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I didn’t know how long I stood there after she had driven off .

I knew that all that she had said  was nothing but just the truth .

I couldn’t blame anyone for whatever that was happening to me right now .

I made the wrong decision and now I would have to pay for it .

I knew that the last thing that I ever wanted was to lose this girl .

I didn’t know why I felt that way towards her but I wished I never felt it .

I was hurt and my girl wasn’t talking to me anymore and  all of this is Jane's fault  . 

I didn’t know why I had to move with those kinds of people who did have respect or  human sympathy for anyone .

Hurt was  the least  of how I am feeling right now .

Never did I think that a day would come that I would stop talking to her .

I was just getting to know and  love her and my stupid self  had to mess things up .

I hated my life for sure .

I didn’t know why my stuff had to be the opposite of what other people had  to go through .

No matter how much it ruined , I just couldn’t see a friend that I could keep , I just kept on running it and it really hurt .

I didn’t know why my life had to be this way .

“ you really thought that you were going to be friend with that bitch forever huh “ 

I turned when I heard someone say that and  when I turned , I saw that it was Rissa's ex best friend Elsa .

I didn’t know why  I never liked  this girl  from the first day that I saw her , never got a fucking interest on her .

There was just something off about her that I just didn't appreciate and I wished that I really had more time to do this , but I don’t think that there’s more of it  .

“ She's not a bitch  and if there’s any bitch  here , I think that would be you “I replied  .

The girl's lips  curved and then she smiled revealing her beautiful set of teeth .

“I  don’t know  why you  think that you are any better than me .

The last thing that I would do is fight for friendship  with Rissa , so don’t think that I am doing this for her , I would never do that because I don’t even care about her and  I am so glad that she knows that , the next that I  can do is make you my friend because I promise you  Rissa is never going to forgive you .

I watched the girl speak and all that I had in my mind was how I was going to slap the living daylight  out of her .

I didn’t know what her business was , why did she have to put her  mouth in stuff that had gotten Nothing to do with her  .

I think that it would be best if you  let Rissa go , I don’t think that she’s the reason  why  you are so pained and bitter at the same time .

The only thing that she did wrong was loving you as a friend and yet you think that you can just walk up to me and tell me trash about her and you think that I am really going to leave that girl .

I have hurt  my best friend and I know that and I am going to do anything  that’s  in my power to make sure that I make it up to her .

Elsa smiled looking at me , I didn’t need anyone to tell me that this wasn’t the reply that she was expecting from me .

I guess that I took her off guard and that’s the only reason why she was shocked .

“You know what,  I think you   Should really think about everything that you are trying to do with her and think that she's  really worth it .

I know I shouldn’t be saying this but from the little that I know you aren’t no saint because if you were one , there’s no fucking way that you were going to keep that kind of huge secret from her .

I know that you must be feeling guilty thinking of ways to make her forgive you but I would be so clear and sincere with you  .

It’s not like Rissa is  any fucking Saint  , I know  that you might be feeling bad thinking that you have hurt your best friend but trust  me when I say that she has a lot going on with her that you have no fucking idea about and you are never going to find out about obviously .

If you really think that she’s loved you that much then go ahead and ask her about the affairs that she’s having with her step dad .

I don’t know and I am not saying to spoil your mind , but don’t think that she’s your friend , she was my friend too and now I hate her so  much , because I don’t think that you know shit about her , I don’t know if you know that Rissa fucks  girls too , you don’t know how much of a bitch she would  be until you really get it , so stop acting that way because you really can’t tell .

Hearing her words could only increase  the hate  that I had in my heart for this girl , the nerves that she got thinking that she could  just spoil  my friend .

“ Maybe when you stop being a bitch  and kill that hate that you have in your heart for her , you will start seeing her in the good  side and stop trying to bring up stuff  thinking that I would hate her , that’s not happening “ I told  her and walked off to my car .