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After hearing it from Wayang, I immediately went to Karsen's room to talk with him. I gather courage first before knocking on his door. He didn't respond and I knocked again, but got no response. Is he sleeping?

I was about to knock again when I saw the door open and saw a lady with a beautiful dress causing me to feel hurt. I don't know why but I am jumping to a conclusion. Who is she? Why she's at Karsen's room and what is she doing here? I can feel the pang in my heart. I wanted to scream but I chose to shut my mouth.

"Who are you? Your master doesn't want to meet with other people right now. He is not in the mood." That made me hurt even more. What if this girl is his new girlfriend? He chose to leave me hanging because of what I did days ago.

I clench my fist and stare at her. "Tell him that Charlotte is here, please? I want to talk with him." The woman raises her eyebrows. I was about to speak again when I heard Karsen's voice.

"Charlotte? You're awake?" I caught him running towards me and hugged me so tight when he got closer to me. "God, I thought I'd lose you. Thank you, you're finally awake." I could feel the tears dripping down to my shoulders. Wait? I thought he was mad at me. Why is he crying like this?

"Oh my, I am very sorry! I thought you were his maid!" The woman immediately asked for forgiveness and I just smiled at her.

Karsen then released me from his hug and told me that we could talk in his room. The lady finishes putting the bandage first in his hands before heading out to his room. I thought Karsen find a new girl, but I didn't she was just his personal doctor.

"I am sorry I doubted you," I just said as I looked down on the ground.

"What do you mean?"

"I thought you already replaced me with another girl. I thought you didn't want me anymore." My tears started streaming as I continued to wipe my cheeks with my bare hands. Karsen immediately went closer to me wiped my tears with his hands and carefully touched my cheeks as he tried facing my face to his.

"How could I do that to you? I won't replace you with anyone, Charlotte. Why did you think of that?"

"It is because Wayang told me that you're mad, and then the lady suddenly told me that you are not in the mood that is why you don't want to speak with other people for now." He then places my head on his chest and hugs me tightly.

"Yes, I am mad Charlotte. I am mad because you didn't tell me everything, I felt like I was betrayed after I learned some information from Wayang. Why did you keep it to yourself? When I could have known it and maybe I can be help to you, Charlotte."

I press my lips as I comfortably rest myself on his chest. "I don't have the right timing to say it and was afraid that you might leave me or what. I am afraid that you won't believe me Karsen. You can't blame me for that, I am afraid of losing you too."

"Shh, don't think about that. No matter what the challenges that we will face inside our relationship, I will remain standing. I will stay with you and never replace someone else. You know I love you so much, Charlotte. Losing you is like losing the ability to love someone. It is just that I don't understand why you didn't tell me that when in fact it is my right to know everything about you. I don't want you to struggle alone. You will always have me, Charlotte. Always will."

I cried after hearing it. I know it is bad not to tell him about everything. I am really scared. I don't want him to know about all of it.

He then pushes me away slowly so he can see my face. I caught him smiling at me making me feel so calm and I just kept on staring into his eyes. "So please, tell me everything. I only know that you are cursed, Wayang told me about that. I want to know the truth from your mouth, Charlotte. Trust me, can you? I don't want you to struggle alone."

I am still staring into his eyes thinking whether to tell him about everything to finally speak for the truth. Will I still be able to gather the courage to say it all? Will he believe me? What if he agrees? I don't want him to sacrifice his life for me but seeing his eyes eager to know the truth, I don't have a choice.

"Then please listen to me carefully, Karsen."