The truth

The truth
Am I ready to let someone else other than myself know who I am, where I come from and what I've been through. What will he do if I don't tell him what he wants to hear, what will he do or say if I DO tell him what he wants to know. Will he pity me, sympathize, comfort or will he just see a broken thing and also see me unworthy of being treated like a person.

I waited for him to continue and oh he did " no that wasn't all, you're actually capable of more. That healing potion you gave me and that one that made you invisible - how are you even able to make something like that. What and who are you exactly and where do you come from. You didn't know about vampires, monsters or even about us so where exactly do you come from? Where is this place that seems to be unaffected by all that is happening in the world?

You've mentioned a witch queen before and I felt the hate mixed with pain when you said her name but yet it doesn't make sense.

Are you a witch? And if you are one it really wouldn't make sense. The potions I guess yes but no not the magical powers and Era I hope you do answer my questions. I hope you explain everything"

This is confusing, what the hell is this naive side that he is showing me. He thinks just because he asked then I'm going to tell him, willingly? Does he think that he is that powerful. Telling him everything will just make hold on to me even tighter. What if it was him in my position, what would he do. With the amount of pride that he has he would've escaped by now. Just thinking about it makes me feel annoyed, there he is acting like he doesn't know why I'm doing this. The anger within me made me unable to hold back.

"Please stop acting stupid, you know very well how I ended up here. Your pack does too. I told you before that you didn't save me and you've witnessed me use my magic so you are aware that those perverts would've died. I am a prisoner here, your prisoner so why the hell would I reveal my secrets to you who is using me. It is not me that needs you, it is you that needs me hence why you've forced me to be here"

The seriousness on his face got replaced by anger, the loud sound of the table being slammed by both his hands while he towered over me made me flinch. My anger quickly got replaced by wariness as I got ready to use my magic if things got out of hand.

" Do you think I did it because I wanted to, I have people that depend on me. I have the pack's safety to worry about. I'm aware that I tricked and trapped you but still I thought things would change. I did my best to make this less of a prison, you aren't confined in a cell! You aren't being starved! and You aren't being abused! Some of the pack members have accepted you and most trust and respect you yet you still see this place as a prison?"

The nice memories of my interactions with Zik and going shopping, the pack members changed eyes when looking at me envelope my anger but only for a moment.

" You think your show of kindness and the way your pack sees me is enough to stop seeing this place as a prison? They say the first impression lasts, you should've started with being nice instead of being forceful. You thought food would make me sing all my secrets to humph! You are simply naive"

I'm really pushing him and I know that there may be consequences but it's hard to stop. Is he even hearing himself right now.

"Era what is that will make you treat this place like your home then. What is it that you want so that you help us with everything you got, with everything you know. Tell me and if it's in my power I will do it, my pack is important to me...and having you willingly be part of it will empower us"

I expected another angry loud exchange but he dropped from being angry to being sincere. There's a huge gap between being angry and sincere yet he bridged it in mere seconds. Could it be he was pretending to be angry so that I'd also be angry enough to share my frustration, feelings and emotions. Another trick? But no it can't be. His emotions were too real, could it be that he wasn't angry at me but himself?

It is even harder to believe that he is willing to do anything I want so that I'd stay willingly. Pride was out of sight, sincerity and desperation was the only thing I could see in him. Does he really care about his pack to the point where he feels angry at himself that he isn't able to help them like I am or is it something else. I had to ask just to be sure.

" The anger, why is it directed to yourself?"
I was very curious about that, I don't know why but it just didn't feel nice seeing him angry at himself. He is not perfect but he has a bit of selflessness when it comes to being a leader and maybe that made me respect him a little. I just hope that he answers honestly, I feel like I really need to hear why.

His hand moved from the table and pushed his hair back while he sighed deeply " at first I didn't care how you felt, your help wasn't enough but as time passed. I saw how smart, strong, enduring, wary and hardworking you were. It wasn't just that... but I'd rather not explain any further. It became evident that your life has never been simple, I guessed it must've been filled with hardship and where I found you it's when you've just escape or freed yourself from whatever hell you've endured.

Also the way you've been selfless at time even though you never saw it, your worth far surpasses this place and my pack. It made me feel unhappy- maybe... guilty. The truth is I truly feel that you don't deserve what I did to you"