(64) On My Way-1

Chapter 64- On my way. I sat on the couch, a little bare, empty and very much alone. Married life shows you how alone you actually feel when your other half is not there. Before, it was covered up, you don't even realise because your life hasn't changed so drastically. But as I sat there, lonely and cold, I realised that my life had changed drastically, even more so than I would have thought possible. Nearly a year down the line and I've lost the cold hearted mother I had, now she was in another home for treatment. I'm married, I lost my father and I'm pregnant. I wasn't the young teenage girl I was before, I was growing up and there always came positives and negatives to life. I just so happened to have the right balance so far. Even so, my heart was still beating out of its chest as I kept replaying the scene in my mind. The situation was just too raw, too soon. I couldn't function whilst my mind was drowning. I couldn't just sit here, on this couch like nothing had happened. I couldn't sit here and wait for kyle to return. I couldn't just sit here. I felt bound but I knew I had the power to move. I had to at least do something. He needed time, but I needed answers. I got up from my sitting position to quickly grab my phone. I would call a cab, but what's the point when I could call Matt? The amount of times I've had to use him for something; comfort, his father and also transport...I was beginning to feel guilty, as if I was taking advantage of him. I didn't want it to be like that, and I knew he wouldn't think anything of it. Matt wasn't perfect, but he was always there for me. Always. More so than I could ever be. It also just goes to show how many problems arise whilst in marriage. I called Matt to ask if he could take me somewhere, not going in to too much detail but telling him kyle had gone. It seemed weird, but I knew where kyle would have left to. He always told me he loved this hotel that was situated down town. He told me he always went there before we got together as a get away. I didn't know why or really what for, I guess I never asked. I was positive kyle went there, it must have been the only place. Matt turned up ten minutes later and I dragged my self over to his car. I got in quietly. Matt didn't even have to greet me as he sped down the road, he knew I wasn't really in the mood for small talk. I didn't know what I was doing, I was a fool really, but I wasn't always the one to sit there and wait, or watch, or let it hurt me until I hurt no more. I had to sort it out. Matt already knew where I wanted him to take me. He did so without question. "You'll be okay, baby girl?" Matt asked as soon as he parked the car in front of the hotel. I nodded my head his way before pecking his cheek as a thank you and getting out of his car. The hotel was large, made of bricks and glass and was extremely warm and inviting. I had only been there once before. Matt said his goodbyes before speeding back down the road. He waited until I was inside. I wasn't really dressed for the occasion, but right now I had more things on my mind, such as my challenging husband. He was going to be the death of me, I swore by it. I walked up to the reception desk before laying my elbows on to the top of the counter. The receptionist in front of me had blonde highlighted hair and pale pink lips. She wore a locket around her neck and the usual uniform. "How can I help?" She smiled my way warmly and I smiled in return. "Has a Kyle Knight signed in by any chance?" I asked her with a sheepish expression. I didn't want to sound stupid, especially is he hadn't actually come here. The lady looked down at the bookings which weirdly was by book and not on computer. She scanned down the page before looking up. "He has. He's in room 212. Is he your boyfriend?" Her head was cocked to the side slightly. It gave off the impression that she was curious, not nosey. "Husband." I stated. We were young so it was only right for her to assume we were together that way, little did she know how connected we really were. She didn't even look a little taken back. She just nodded and smiled again. "Cute. You may go up if you like. Take the elevator on the left." She pointed to her right, which was my left and I smiled her way before going. The elevator seemed to take longer to get to the top than anything I've been in before. Kyle had only left an hour ago, but now, I was feeling the nerves. My heart was beating wildly; I was alive, but empty. As soon as the elevator pinged, I'm sure my heart went with it. Just as I was about to walk out of the elevator, I bumped in to a body I knew all too well. "What are you doing here?" Kyle asked as he took hold of my shoulders, stopping me from falling backwards. He looked down at me and took a step back. His eyes seemed red, redder than they were before he left. His hair seemed a mess and I couldn't believe how much his appearance changed even in the hour. "I need answers." I said firmly. He was going to tell me this time. We had to communicate, we had to work through this not just run away from eachother. "Cali...not now." He gritted through his teeth. He seemed to be getting angry and I wasn't even going to think about backing down now. I didn't know what I was doing but I had to do something. "Yes now!" I hissed. I didn't want others hearing us, I didn't want to seem like that couple. "No, Cali. I told you to leave me be." "Well I can't. You're my husband for fuck sake!" My voice was getting louder and I knew it. But he aggravated me, so much I just wanted to hit some sense in to him. I needed him to tell me what the matter was. I needed to help, at least to try and do something.