Usher

I never thought that, I'll ever get someone who'll love me entirely, will even accept me with my broken past...

When I brought Zara by force back to the farm house, Jonah was already sitting there.

He wanted to talk to me, and I was well aware that our conversation won't end on good note.

" How can you do that, usher..? " Jonah screamed at me as soon as we left Zara in the Hall and came to another room..

" Calm down man, we planned only to get her back.. So what's the difference.. Does it makes now.. " I countered him.

" Really, you threatened that girl... She isn't your property Usher.. You can't just keep messing with her.. " Jonah was seething In anger.

Though I love Jonah like my brother but his propensity to defend Zara makes me go bonkers, I hate when anyone else tries to claim her in any way possible..

And without even giving a second thought I barked at Jonah asked him to not to worry about me and mind his own business, Zara is mine and I'll decide how to be with her..

Damn it.. What am I doing..I'm condescending someone who was always there for me..

I hated myself at that moment..

" You know what, usher.. You don't deserve her.. One day.. She'll get tired of your asshole attitude and will leave you.. Forever, than you'll realize what I was trying to explain... I thought you'll learn from the past... But you are hopeless man.. "Jonah said mocking me and continued..

" I hope buddy you get back in your senses before it's too late.. " Saying so he left.

I too left the house behind him.. But only after locking Zara inside the house cause I was scared after what Jonah said.. If she really left me than I'll be broken to a point of no repair.. Though I hated to treat her like that.. I know I was hurting her.. But. If she'll leave than.. I can never survive.

I left and did something that I didn't did since last ten years..

I got heavily drunk... I got totally wasted..

Jonah's word kept swimming inside my brain.. And to suppress his voice I kept drinking for whole of the night.. Finally in the morning.. I decided to go back home.. To Zara.

I entered and fell on the floor making her wake up from her sleep.. She was sleeping on the couch looking all angelic..

She came rushing towards me..

With her delicate body she was trying hard to pick me up..

But I was to heavy for her..

She tried to ask me why I was this way.. Why did I got drunk..

But I was too scared to answer..

But when she told me that she still loves me broke my all barrier..

I decided to give her all of me... My past , my preset my future.

I told her everything, from what Jason did to how I fought to get her back..

To my surprise even after knowing how messed up I'm she did not leave me.

She was way stronger than I thought..

And now after everything... Zara was my girl finally..

Her compassion was beyond my imagination. The depth of her love is deeper than the ocean.. Even after what I did with her .. This heavenly beauty loves me.. How.. And why.

But now nothing matters.. Only this.. That this angel in my arms loves me.. And no matter what.. I'll never let her go.. Ever.

After this long I could finally claim her proudly. As mine. Having her in my arms as mine was most beautiful feeling I ever felt..

I was finally feeling burden free after my confession..

But Jonah call shook me to the core when he informed me that.. Mom is in the hospital..

I rushed to the hospital.. I was devastated to see mum like that.. But the thing that kept me intact was Zara.. She was always by my side in this toughest time.

Soon mom was all heathy and fine.. Zara took care of her like her own mother, making me fall more and more in love with her by every passing day.

The way she used to sit with mom with a cup of tea.. And used to chat for hours..

Sometimes I too wanted to hear what they were talking about.. But both these two most important woman of my life never allowed me to hear any of their conversation.

Every passing day was strengthening our bond deeper and deeper.

Our love blossomed.. We were more than happy being together.

I never felt this loved, in my entire life. She gave me heaven. Every night was more beautiful than the other.. Our love was at its peak. But soon when Liam came back things started to fall apart.

I knew that man, holds feeling for her that's why I was always reluctant to let her be with him but she is strong headed, she kept pushing me until unless I myself agreed to let her be his friends.

But I know he definitely would try to make a move on her, when Zara started working for me again I could see the way he always drooled over her, he never left a chance to touch my girl, even sometimes he embraced her in front of my eyes.

This all was too much for me.. I decided to make Zara mine.. Forever..

I already wanted to do this since the day we openly accepted our feelings for each other but this thing right in front of me, was a sign that I should do it now.. So I proposed Zara, traditionally getting down on my one knee with a ring in my hand and I asked her the words.

. " Will you marry me.. " She was delighted to hear that.. But what she said.. Next was.. Like tons of bricks hitting me at once..

She said that she still needs time to be sure about us.. What does she still doubts me or is it because if that Liam.

I was broken but I didn't showed her. I accepted her request.. I just wonder that may be she doesn't loves me enough to trust me that's even after being together for months she did not told me anything about her family. Even after I tried hell hard to ask her but she always diverted the topic.. Seeing her reluctance I never pushed her off the limits.. But her request of asking for more time was final nail in the coffin of our relationship..

I started to drift away from her, slept in different room, left for the office way ahead of time.. Though these distance from her were killing me but I can't allow another woman to break me like Veronica.. My reason for treating her this way wasn't her rejection, but the photographs of her and Liam which Jessica send me...

The photographs.. Were showing their undying love..

In some he was holding her more close than he should. And in some she was looking at him like no one else exist beside him..

I could have easily dismissed those photographs, but I can't deny something I saw with my eyes, since the day Zara resumed back here in office, Liam always tried to make a move on her, sometimes to take Or give files, he used to go to Zara cabin or sometimes to take her for lunch, even though I was there, he didn't stopped on that account too. Yes, we did hide our relationship I'm the office cause of Zara, she was too reluctant to let anyone know about us even though I was ready to claim her proud and openly but I respected her choice.

But this Liam... He went way too far, every now and then I saw him with Zara, the worst part Zara never found anything odd in his behaviour, she was comfortable with the proximity, most of the time I used to point her on that, but she used to shrug it all saying that Liam has always been like this with her... Holy what... He was always this close to her.... What else am I missing in here..

I argued with Zara on this, we even had a fight, after which she didn't talked to me for weeks, but after a week she came and talked to me and explained Liam's important in her life, begrudgingly I allowed her to be the way she was with her so called friend cause I can't refuse a damn thing to her, she makes me too strong and too weak simultaneously. That's how much control she now has over me. She promised that she'll keep her distance from Liam, but the things continued the same way and now the photographs here are the proof that, they aren't just friends...

Seeing it all only raged me to the sky..

She with Liam was cheating on me.. The photographs clearly showed the evidence.. How cosy they were with each other. In the arms of each other.. It raged my blood.. And the very next morning Zara chose to point me out on my sudden change of behaviour.. And damn.. That was very wrong timing of her to do that.

I barked at her with anger and even accused her of her character.

I regretted doing that.. But if she's really cheating on me... Than.. I'll never leave her or Liam..

I went to office after that.. Zara didn't showed up that day, great.. Cause I was beyond mad.. And may be her presence would have provoked me to hell.

I tried to get myself involved in the work to distract my mind from Zara.

Liam came into my office with Jonah after lunch....

" What is wrong with you man..? " Jonah asked.. A bit angry while Liam was standing at one corner if my office..

" Nothing "I replied effortlessly.. And then again started working on my computer..

" How the hell are you treating Zara.. Didn't I told you to take care of her.. And now you are accusing her... Great man.. Good job.. She deserves this.. Cause she fell for you.. " Jonah said sarcastically..

Damn... It what.. Now Zara keeps on gossiping about us to Jonah and Liam. It's too much..

Now she's even going behind my back.. And provoking my best friend against me.. How dare she.. First she went on and cheated me and now this...

" Really.. So she told you... Than she must of told you the reason too.. " Angrily.. I said.. And took out the photographs that Jessica gave me and threw it on the table.

"Usher, you can't be a fool to believe them..." Jonah said Emotionlessly..

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" May be the photos can be forged.. But what about my eyes... I see them every day together.. Isn't that the truth...."I said seething pointing at Liam..

Jonah fell silent.. Then Liam started to speak. And explained everything. And now the new filled information.. Just blew my mind..

Liam told these photos are the ones that he took , when Zara was working in the restaurant.. He admitted that..at that time he wanted Zara to forget about me..and even asked her to be his

girlfriend..that's why he always tried to be close to her to make her feel safe..but nothing actually worked In his favour as her heart always belonged..to.me..and he finally understood And respected

that.And he even made me hear the recording that he did of Jessica, she was talking to someone on the phone.. Saying that.." Yeah the work is almost done , he believes that, she is cheating on him.. "

Damn it..

Him openly confessing that he has a thing for Zara boiled my blood.. He even tried to manipulate her mind.. Even after knowing that she loves me.. I would have punched him.. But the recording caught my attention.. So that witch planned this all.

And that too for some one else..

But who..

Right now is not the time to think about her.. I did hurt Zara.

I need to get home and apologize as soon as possible..

I doubted Zara for nothing.. And even accused her of her character. Did not even gave her the chance to explain.. And this Jessica.. She tricked me. How can only not believe the woman I love but did believe this witch..

I hopelessly and ashamed of myself sat on my chair.. Hiding my face with my hands..

"Usher.. This is not the time to sit here like this.. Go home apologize to her man. I'm sure shell forgive.. " Jonah said.. Trying to motivate me..

. Yes, Zara has always forgiven me even for the worst I did..

I wanted to go home right now but due to my prior commitment at work I had to stay..

I was late from my usual time..

In the way I bought flowers for Zara..lavenders..she loves it.And went straight for home to apologize her.

As soon as I reached I rushed through the stairs, and knocked once twice.. Many times.. Still no response.. I hurriedly took out the spare keys and unlocked the door..

And everything stood still..

The hall was disheveled.. Blood on the floor... Destroyed flowers...vase....And no sign of Zara's existence....