"Are you awake?" the man questioned when he heard me groan. I pressed my eyes tight and realized the man was Coven Roux. My emotions quickly became caustic since the person I expected was not the person standing next to me. "Oh, thank God you're awake, Blair." The man griped, and I stared at him emotionlessly.
I selected to travel around the four corners, where I discovered Lethia seated squarely with her shoulder in her chest, looking at me carefully. He instantly calmed down as he approached Roux.
"Honey, let's go home. Blair is fine," he suggested. Inwardly, I celebrated because that was better than seeing their faces.
"I'll call the doctor." He removed Lethia's cling on his arm and said that to me. I just stared at him like he was invisible.
Lethia is a well-known vlogger who completed medical school and is an architect, which is excellent for her. Alvaro is well-known in teaching, politics, medicine, and many other fields, and she is affluent and Westwood though. That's why it seems sense that she can handle everything, and regardless of how I behave, sympathy fades fast.
In contrast to her, when she played the victim, the conversation didn't stop for months or even years, and occasionally people didn't forget. They have paid the witnesses; they run their money, so if I do that, it will also go, and I would be unable to carry out my new plan.
I need the perfect time, location, people, and plan for my next plot twist. She seems to be fine; the Smiths are quiet too, so it looks like I need to make a move.
But how about Raven? I can only imagine what his reaction would be. Is he going to kill me? After all, it is his family, his blood, but they ruined me. What if, like Roux, Raven would choose them over me? His position, his wealth, his everything—he can't give up all that just for me.
No matter how much he loves me, he will not abandon his life for me, and I will not let him leave what he is accustomed to. I bit my lower lip. I don't want to leave Raven, but... what about my baby? How about the individuals who trampled on my entire being? Is this all it is?
I was a disaster. I only recently realized why I was terrified and doubted myself. But Raven is such a wonderful person; will you forget everything because you know she is present? But what about my baby?
I made the decision to get up since my head was spinning. She was taken aback and believed I was going to launch an attack, but there wasn't enough time. I felt Lethia's high-pitched voice calling my name as I struck her shoulder. That's not the least of my worries, though; I had to make a thoughtful decision; I can't be clumsy. Not now, not tomorrow, not even a year from now. I have to make a decision right away or I'll regret it later.
In the end, my foot took me to Hiro's car. He was looking at my GPS, and when he knew that I was here in the hospital, he immediately went to me.
"Where are we? Did the doctor really let you out, Blair?" He repeated his question many times. I didn't answer him and just looked out the window to see the wonderful green nature. "Blair, talk to me; I'm worried about you."
I've always been unsure about life; I just aimed for what people expected me to do. I always excel in class; that's no mistake. I don't even let being the smartest in class steal the crown from me. But when it comes to love, why do I have to be this stupid to make a decision?
Would people judge me if I made a cruel decision? Would my mother be happy? Would my baby love me? Or would I be happy?
I don't know the answer to all the questions that bother my mind; there are so many of them, and I have no idea what to answer. The only thing I know is that I need to use my mind.
***
Raven these days is so busy that I can't even catch him at home or even in his condo. He rarely replies to my email, messages, or chats, and if he did, it was said he was busy. He would come home very tired, and in the middle of the night, he would wake up earlier and not be by my side. Our old bond is gone, and I feel like I'm missing him. He didn't even know about the incident between Lethia and me.
I was anxious and uneasy. Who wouldn't, after all? I have given his offer a lot of thinking, yet this is what he is doing.
I chose to ignore the ongoing complaints from everyone in the company about me since I truly suffered from them. I went into his office and he was not there. I let my shoulders drop once more as he had left for another day.
Roux is constantly around his wife, so he doesn't even try to come near me. His wife is like a koala as she can cling to her husband, but I get the impression that he wants to be near to me. I was itching to inquire about Raven. I put this aside even though I know he is the only one I can ask about it.
The important matter is that I need to trust my man. I can't express my feelings like what he said, so as long as possible, I just play with my mind on other things.
The day has passed since I haven't seen Raven; he didn't come home, not even in his condo. I have my spare keys to his condo so I was able to go there freely. I decided to go there hoping that I would see him but I needed to strengthen myself again because I might be disappointed in the end.
Just like that, there's no trace of Raven at his condo. What do I expect? Will he come because I need him? Of course not. I had to accept who this man I loved was: a businessman and always out of the country. But was it still fair?
I let myself miss him. Smelling his suits, his shirts, and lying down in the king-size bed where we share our love together. I miss him so much. I miss my man. Why is he doing this to me, hmm?
I fell asleep feeling sluggish and awoke as if nothing was amiss. I've been feeling worn out, constantly vomiting, and extremely sensitive to smells during the last four days but I was ignoring it. I just miss how my boyfriend smelled, that's it. I've always craved his touch and love. I want his presence by my side.
I took a deep breath and entered the office; I was anticipating that the man was not present. To my amazement, he was talking with Gretchen and Mrs. Smith. As I attempted to calm down, a ball formed in my fist, but I was furious.
"Oh, Ms. Ashton is here; she can take care of the details about the company Gretchen. Raven is busy with his upcoming—" Mrs. Smith didn't finish her gladly news when Raven cut her words.
"Mom," he said, looking pissed off. I miss his voice and his eyes; fvck, it feels like I am eager to be with him. "Leave my girlfriend alone." That was enough to pound my heart. I stared at him for a long time, I mean he fluttered my heart without even trying that much.
It's a good thing I choose to believe in him instead of giving in to my feelings; hearing it makes me want to hug and kiss him.
"G-girlfriend?!" Mrs. Smith burst out, "I disagree about this! You know your father is in favor of mine, so stop your madness!"
"Stop it, Mom. Leave or I'll call the guard." He didn't care about his mother, who was now in a rage.
"How dare you?!" She yelled at his son, and now his mother's eyes were fixed on me. "What did you do to my children, crazy woman?!" She threw her bag at me; fortunately, I was far away, so she wasn't able to reach me. She was furious, but I just smiled at her and said, "Don't give me that innocent look!" She glared at me, and stepped near me looking like she was cursing me in her mind.
"One more step, and you'll never see me again, Mom." The three of us jaws dropped. Mrs. Smith looked at her son with an unbelievable look, and I could sense that she didn't see it coming just based on her actions. I couldn't see his expression since his back was in my face.
"What did you say?"
"You know I'm not kidding, Mom," he said, taking a deep breath and went to his mother. "You know I can break you, and dad rules when I'm in love."
"Raven!" Her mom shouted, "Take back your words!"
"I'm serious, mother, so you go. My future wife and I are going to discuss something." He was tired of leaving his mother and Gretchen.
The two, left with no option, sneered at me and walked out of the office. It's just Raven and myself right now. I leaned in my chair and stared at him strangely. He made my pulse race, but that didn't take away from the fact that he made me wait and become gloomy.
"I miss you, baby." I didn't realize that he was behind me and kissing my nape. "Do you miss me?" He asked like a toddler, but I ignored him. Don't you dare easily give in to his tenderness, Cbiara, I am giving you a warning! I reminded myself.
But I am just a woman who longs for her boyfriend's presence and craves for his touch. Fvck, how could he make me like this?