FIFTY THREE

Karsen has been like this, hugging me so tight after he said that he was jealous. What does he mean by that? Is he jealous of Noah? "Jealous of what?" He just kept his mouth shut and I never heard even a single word from him.

I let out a sigh and told him that we could have a conversation in his room. Today is my day off so it is on me whether to go out or not. I let him sit on the couch and wanted to give him water but he didn't let me.

"You are still on your day off, you don't have to do this thing. You are not my maid today. Let me do it." That is what he said and told me to just sit and wait for him. He was taking so long so I decided to take a peek in the small kitchen inside his room. I saw him slicing some vegetables causing me to be confused looking at him.

"What are you doing?" I ask him and walk closer to him. He looks at me and then turns his eyes to look at the vegetable.

"I am making soup for our dinner, didn't I tell you to just sit there? Let me serve you tonight." I stare at him but still, he is busy slicing the vegetables. I look like a child now looking at him preparing all the ingredients.

"What about Chef Madley? Isn't she cooking for dinner?"

"She won't, maybe she will cook for the other servants and for Wayang but not for us." I raise my eyebrows because of his response.

"Hey, what do you mean by you are jealous? Is it because I was with Noah earlier?" He stopped what he was doing and continued but he didn't even try to reply to me. "Karsen," I called for his name but still he didn't want to reply.

Meaning he really is jealous because of Noah. I pouted and when he started to cook the food I immediately went to his back and hugged him causing him to stop. "You are not replying, are you mad?" He stands still and holds my hands letting out a sigh. He faces me and looks at me in the eyes.

"Yes, I don't want to tell it because I don't want to ruin your relationship with Noah. You are his best friend and I know what kind of relationship you had with him since the beginning. I am sorry, Charlotte. I just can't help but feel jealous. You and he were hanging out while I was here sleeping and resting when I should be the one to take you out on a date."

I felt guilty after what he said. Did I just hurt his feelings? I didn't know that it would hurt him that badly but we didn't do anything wrong, that is what I thought. I really don't know what to do as this is the second time that I let someone come into my life.

"You don't have to say sorry, Karsen. Your feelings are valid and I am sorry that I didn't think about that, that I might hurt your feelings if I accepted his offer. I just accept it to make it up and to appreciate what he did to me in the past. If you're that jealous because of him, I will try to distance myself from him."

"Wait, no! I am not asking for that. I just want to tell you what I feel that is all. Besides, I am just your suitor so I don't have the right to let you do that. Be friends with him, he is your best friend and I don't want to ruin that. Just, let me feel that I am still the guy that you want. The guy that you love. Just an assurance." He then kisses my hands as he touches my face.

I touch his hands as well and smile at him. "You will always be the person that I want, Karsen. I have no interest in any man, only you. Don't worry too much as you have already taken my heart from the start. You will always have my heart, Karsen."

He smiles as I say and then moves his face closer to mine and kisses my lips...passionately. I accept it as I put my hands on his neck and his hands move down to my hips pulling my body closer to his as we keep kissing nonstop.

He then moves his face to my neck and kisses me while leaving a mark causing me to blush and moan silently. This is the first time that I will be doing this, should I let him do it? When he senses that I am not ready for it, he stops and looks at me. "I will wait for it," he said as he kissed my forehead.

"This is so embarrassing," I just said as I covered my face using my hands. I heard him laugh and took out my hands from covering my face then he looked at me.

"No, hey." He continues to laugh. "You're cute, Charlotte. Don't be like that, you're making me crazy." After he said that, he gave me three smack kisses and smiled at me. "You have nothing to embarass about. I love you, Charlotte and I am willing to do anything for you. To make you safe, everything."

And that is when I remembered what Wayang had said. On how to break the curse, that he needed to sacrifice himself for me to be saved a kill Kalsey. If I let him do that, he will die and I don't want that to happen.

I hug him immediately and speak.

"You don't have to do anything for me, Karsen. Just love me, that is all I need. If there will be times that you need to sacrifice yourself for me, please don't do it. Loving you and loving me is enough for me. Promise me that, don't risk your life for me. Always choose yourself."