Chapter 69 Chapter Sixty-Nine
Ryder pulls me away from his body, tilting my chin up so I am looking at his eyes. "Baby. I am so sorry. I didn't know you were upset. You should have came to me, I didn't even think about how being with the three of us like that for the first time would make you feel. I am so sorry baby."
He kisses my cheek and then my forehead, pulling me tightly against him again and I feel like I could cry all over again. "It's okay. I'm sorry I didn't come to you. I promise I didn't choose to go to Logan. He just messaged asked to hang out and I didn't think I just went."
Ryder kisses the top of my head. "It's okay baby. I wish you didn't have to go over there looking so sexy though."
I chuckle against his chest. "It was either this or sweat pants."
Ryder laughs. "You look to sexy no matter what you wear so I guess I will just have to keep you home."
I burst out laughing. "Oh whatever."
We both laugh, and he holds me close. I'm so glad he isn't mad at me. Reece and Raikin are a different story. What if they get mad?
"Do you think Reece and Raikin are mad at me?" I ask.
Ryder tenses, that can't be a good sign. "They are pretty upset baby. They were just as worried as I was."
"Where are they?" I ask, even though I'm not really ready to see them. I have to talk to them though.
"They are in the Den." Ryder says as he loosens his hold on me.
"Are Mom and your dad here?" I ask, just in case they yell at me. I don't want our parents hearing our argument.
"I don't think so babe. I'm not sure though."
"Okay. I guess I better go talk to your brothers." I say heading towards the den.
Ryder follows close behind me and honestly I'm happy for his support. If Reece and Raikin do get really mad at me, I want Ryder there to keep me from crying or something.
I step into the den and Raikin is the first to notice me. "You're back baby. Where the hell were you? We have been calling you." Raikin says, relief evident in his voice.
Reece stands up from the chair and walks towards me, pulling me in for a hug. "I know. Sorry I was with Logan." I say against Reece's chest.
Raikin walks over to us. "You were with Logan all night?" He asks sounding irritated.
"Yeah." I say turning to him, thinking he is going to hug me too."
Raikin doesn't hug me, instead he looks me up and down, and narrows his eyes at me. "What were you doing with him all night?"
I shrug my shoulders. "We just hung out, drove around, and talked."
Raikin points at my outfit. "You just hung out. While you were dressed like this?" He asks sounding like he doesn't believe me.
"Yeah. We just hung out." I say looking over at Reece, who's face is emotionless making it very hard to tell what he is thinking.
"You guys didn't fuck?" Raikin asks accusingly.
I scoff in disbelief. "No. We didn't."
"Show us." Raikin says crossing his hands over his chest.
"How the hell am I supposed to show you?" I ask, eyes wide in shock. I can't believe he is acting like this.
"Take off your skirt, if you guys didn't fuck there won't be any cum on the inside of your legs." Raikin says and I stare at him in shock. Why is he being this way?
"Dude seriously?" Ryder asks, coming to my defense.
"Yes seriously. I don't believe she went out all night dressed like that and they didn't fuck." Raikin says and I feel the first tear sting my eyes.
"I'm not taking my skirt off." I whisper as the first tear falls.
"Then I guess I got my answer. I knew we couldn't fucking trust her." Raikin says and I turn and run out of the room.
Ryder tries to grab my wrist but I don't let him. I run as fast as I can up to my room, slamming the door closed behind me. I sink down against the door, letting my head fall against my knees, as I hug myself tightly.
The tears fall freely, sobbing against my knees. Why did I go with Logan? I should have known better. Raikin didn't even let me explain why I went with Logan. He just automatically assumed I was fucking him.
I promised I wouldn't fuck anyone else and I meant it. If he didn't want me to see Logan then he should have told me that. He shouldn't have said it's okay for me to hang out with him and the guys, if it wasn't okay.
His words ring through my head again 'I knew we couldn't fucking trust her.' Why doesn't he trust me? I haven't done anything to make him not trust me. He was the one that said it was okay for me to be friends with them.
Raikin said it was okay for me to kiss Logan and my other guy friends, he said it was okay for me to still hang out with them and be friends with them. If he didn't want me doing any of that, all he had to say was I don't want you doing that.
Instead of doing that, he has just been waiting for me to what? Mess up? Cheat on them? Decide I don't want to be in a relationship with the three of them? I don't understand what is going through his mind? Is it really that hard for him to trust that I won't do anything to mess up our new relationship?
I sit there for I don't know how long crying. The more I think about the look in Raikin's eyes and the things he said, the harder I sob, my tears burn my eyes as they run down my face soaking my shirt. My phone buzzes and I grab it. It's a new text from Logan.
Logan: I hope your step brothers weren't to mad at you and me for staying out all night. I had a lot of fun, can't wait to do it again.
I can't help but smile. Logan is so sweet and thoughtful. I don't regret hanging out him, I know I should but how can I? He is my friend and I'm not going to give him up just because Raikin wants to be an asshole.
Me: Ryder wasn't mad. Raikin was pretty pissed and I don't know how Reece was feeling. I had a lot of fun too! Thank you for last night.