CHAPTER 5

It wasn't easy for me to get out of the house because so many things were unfamiliar to me.

Like the couples I see in the parks, the children who play happily and who can see a happy whole family ...

I've been wanting to happen for a long time, but in this situation I know it will never happen again.

And of course, the beautiful Scenery that I have always wanted to see. It's natural to look at it because it gives me peace and good thinking every time I make a decision in life.

"Karisa, come here first, mark will help us get the evidence for your case. And then I'm sorry if you have to talk yourself, you know I'm really busy." Suddenly Ate Kristina says that she is now holding papers.

I asked her where leila was and she replied that she was still in school.

I smiled at it and adjusted a little to make me look presentable.

And when I was satisfied, I followed him down, when I arrived I saw Attorney Ramouldez's nephew.

He stood up when he saw me coming down, as a courtesy as I looked at him I looked at him from toe to head. Until my eyes reached his eyes.

He has beautiful eyes, a sharp nose, red lips, a tall, mascular body and if you describe him, he looks like a very mysterious person.

Looks like he's just my age, maybe 5 years older than me meaning he looks like 25 years old or more?

I went straight in front of him and offered to sit down.

I stared at it when I sat down because it supported me which I wondered, maybe he's being a gentleman?

And now that we're already set, he cleared he's throat and he put a recorder then start the discussion about the case.

"Ms.?" It starts with the fact that while one of his eyebrows is raised, he looks gay.

I  just slapped on my forehead when I thought of that, and he seemed to notice that and asked me if I was ok . So I answered I'm fine.

"Karisa Lacsamana." Let me introduce you here.

"So, Ms. karisa can you tell me the details of the event? So i can analyze it and do some investigation." It said before letting out a sigh.

I first looked at Ate Kristina who was now just looking at us, she nodded and said that Mark is trustworthy. I took a deep breath before I finished talking.

"It started when I was 13 years old, me, my sibling and my cousin's are playing and then my mom and auntie are going somewhere. So we were left with our uncles so when the night came I would have gone to sleep suddenly t-tito g-greggy went and-- "i cleared my throat.

"--t-tito raul, that night my mother came down and helped me because they were doing something downstairs. So, I followed them and since I'm sleepy they give me a glass of water. At first I thought it's an ordinary water, but when I start-"Ate Kristina suddenly approached me and said 'you can do that' and when I looked at Mark, his eyes had something to indicate.

"-drinking it, later on i suddenly become dizzy a-and t-they start pulling my s-shirt and s-short a-and y-you k-know w-what happened next." When I say this while I am restless as I play with my fingers.

"And where did that exactly happen?"

"Their hut." The only thing I can say here.

Mark sighed.

"Karisa, im a man also and i just wanna say sorry because of what they've done to you." Calmly it says.

I smiled at him and said 'ok' he nodded at me and stopped recording when we were done.

"I'm going now, stay safe karisa." He said this and I smiled at him but he stared at me and some emotion passed through his eyes.

"Be careful now." I said this and only then did he wake up, and finally said goodbye.

"Karisa, come on and rest for a while because later our cousins ​​will visit us." Said my sister kristina.

"All right, but can you go after Leila?" I requested it and it was happy and nodded.

"All right, rest first ok?" He said that I nodded and then went straight to the room.

And while I was on my cellphone, someone suddenly texted me with only a number.

I was surprised because no one else knew my number except kila, ate kristina and leila.

So when I looked at it, I was so shocked to see Mark.

Unknown number.

Hey! This is mark, Can i will visit you every time i have a chance? can i?

Me.Hey mark! Yes, of course.

Mark Ramouldez.

Ok, thank you. see you when i see you.

That's all and our conversation ended immediately.

I decided to go out on the veranda and breathe in the air.

With each passing second I have something to realize.

Not everyone is there for you, so by the time that day comes you need to be prepared.

I have learned that 'Bravery is the audacity to be unhindered by failures, and to walk with freedom, strength, and hope in the face of things unknown'

While fixing myself, i will start to build my dreams that have shattered together with myself.

And to continue to live a peaceful life, maybe sometime i will met my man and live happily with our kids.

I smile with the thoughts of me having a husband and kids, i really love kids because they are soft and innocent.

"Karisa, they're already downstairs?" Ate Kristina suddenly came into my room, so I nodded at her and said that I would be next after her when I went to the bathroom.

When I finished going to the bathroom, I went downstairs and saw my cousins, whom I had wanted to see for a long time after what happened before.

"How are you, Karisa?" Gela asked, she was the one who dared to ask first.

I smiled at it.

"It's okay. You? You?" I asked them, but they just smiled.

"We missed you, don't you miss us?" Sister Josephine asked, now a little tearful.

Why? Why are they crying? It's ok now, no need to worry ... im fine, i will be.

"Karisa, I'm married!" Sister Josephine tried to raise her voice, wow! She and brother melvin are married.

"Congrats." I said with a smile that made him smile too, because we said before that I would be his bridesmaid. But nothing, something happened.

We're all a bit awkward now, maybe they're not used to my presence anymore. Because my aura is a bit different now, eh, if it was very jolly when I was a child. But now because of what happened I'm a little unfamiliar with people.

"Karisa! I'm sorry!" I was surprised when my sister Josephine suddenly approached me and hugged me tightly at the same time.

"Hey, it's ok now. I'm getting close to being ok now, so no need to worry anymore." I said softly to it once caressing its back, and I felt it twitch.

"I'm sorry karisa, I saw what happened to you before." I seemed to stiffen in my seat at what I heard, i-i feel betrayed!

I came face to face with her and I also started to cry, if he saw me then why, why didn't she help me? Why? Why didn't she say? Why ?!

My chest rises lower with its extra weight, even with tears if one is also relentlessly dripping.

"W-why? Why didn't you help me ?! Why didn't you tell me!" I shouted, startling the others, but my sister Kristina approached me and tried to calm me down.

"Why ?! Do you know, do you know that from that day on I won't be able to eat properly? Do you know that I almost killed my own life huh ?! W- why didn't you speak!" I shouted endlessly!

The people around me were all bent over as if listening but the others couldn't believe it either.

No way, no way. N-no it can't be! I'll be back to the beginning! Again!

I was about to open my mouth to speak without any sound coming out, they were confused. And my sister Kristina immediately hugged me from behind when I started to say nothing.

I threw away the things that were neatly laid out on the table and the others were thrown away, that's all I did until I could feel how my body was slowly giving up.

Probably due to its extreme weakness after discovering everything, I just felt that my eyelids were gradually lowering. At the same time, many hands were supporting me behind my back.

"Karisa! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" I heard Sister Josephine say.

"Karisa! Hold on. Your gonna be ok!" Sister Kristina said.

And that's all I heard because I completely lost consciousness ..

"I ... Think i can't forgive you ..... yet. I'm sorry, I'm too hurt. "