Blair's POV.
My chest was pounding hard while fighting with Lethia; I could barely feel my hand holding the steering wheel. What the hell?
Does she really want to kill me? As of now, I wasn't scared of my death, but of my kid's safety. I feel that they are no longer safe, as Lethia seems to suspect me. This is not good at all. I closed my eyes for a moment to think. First of all, this is not my idea; that's why everything is piled on me. Why does she have to rush me? If it were not for my father, then I wouldn't grab it. If she only knew how much I declined this agreement.
I want to scream so badly about how much I despise her husband for choosing her instead of me. I suddenly thought that I was the first to show the motive, but everyone ended up with Lethia. Am I joking with them? Am I just a character development in their relationship?
I hate her; she gets everything—those people or things that I keep. Everything goes to her last; I was fvcking pitiful whenever I tried so hard to win. I am always a loser, no matter what I do to fight.
I arrived at the apartment where everyone is quiet. I checked Hiro's room and mine, and even the bath, kitchen area, and even the back, but they're gone. I saw a note on the fridge.
'We are riding bicycles in the front; feel free to come.'
I breathed a sigh of relief. I thought something would happen to them, I mean what the hell? I was just panicking because of what the woman said: I shouldn't be nervous; it wouldn't happen. I was just there, thinking of a way to get out of them. I don't like being near Raven, and Lethia's words haunt me even if I knew she was just trying to catch me up.
But what if she already knew before she asked? Oh gosh! I washed my face with my palm even without water; what do I do?
I get up in bed and pacing back and forth, trying to analyze everything, but I can't understand anything because fear dominates my heart. Not for me, but for my kids. What if something could happen to them? I can't forgive anyone when something happens to them. I'll dig their graves once they touch my kids. I was possessive, I admitted, but I couldn't get Lethia's threat to me out of my mind. I know her; she's true to her words.
Until they came, I was not myself. Hiro was confused by my actions when I scolded the children.
"You shouldn't play outside! How can I make something bad happen to you?!" Furious and worried roared at the home. "You take a bath!"
"Chill down, Cbiara. What happened? Why are you acting like that?" The man smirked. "What's going on and you're like that? You're overreacting, Cbiara."
"I'm not Hiro!" I didn't mean to raise my voice. "You don't know what a mother would feel because you are not a mother and you'll never be!"
"Chiara," he called my name calmly. "Spill everything to me so I can understand you. Your head is just hot." I shook his hand that was about to hold mine.
"Shut up! You won't understand even if I tell you! They are my children and you; who are you?" Suddenly, I feel some guilt when I ask him that.
"I know Cbiara. They are your kids, and I am just your friend. I wasn't a woman; I know that too. I accept all those words, but...why do you have to say that when you are mad? Do you have to tell me that face-to-face?" I suddenly realized what he said. I tried to take it back, but the pain was evident in his eyes, telling me that I hurt him.
"H-hiro." I was trying to be sweet, but he shut his eyes and shook his head side by side.
"It's enough. You're right, who am I to act like this, right? I'm just a nobody, and you are the one who has the right to them. Sorry," he stated, leaving me there, so I bit my lip.
Why do I have to be so harsh?
I followed him, but he slammed the door and locked it. I stopped and had to accept the fact that he was sulking towards me. Why did I go through everything in the heat of my head?
"Mom," Red called me. I wiped my tears that I didn't realize were falling. "Did you and uncle Hiro argue?"
"Baby, it's just an adult thing, okay?" They nodded. "Let's go; I'll dress you." I lifted them both; they were already heavy, but I still managed until I reached my room and dressed them.
That night, Hiro did not come out of his room. I bit my lip. How do I make up with him? This was the worst fight between the two of us, so I just let him go because I know that he'll be down when he's hungry.
I slept with my chest heavy that night until I woke up. Hiro ignored me, even the kids. Red's eyes were bloodshot, but I tried to explain the situation, so gradually he understood. I don't know what to do because Raven keeps texting me randomly.
From: Axl Raven.
Did you eat?
Oops, sorry, I sent it wrong.
I just didn't pay attention; he had so many more chats that I didn't know if it was true, if it was just a wrong message, or if he was just teasing me. But whatever the reason, I just chose to ignore him and focus on my kids. After all, we agreed to talk when it comes to business and not to be flirty. I'm afraid of what Lethia might do, so I'll keep my distance from Raven as much as I can.
"Aren't you going to notice me?" One night when my kids are sleeping. I found Hiro drunk; he didn't say a word and suddenly laid his head on my shoulder. The silence lasted 10 minutes, and I even stopped my breathing and didn't move even the slightest.
"Can we go outside and get some fresh air? I want to vent about how this feels." He pointed to his heart, and I was suddenly surprised. Is this about his dad? I didn't ask him and just nodded.
Whatever he does, I know he is not fine.