***Chapter Sixty-Eight***
With a tap on my shoulder, I was awakened out of my sleep unexpectantly. After Drew attacked me with a bunch of love, we laid back and watched movies some more. At some point I ended up taking one of his sweatshirts and putting it on to be comfortable. It was ridiculously big on me due to him buying even bigger clothes than he should. Yet it smelled exactly like the cologne he wears sending me on cloud nine.
After that, we snuggled up together before eventually falling asleep again. He had his arm wrapped around me with my head resting on his chest while my hand laid across his abs. Being wrapped up in him like this made me realize how much I was going to miss him. We were only friends now and after our date, we would just be friends. I don't know how I'm going to handle myself during Christmas break, but we'll see.
Opening my eyes, I look up to see Drew smiling down at me. His green eyes bored into mine. There was a sense of sadness in them, but I didn't question it. There was a lot going on in a short amount of time. It's hard to keep up with everything while keeping your emotions in control.
I rested my chin on his chest, staring right back at him. "Hey, what's up?" I wondered why he woke me up.
His hand glided across the back of my head with that smile capturing every part of me. "We have to get going," he says calmly. "Well, I have to get going, unfortunately."
My lips pouted, but I understood. "Are they back yet?" I asked sad that our time has ended.
He nods, still stroking my hair. "Almost, I know Dre and Dillon are here." He informed me.
"Is Julie here?" I couldn't help but ask.
"That's who I have to go meet," he kisses the top of my head before hopping out of my bed.
Truth is, I didn't want him to go so soon. I know we should be letting things of the past go, but part of me wishes the weekend lasted a bit longer. After everything, it felt like we were just getting started. It'll be hard to avoid being close to him now. Though with Julie in the way that'll make things easier.
Still, I got out of bed with him ready to hand him back his sweatshirt when he stopped me. There were no qualms on my end about keeping it, but Julie would have a fit if she saw me wearing the thing. The hat situation was evidence of that. Imagine if she saw me in his clothes? It'll cause a bigger ruckus than the hat did.
Drew smiled, not willing to take the sweater back. "Keep it. It'll be our secret." He winked.
I kept it, smiling back at him. "Don't you think we have enough secrets?"
He walks up to me, grasping his hands at my hips. "Yeah, but I like having secrets with you," he says. "It keeps things fun."
Laughing, I cupped his face inviting him in for a slow passionate kiss. The secrets were going to get us into a lot of trouble, but I must admit they were fun. The only thing is I wish we didn't have to sneak around. I wish we could be like this in public. Show how we feel about one another to everyone. Instead, we were here making out in the confides of my room.
There was absolutely nothing wrong with that. Our bodies meshed well together as he deepens the kiss. His hands slowly glide up my back, lifting the shirt a little bit. My arms make their way around his neck to pull him just a bit closer to me. The feel of his hands caressing my body sent chills down my spine. If it weren't for someone coming in the door, we would have gotten carried away.
The door opened to the sound of Dillon walking in. She didn't say much of anything but wasn't surprised to catch us either. A lot of why Drew even came back here so early in the first place was because of her. That I had to thank her for.
Giggling, she greeted us both. "How did I know I'd find you two like this?" She questioned with a smirk.
Drew and I broke the kiss as I smiled at Dillon. I was happy to see her but not happy that she interrupted us. We weren't going to be able to do that for a while. We had one more date to go on before calling it quits.
Wrapping my arms around Drew's torso, he hugs me back before saying bye to me. "I'll see you later," he kisses the top of my head.
Dillon sticks her hand out as Drew slaps it before walking out the door. It's safe to assume they've become closer over the break. They didn't say many words to one another, but it was a great start in the right direction. I've been wanting them to talk for so long now. They were brother and sister but had nothing. Their relationship is so important. I'm happy it was starting to take shape.
As for her interrupting me, she was looking at me like she knew something was going on again. Gladly, I'm able to prove her wrong this time. Our relationship was complicated, but we've come to terms with what needed to happen. What she saw was a simple goodbye. There will be no more friends with benefits. No more sneaking around kissing. We were friends only.
Dillon looked around the room at the mess that was still there. I can tell she was peeved about that as we didn't get around to cleaning up. We were so enveloped in each other that cleaning became an afterthought. That was the least of her worries though as she wanted to know what happened while she was gone.
Without any questions, Dillon got straight to the point. "You had sex, didn't you?"
My cheeks flush as I try to deny it. "What? No that did not happen," I lied and badly.
Dillon walks over to the trash bin before immediately putting it down. "Explain the used condoms then!" She yelled.
Sighing, there was no point in lying. "You weren't supposed to look in there," I whined.
"Anna, are you sure that was the smart thing to do?" She only questioned me because she was concerned.
There wasn't any part of me that regretted my decision though. "Yes. We may not ever officially date, but I wanted it to be to him."
It sounds crazy, but it's true. The only person I pictured sharing that special moment with was Drew. It paid off as he was gentle and made sure I felt comfortable the entire time. No one other guy would have been that cautious with me while also still providing a pleasurable moment. That may have kicked my feelings for him into overdrive, but sometimes you must make sacrifices. My sacrifice was not being able to date Drew.
Dillon crossed her arms. "And you're perfectly okay seeing him with Julie?" She raised a brow at me.
"As I'll ever be," I say. "I don't have much of a choice, Dill."
She rolled her eyes. "But you do Anna. I didn't send him here to fuck you. I sent him to apologize." Her tone was fierce.
"It was my idea actually," I admit. "He wasn't going to do it if I hadn't suggested it."
He wouldn't have if I didn't bring it up. Something in me told me to just let it happen. After the first time, I couldn't help myself. I wanted more. No, I needed more, and Drew gave it to me. It wasn't about being right or wrong. It was about doing something to make myself happy. In the end, he still did what she wanted him to do, which was apologize. We happened to have a little more fun afterwards.
Dillon's concern was still valid as I was walking a fine line. There was still so much to his and Julie's story that I didn't know. Here I am disrupting whatever it is they have going on. There was something that I was missing about the whole ordeal. The more information I didn't have, the more I would continue to make decisions based on my own needs. It's hard to know what to do when you have little insight.
Dillon was frustrated but she tried not to take it out on me too much. "Julie cannot find out," she warned. "It's bad enough that he emotionally cheated but now it's physical."
"It was a onetime thing, honest." That's what we agreed upon. "After today we're strictly friends. No more benefits."
She didn't believe that. "Really? Are you and Drew going to be just friends after everything?"
I fiddled with my fingers. "Well, after he takes me on a date."
Dillon's eyes widened. "Are you kidding?" she asked me, flabbergasted.
I nod my head. What was the big deal? It was just a date. Plenty of people go on them. She was acting like it was this big commitment he was giving me. He didn't even tell me when he planned to take me either. For all I know it could not happen at all. Drew seemed like he really wanted it to though, so I agreed. Seeing Dillon's reaction that shouldn't have been the case.
"It's a date. You act like he asked to marry me."
She groans. "I want to be angry, but I can't," she says. "You realize how big this is?"
I shake my head. "You and your brother have this thing where you'll say stuff but never go into detail."
We both chuckled. "Drew must be super into you to ask you out on a date. He's never taken Julie anywhere."
That startled me. They've been together all this time, and he hasn't brought her on a date? So why would he ask me that? If Julie found out she would feel some type of way. What was I supposed to do though? It's hard to say no when you're so infatuated with someone. Our relationship was far from perfect, but we fit so well together. Friends or more. Secretly, I was looking forward to this date as well.
In hindsight, the date could be for the fact that he feels bad for me. With everything else going on around us, Drew is not able to move our relationship forward. It could be his way of compensating for that. I went in knowing things might never move forward, but I'm getting a date out of it.
I tried not to perk up at that thought, but it was hard not to. "Why are they even dating again?" It bewildered me.
Dillon shrugged. "Reasons I can't say, but they aren't right," she clued me in.
"What do you mean?"
"You know when people are made for each other and when they're not," she explained. "It's obvious Drew has found his person in you."
I sigh. "But can't date me." That hurt.
"Sad, isn't it?" She pouted.
It was incredibly sad, but the way things were. In a different life we would surely be together. Right now, wasn't our time and I couldn't do anything about that. Besides waiting my turn of course. If that ever happens.