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Today was literally the last day of school and the only thing that I could keep thinking of was what I was going to do when the whole semester was over .

I had a mind of visiting my grandparents but on a second thought , I cleaned that off. I actually did not want to see them , it wasn't just now and it didn’t feel like the right time  .

Well I wouldn’t want to say this but no time felt like the right time .

I knew that the semester was about to close and we were going on holiday but not yet but thanksgiving was in a few days .

Thanksgiving is something that I had always looked forward to attending .

I must say that it’s one of the best ceremonies that my family celebrated and I am just so happy that they get to do this all the time. I am pretty sure that everyone is definitely going to attend and that is exactly what I am looking forward to .

I didn’t know how I was able to go to school over the past few days .

The stares   had reduced a bit and now everyone was minding their whole business .

Angel had been trying to make me forgive her but I told her that if she came any closer to me any longer , I was going to get her arrested and that is done thing that I meant from the felt of my heart and wasn’t no joke x

The apartment clock and ringer that I had set for myself so that I didn’t have to get late for class rang and that was when I knew that I was late .

I was so deep in thought that I never noticed that my alarm was dining .

I walked to my Murrow  and  took a good look at myself. I must say that I was quite impressed by the way I  looked  and  I loved it .

It was a good thing mama was pretty and so I just inherited her beauty .

I loved the fact that mom had been  her  best   To make sure that I felt really comfortable.

This was something that she had  and I loved it .

I  had thought of leaving my step dad officially but I just can’t , no matter how much I tried , there was Nothing that I could do at this moment .

I knew how deep I was into that man , I didn’t want to mess things  up  anymore .

I couldn’t leave my step dad , I knew that , I loved the fact that I couldn’t leave him but I haven’t done anything with him for a while .

Since mama was all over me , we decided to give each other that break that we deserved .

I really looked forward to having my step dad with me again and I wished that my mom could just come up with some  kind of trip and in that way , I would be able to spend the time that I want to spend with the man that I really love without anyone distrusting me .

“ you know you love saying trash right, I know that there’s no way that you are going to tell me that you love that man , there’s no way that is going to possible “

I chucked  at my own thoughts .

I wouldn’t deny the fact that I didn’t love him , but I wouldn’t say that I still didn’t want him here with me .

I loved how he cared and treated me , my mom should  keep thinking that she has a husband , that man is mine .

I didn’t know if it was the case that I was hurt by what I had done but I just couldn’t help it .

My heart was thumping so hard against  me , I loved my step dad .

Off my Chest  “ I said to myself and put that heavy and  stupid thought that I had right behind me .

I was done being that stupid bitch , I just didn’t care .

I walked out of the room and when I got out , I saw Shaun and my mama standing by the door .

I was shocked , I never expected them to be  standing there at that moment .

“ what is it mom ?” I adked when I finally found the voice to speak to them .

She knew how much I hated being in this kind of situation , I hate shock and she knows that but she keeps doing that , did she want to kill me on purpose .

“ you know what baby , your step dad and I have decided to host the family thanksgiving in our house this year , since everyone wants to come see me after our marriage .

I looked at mom like she had gone nuts after listening to all that she had to say .

I didn’t want to believe the fact that she wanted to do that .

“ mom you know I don’t “

You know what Rissa , I only came to tell you it’s not like I came here for your opinion anyways , I don’t care , my family would be coming and your stepdad's family would also be here , you know what that means ?”

I turned to look at Shuan  and I could notice the smile he had on his face .

I didn’t want to believe that he had a family , for goodness sake , how could that be true .

“ your mama is right and we are going to be bonding together , I think it’s time that we just get together and you know get to know ourselves .

I only saw my step dad's family during the marriage bjt I never paid any good notice to them , but right now , I just wish that I had done that , maybe now I wouldn’t be curious and would know what I was about to deal with .