Raven's POV.
I can't remember how many times I prayed before opening my cell phone or how many times I checked it. Maybe I was crazy for doing this, but I couldn't help but think that maybe he had already answered.
I waited for her response, but checking it again, I found there was none. I was fvcking arguing with myself while trying to send it to her, but in the end, she just ignored it. I couldn't even sleep and waited for her to respond, but in the end, I didn't get what I wanted. I wasn't demanding, but couldn't she just type or something?
If she is busy, then fine, but it seems not because she has been updating on her Instagram lately. I just followed her, so I know. I even flooded her with a heart, and Gretchen scolded me because why did I do that? Then I backfired on her as to why she was able to betray me; that's why she was silent. Anyway, back to the real problem. Why isn't she replying yet? Is her answer difficult to have? Or maybe it's been so long that she hasn't made herself feel again? I'll just wait.
Does she not realize how many times I type, hit the backspace key, and then type again, not sure why? Then she'll simply glance beyond it and appear as if it didn't even exist. I even waited an hour without checking my phone in the expectation that she could be considering what was coming up, but when I completed my lunch and there was still not even a trace of her message, I gave up. Still, I'm hoping she'll just respond to it.
What else can I expect? Cbiara Blair is not fond of texting, so why am I even hoping? And besides, we agreed that we were just connected for business purposes only. That's it! But... Did she really forget me, or was she acting like I was some wind for her?
We met with the business administration, but I wasn't in the right mood while they were conversing regarding stuff. My head just wandered everywhere, so it was not inside. What was the woman doing, who was with her, had she eaten yet, was she optimistic, or was there an oddity about the way she acted? It was driving me crazy! It was all a bit bothersome!
I was asked by Manager Natasha, "Do you agree with that, sir?" Despite the fact that I didn't comprehend anything, I merely nodded out of confusion. I got up and fled when I heard everyone applauding. It wasn't a huge concern because I didn't hear them call me for any suggestions.
When I entered the office, I wanted to overturn the table and throw the cell phone, but I chose not to because this was the only cell phone I had with her. So even though it's broken since I always attempted to throw this, in the end, I'd just regret it. I can't fvcking delete our photos together; it's killing me whenever I try to.
"Fuck!" Why does she have to do this to me? Is she torturing me like this because he is punishing me? Damn, she's good at torturing me! "Why are you so good at this, huh?" I spoke at her photos on my phone. I want to remove her smile and replace it with. Ah, what kind of thoughts do I have? I hit my head because of the nonsense that was going through my mind.
Ultimately, I was occupied with completing all of my paperwork and going over all I needed to before signing, as I had a lot of opponents. But I'm the initial one, so they can't match me; I was always in the spotlight. I was headed to my mall, so I made the decision to stop there before I headed home. If I'm at my condominium, even for a minute, it will drive me crazy thinking about only her, so I prefer tons of different individuals around to divert my attention.
But now that I was in the mall, everything about this reminded me of her. This was all her idea and her dream that I did just because I love her that much. And where does that love lead me? I was like a kid, throwing tantrums while people thought I was crazy and laughed at me. Well, I don't care for that when it's true; I'm crazy madly in love with the woman who was now owned by someone.
"Hey Raven," Lethia greeted me, but I just ignored her. After all she did? She thinks I would be flattered to be with her. "Why are you avoiding me?"
"Fuck off, Lethia!" I growled, neverending about those people surrounding us. Surprisingly, she walked near me so that our faces could meet. "What are you doing?"
"Don't you like this? Being near me?" I pushed her slightly; even touching her felt scary because I knew what she could do.
"You are dirt that I'm going to resist forever and ever."
"Can't you forget?"
"Please! Don't stalk me again; have some delicacy of your own!" I spat and left her, a playful smirk lifted at her face. I didn't know what she did, but from that look, I knew she was planning something.
I just continued walking and changed location, but I lost my appetite, so I just chose to leave there and let my feet take me. I was taken to the other riverside, where there weren't many people there. It was peaceful and calm, just how I liked it, so I stayed there for a while.
Right now, what I need is the tranquility of the water. I feel like he wants to trample me, which is horrible, so I don't want the ocean to be violent right now. I was exerting a lot of self-control since it felt like it was beyond my capabilities.
After deciding to return to my condo after spending a few hours there, I wasn't sure if I should text her. Shall I arrange a meeting so I may see her? Oh Raven, how pitiful you are. There is no one as miserable as you that I have ever encountered. I gave myself a sarcastic look in the mirror, but is there anything else I can do?
I've been in love with other girls before, but I don't think what I feel for that woman is still love. It was the greatest among them; she hits differently, which I hate the most because no matter what I remove from my system, I'll end up liking her so much.