84. Why?

84. Why?
Arabella's POV

I struggled to open my eyes and cried for breath, everything was dark and my breath struggling to come out. I trashed in tight grip but couldn't move, something soft was pressed on my face, probably my teddy bear.
My hands were in the air, trying to scratch the person. Strongly confused that why would anyone want to hurt me, wasn't I the favourite one?
My hand finally touched the face and the realisation was scarier than my imaginary monster under the bed. It was someone I trusted the most.

I gasped and woke up with the jolt.
It was a nightmare, again!
Since childhood I am getting the same nightmare.
I have brutally killed people to replace it with the nightmare I have but nothing is strong enough to surpass it, that night was the scariest of all.

My dark childhood, it still suffocates me.

I quickly opened the window and took a deep breath in fresh air. What amuses me that, I have a huge room still that little dream manages to choke me everytime.

I sat by in the balcony, thinking how my life has taken drastic turns. Whenever I think that this would be my life then it throws me in another twist.

First I got snatched from my family, when I got mature enough then I became a professional murderer. I thought that would be my life but then I found people in whom I started looking for care and love. Again I was snatched from that life and when I was about to compromise with that fact then they again came in front of me and purchased me.

My whole life has gone while thinking about what's happening to me. Everytime I wake up, I am in chaos.

Now the most dangerous chaos which is waiting for me is Egon. How do I deal with him?

Arthur and Oliver are out for a work tonight, I wish they could have been here tonight because I am not feeling good.
Their arms make me feel at peace.
They are the best thing which has happened to me, because of them I realised how care and love feels.

Something has changed in me, actually lot of things have changed.
I am strong but still I want them to protect me. I don't have to smile, it was never needed yet I feel the urge to smile when they are around me. I was never looking for a family but when I am with them, it feels like they are my family.
Maybe that's why people says that real love brings out the feminine energy in women.
I have fallen for them really bad. So bad that even in their anger I was seeing love.

The thought of having someone this strongly never crossed my mind before but now I am crazy for them. I want to hurt everyone who hurt them. In last few years I have experienced all emotions which I never felt before. Love, happiness, peace and jealousy. I am enjoying it though.

"Why are you up this late?"
I looked back when he whispered in my ears.

"Oliver?"
I smiled.
"I thought, you are out."

He smiled back and I don't know why my heart flutters whenever I see that charming smile. I just love it.
He pecked my lips and my ears turned red.
"I was missing you so I came back."

I snuggled in his arms when he sat beside me.
"Where is Arthur?"

He started caressing and playing with my hair.
His bare chest felt warm.
"He is in his room."

I looked up at him.
"Is he not coming here?"
It feels incomplete when one of them is missing.

Oliver sighed and stroked my cheek with his knuckles
"Kitten, we have agreed to take care of you together but it's still difficult for us to share you... We have never shared anything and we are afraid that we might hurt you if we all turn heated at the same time, so for sometime let's not do that... We will spend time with you separately..."

I don't know why I didn't like this idea when in fact whatever he was saying was right. Maybe because I have not seen them as a separate person.
I should give them some time to come together because they have come a long way for me. I never thought that they would do this but now when I am thinking about it, I feel proud.
"Okay!"

"Okay?"
He chuckled while pulling me on his lap.
"Aren't you going to growl at me like a tigress you are?"

I settled on his lap and smiled looking down at him.
"You need to decide what you want to call me. I can't be kitten and tigress at the same time."

I rested my forehead on his and his hands slid arround my thighs.
"Let's decide that later."
He sucked on my neck and I moaned in his hold.

This is the most interesting feeling I have ever felt. Their touch feels so good.

His lips travelled on my chest after taking off my t-shirt. The throb between my thighs was too intense but I decided to tease him.
"I don't want to take off my clothes in balcony."
I stopped him when he reached for my pants.

"Let's go inside."
He was about to pick me up.

"I don't want to go inside."
I smirked.

He raised his eyebrows amused while jerking me towards him with my hips.
"You think I can't make you scream my name with these conditions... Don't challenge me, babe. I never loose!"

I leaned down and licked his earlobe.
"Who said I want you to loose?"

He smirked and wrapped my legs around his waist and rolled his his. I gasped when his hardness rubbed through my pant fabric. Damn! I didn't know that it can happen like this too.

His hips picked up the pace and the friction increased. I got lost in the feeling because it feels more pleasurable than penetration. I held on to his shoulder and threw my head back as I rode him desperately to catch my orgasam.
My whole body was on fire and I had no intention to stop.

A loud moan escaped my lips when I orgasmed and fell on his chest numb. Fuck, it felt so intense. The itch is still there but it's too sensitive to bear more touch.
I could feel the sweat dripping down my spine.

He was about to pick me up but I shook my head while breathing heavily.
"I need fresh air... You go and clean first."

He gently placed me down and kissed my forehead.
"Don't worry, I'll clean you..."
I smiled and he went inside.

I was catching my breath when something landed at my balcony, a small bird maybe. I got up and looked at it closely, it's dark so it wasn't visible properly.

I went closer and realised that it's a bird, size of my palm but it's not real bird. It's fake, something like drone. I grabbed it and realised to whom it belongs.

Is he keeping eyes on me? Why, Egon? What else do you need now?

"Kitten, what are you there?"
I froze when Oliver called me. Should I tell him about whatever happened in Egon's Castle because now it feels dangerous.