you saying. What's wrong with her. What condition." The doctor raised her eyebrows.
"You don't know. She's pregnant. And it's already two months now. She needs to take care of herself or the continuous neglect can cause a miscarriage. I hope you would keep this in mind." With that doctor left leaving a shocked man behind.
Xander felt a sharp pang on his heart hearing that she's pregnant with that despicable man's child. Shaking his head he walked inside only to find her sleeping there peacefully.
Her face was pale and for the first, he noticed dark circles around her eyes. She never had them before but can he blame her. No, he can't. Because he's the one who caused them to appear in the first place.
Sitting beside her he gently placed his big palm on her flat tummy. It wasn't swollen much. But it still didn't stop him from smiling. He had a small smile as he stared at her stomach. How much he wished to be the father of that child but it was just not fated.
Staring at her pale face he let the tears of remorse damped his cheeks. He was beyond remorseful. Why couldn't he hold himself back? Why didn't he stop his selfishness to ruin her? To ruin her every happiness. Why.
What have you done Xander? What have you done?
He questioned again before placing his forehead on the edge of the bed letting few sobs out of his lips.
"I-I am sorry Mia. I-I am so sorry. Please forgive me. Please."
But only if he knew that even her forgiveness wouldn't be enough for him to forgive himself.
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Trust me I am trying my best to complete Mf past but damn. Well, only one more CHP and we will be done with the past.
Next will be up soon.
Till the next adios