CHAPTER 6

It's been a month since that incident happened, and everything is going fine.

The process of the case, mark investigate it roughly i can still remember how mad he is when he found out what really happened.

I'm in a corner, Crying. Grieving. And darkness is eating me alive and I like it, cause no one can see me.

Kristina just give me space by letting me alone, i still can't forget it. I was so shocked and now I can't even talk again. And im so sick of it!

I keep trying and trying but still no one word came! It frustrate me so much! I want to die to end this miserable life.

But when I think of it, the people who stayed with me they always pop up in my head! Saying 'everything will be fine' 'we're here for you, we will never leave you'

And it hunts me! So i- i just can't do it! Then, i just keep quiet. and Everytime it happen i always think about them.

There sacrifice, just for me.

And it make me more miserable.

I'm alone here, they're in the university so. i have to control myself. i can't hurt myself. i have to.

I was about to walk down to get a glass of water when the bell rang, who could it be?

Slowly I took the bat to the side of the door, and just as I was about to open it I immediately slapped it on whoever it was.

But I was surprised when the stick just floated, so I quickly opened my eyes and looked at who that person was.

And to my surprise, it was mark.

So, I calm myself.

"What are you doing here alone?" He said emphatically, so I bit my lip because I didn't know how to answer it.

So I immediately climbed to the top but when I was finally able to climb, it grabbed my arm and pulled me, so my bodies accidentally stuck to each other.

Feeling that it was also stunned, I could hear the strength of its heartbeat and I immediately pushed it as I felt electricity that suddenly enveloped my body.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to." He said while avoiding his gaze, so he grabbed me by the arm where he held me.

I touched it so our eyesight was right and there was some emotion in it, but I just ignored it.

I signaled for him to wait in the chair first, it looks like he got it because he sat down.

When I made sure that he was ok, I immediately went to the bedroom, immediately took the paper pad and ballpen that my sister Kristina had bought for me.

When I went down, it stood up but I told it to sit down, so I went straight to sit down.

It was immediately written that I could not speak due to some private reason, so it nodded.

He took something out of the Brief case and took a bundle of paper and handed it to me. We were quiet so you could only hear the sound of the paper in the whole household.

And when I read this I was immediately surprised, because I only gave more and more details to him. But here in what we have written ... I can't believe almost everything that happened in my life is here.

So when I looked up at it, I was so shocked to see that it was so bad to look at, so I backed away and moved away from him.

And when he noticed that I was scared, his eyes immediately calmed down.

"I'm sorry, i just can't accept the fact that you we're raped at the Young age." He said while his eyes dim. I smiled at it and it was dumbfounded.

"Your so beautiful." it doesn't seem to be in its own words so I'm shivering.

“Damn!” It whispered.

"I'm sorry." He said it right away, so I wrote and showed it to him.

"It's ok, and your handsome too." Reading it before turning to me with a smile on my lips, so I smiled at it too.

"How are you, Karisa?" Its question to me now with a serious face.

So, i write saying 'im fine, still in the process of healing but i know I'll be ok'

So he smiled again and said words that shocked me a little.

"That's good, I will visit you everyday ok?"

I blinked again before nodding here.

"I'll wait for your housemates to come home before I go home ok? I want you to be safe. So?" He asked me a question that I nodded.

He stroked my hair and said "your cute, my baby." My eyes got bigger because of that, so I kind of avoided looking when I felt both my cheeks getting hot.

I heard its weak laugh, so I bowed even more.

What was mark's trip?

We were in such a situation when the door suddenly opened and Kristina and Leila spat on them, Mark immediately sat up and became serious.

The two stopped to notice that I was not the only one here.

"Mark, what are you doing here?" Sister Kristina asked in surprise as she lowered the furniture on the chair opposite me.

"I just passed by, then I saw Karisa in her veranda and greet her." This is an explanation but I wonder why he didn't say anything about the case?

Leila touched me and raised her eyebrows while smiling and frowning at me.

So I raised my eyebrow here to indicate why? She laughed at me and opened his mouth and said 'nevermind'. Hays, she's like this sometimes.

I turned to Mark as he stood up and said he would go first, before he could finally get out he looked at me and winked.

I was stunned and since that day, Mark has always been here, and I also noticed the different way he looked at me.

Like today, he's here again but it's ok because I'm already with someone here. And good thing I was gradually able to recover as my case progressed in court.

Attorney Ramouldez said next week the verdict will be held, so I'm a little nervous.

And i wonder what is the reaction of my parents? What's gonna happen now that we already filed the case? Will everything will fall into there place?

I hope everything will be fine, i hope they're not mad at me. I couldn't take it ... They're still my parents and i love them.

"Hey, you space out again." Saad ni mark habang may dalang pagkain and by the way sometimes mark sleeps here, And these past few months i always have these weird feelings i feel for him.

"I'm just a little worried about the case." When I admit it.

He sighed and folded our hands at the same time.

"Don't worry ok? Everything will be alright. I assure you that." And he turned to me at the same time with one hand he caressed my cheeks. "As long as im here, you don't need to worry about anything. I'll take care of you."

I closed my eyes as I felt his caress, I was stunned when I heard him swear softly.

"I'm sorry for what I'm gonna do." He said simultaneously holding my cheek and kissing it on my lips.

I just closed my eyes and followed every movement of its lips.

It's so soft ...

Its breath is so fragrant ...

Its every kiss is so sweet and you really can’t help but kiss back.

That only stopped when I felt that his palm had penetrated my clothes, so we immediately adjusted ourselves so that we would not be caught in such a situation.

He hugged me again and at the same time as he rubbed his face on my neck, he apologized.

I stroked his hair "it's ok, I like it too." It made me laugh softly because of what I said so I smiled too later.

It broke away from hugging me while holding my hands, which I just now noticed that it was a bit trembling.

"Are you okay mark? You're shaking." I have a kind question here.

"Uhh, i wanna ask you something. if that's alright?" He's hesitating i can see it. But why?

"Yeah, sure. What is it?" I asked her as I released one hand to her to caress her forehead which was now sweating.

"Can I ... Can I date you? Karisa?" That one question stopped me.

Because until now I still can't trust, and I'm afraid of being hurt.

I don't wanna be just like me now, i .... I wanna be the better of myself. And if letting mark courting me will help me to heal, why not give it a shot?

It can't be hurt right?

I looked it in the eyes and I could see it with sincerity, it's time again that maybe I should be happy too, right?

I took a deep breath before I sigh."All right, I agree."

He became more happy and hugged me tightly, I just wish it wouldn't turn into a worse nightmare again. I don't want to lose myself once again, i might go in to the mental hospital.

I just hope it's the right decision.