Chapter 54 Coming to terms

Chapter 54 Coming to terms
I slept so soundly it was strange. It took me a minute when I awoke to realize how different my life was now. I was a strange and powerful shifter, claimed by a white wolf. Vampires were real, and they were hunting me and testing me for something. Then my awful ex Chad tried to kill me to start a war of some kind. 

It was all just too much once I remembered it all and started thinking about it. Feeling the warmth to my back I nuzzled deeper into luka’s space. 

Luka groans in pleasure and pulls me in even further. I have never felt this happy and safe before. 

It felt amazing. 

It felt terrifying. 

But not as terrifying for what awaited me.

“Morning Beautiful.” Luka’s morning voice was sexier than is normal voice, like I ever thought that was possible. He kisses me right below my ear and heat shoots down my body my stomach twists in anticipation. This was all too much. I pull away.

“Sorry.” I mumble out.

“Hey it’s okay, your safe. Sorry if I startled you. I thought you might be awake.” Luka sounds worry. I am sure his face was all worry lines and concern, but I couldn’t bring myself to look at him. 

“No, It's… Um. I was awake…” my words jumble. How do I express, he doesn’t scare me but my feelings and how my body reacts scare me. 

“It’s okay. Whatever it is, you can tell me.  I know it's been a lot lately. If you are not ready to talk yet, that’s okay too.” Luka assures me as he rubs comforting circles on my arm.

I want to say something, about how I feel, what is going on in my head. I have so many questions. It was just so mixed up that nothing came out.

“I don’t know. It’s just been a lot the past few days… I guess I am still trying to process it all.” I explain.

“I understand. You can ask anything. And I will try to answer it as best I can.” Luka assured me. 

As far as I knew has been nothing but forth coming with me about things and that has made all this so much easier. Even though I barely knew him.

“Honestly. I don’t think my brain can take anymore information.” I admit,

“Fair enough.” Luka’s laugh rumbled in his chest. I loved the sound of it. “Let me go make us something to eat.” 

With that said and a long look before leaving the bedroom, I was alone. But then again I wasn’t. I felt the white wolf sleeping somewhere in my mind. That is something I would need to get used to.

I decided I should get ready for the day. Even though I had no idea what we were to be doing. I hoped I could visit my mom. It hasnt been that long since I last saw here and Alex and Matt have been keeping an eye on her. So I know she is still in her coma, but It has felt like a lifetime since I saw her. 

Moving to the bathroom I grabbed a change of clothes. Somehow Luka seemed to have gotten me a few outfits in my style and size. I was grateful for it. I would have to ask him how he does it. It always seems to just know what I like. 

MATE.

The word floated in my head. Heat flared up my body thinking about that would. I have an idea what that could mean, but would it mean the same thing to Luka? Or is it just the wolves? 

Mentally shaking my head. I don't know if I can ask him about it yet. I still need to get this whole shifter thing understood. 

The warmth of the shower made me feel human again. Or should I say shifter? Human felt right. Once I was cleaned and dried. I dressed and combed my hair. Thats when I smelled it.

Sandalwood and Citrus. 

Luka.

Then another smell hit me. It was sweet. 

“Is that french toast I smell?” I call out from the bathroom.

“Maybe.” Luka’s Voice was teasing through the door. Feeling excited. I finished up in the bathroom and saw he had a set up on the bed for us.

“Wait! Is that french toast, Apple stuffed french toast?” I asked. That was my favorite kind. 

“Yes” Luka’s smile proud and wide.

“I love apple stuffed french toast.” I tell him.

“Good, I am glad Phil told me.” Luka said.

“Are all the Holloways still here?” I asked. 

“Yes, but Jordan just left to check on things at the hotel.” Luka explained. 

I felt a pinch of sadness about Jordan Leaving. I still haven’t figured out what is wrong and if there is anything I can do about it.

“He will be okay.” Luka leaned over and lifted my chin.

“Huh?” I looked at him confused. “Are you a mind reader?” I asked half serious and half joking.

“No, but you wear you expressions on your face.” Heat crept up my face, embarrassed that I am that easily readable. “Anyway beautiful, I don’t know what is going on exactly with him, but I think he might be feeling a little hurt and betrayed right now.”

“What? Why?” I couldn’t think of a single thing that I could have done to hurt him. Was it because I only just recently told him about chad?

“I think it’s because he and his family grew up so close to you and they had no clue what you are, until now. So they feel hurt and betrayed in away.” Luka Explained.

Hurt and betrayed? But I did nothing wrong. I had no clue either. 

“Now, don't make that face. No one blames you.” Luka kisses me on the forehead. “Everyone just deals with big news like this differently.” 

“Okay…” I sighed. 

It made sense to some degree. It didn’t stop the guilt I felt for someone so close to me to be so hurt and not being able to do anything about it. I guess I will just give him some more space. Maybe he needs time to come to terms with this like I do. It was a lot. 

“Hey, Cheer up. He will come to terms with it when he is ready. Until them, lets eat so we can meet Jess at the hospital to see your mom.”

My ears perked at that.

“Really?” I asked as if he would lie to me about something that important.