I'm not used to it, but I should have understood that they are more likely to be clingy to their father than to me. As of now, he is the first person they look for in the morning. I knew that they missed their father so much and ever since I allowed Raven to enter into their lives I knew this would happen. I liked that they were associated with their father but sometimes I couldn't stop but felt envy.
I am still their favorite, I know that. I am their first in everything; however even if I felt a little bit jealous I was still glad that finally they are meant to be together at all.
Red was ecstatic, saying, "We'll go shopping, Mom, only boys are allowed!" It appears that their father has adopted Red's upbeat demeanor. How could they always not get me allowed at all? I was left out wherever they planned on something.
"I know that Red, when will girls be allowed?" I acted like I was annoyed at them, especially to my kids but as expected they just laughed out loud. How dare these two?
"When you and Dad make a baby girl!" Red grinned innocently, so both of our jaws dropped, while Hiro simply whistled and looked very happy with what my son said.
God, I slapped my face with my palm. Why are they innocently making us embarrassed? I wanted to lecture them, but I didn't because I felt embarrassed at all.
***
They left, and Raven and I were the only ones here together; unfortunately, his fever suddenly rose, so he couldn't be with them. The two are already dressed and super excited to go out, so Hiro is the only one who comes along while I take care of the sick. Of course, I can't just let him handle himself and I'm not doing anything. Besides, the kids won't allow me to go with them.
"I'm fine," he insisted, and after saying that he was coughing, I rolled my eyes because this man is really nasty. He thinks he is superior and can do everything when the fact is, he still likes us, a human too.
"You're not feeling well, so I'll take care of you until you feel better." I shut him and went to the kitchen to make porridge to fill his stomach. His stomach declines heavy foods, so I was trying to give him something light. When I finished making porridge for the man, I went upstairs to feed him. He refuses to accept the food but I raise my left eyebrow to tell him that I am not going to buy it because of his strong acting.
I patted his face gently; he had been vomiting for a while, and that's why, for sure, his stomach was aching. I also felt that the rain suddenly began to fall; it was still slow until it got stronger. I was feeding the man; he didn't want to, but I forced him to eat and since he knew I wouldn't accept a no answer. He doesn't have a chance but to open his mouth.
"Don't be stubborn and just eat," I ordered, if something happened to him, I would be the one to blame in the end. After he finished eating, I put the mess away and called Hiro.
"We are still at the mall, stranded; we will leave when the rain is not too strong.” He informed me, I nodded even if he couldn't see me.
"Just be careful there and take care of the kids," I remind them.
"You too, be careful; Raven is still poisonous; he might bite you and have a baby girl." He immediately hung up before I could yell at him. This man is really annoying! My cheeks suddenly heat up, even though the weather is cold.
Damn, I shouldn't think about that! I told myself in my mind.
I hesitated to enter the man's room because of what Hiro said. I slap myself to wake up from reality. It won't happen because there's no things between you and Cbiara. Stop being delusional. And besides, the man has a severe fever, so what am I thinking? I went in and erased the Hiro influence from my mind.
When I entered, he was sitting and seemed to be reaching for something, so I asked him if I would be the one to get it.
"What is it?" I was sitting beside him. He looked at me for a second and started to search once again.
"Water," he held his lump, so I immediately took the water, gave it to him, and he smiled at me after drinking. I suddenly paused for a few seconds and got nervous at what Hiro said. Damn, I was starting to have an illusion, huh? I shook my head and smiled at him back. "thanks,"
"Welcome," I simply replied, putting the glass on the mini table. "Why don't you sleep to rest? Besides, the weather is not good.”
"Is it raining?" I nodded. "I'm fine; don't worry about me; I'm a bad weed, so it takes me a long time to die," he said jokingly, and in the end, he coughed.
"Just rest up for now, Raven, so tomorrow you feel better," I suggested. I held his forehead and mine to compare it; his fever was still high. I was about to remove it because I was just preparing dinner when he suddenly grabbed my hand. "W-what?" I asked hoarsely, damn it! Why did I stammer in front of him?
"Stay here, please," he begged, and I don't know why he was so quick to let me go. "I want you to accompany me, even just this time," he whispered. There was a strange feeling building up in my body that night.
That night, I let myself indulge in what I wanted. I don't understand, but that night I felt something that my body was longing for. Heat that only he can give me.
And I know once I give in there's no turning back no matter what. Once I give up, I'm the loser and I will always be but who cares? I deserve this after all. I love him no matter how much I deny it. The feelings haven't faded since then. Whenever I dated a guy before, I always ended up comparing them to Raven.