CHAPTER 61
Raven watched as his body froze and she took notice of the several range of emotions that seemed to pass though his eyes. It was as though didn't want the words to be true and as though he was serving hot the right thing to say to her.
She didn't know how to respond to him truly. It wasn't something that she enjoyed talking about and on most days the thought of it alone made her feel sick: she didn't want any of her thoughts to come to se she felt herself sucking in a deep breath in and out and then relating the price. She felt her hands shaking slightly at he thought as she let out a sigh from her lips.
“What about you explain it to me tell me what if going on”. He said to her s shrried tk reach out again in the holes of taking a hold of her hand. But she wasn't having any of it. Instead of her responding to him she shook her head at him.
“It was when I had just moved into the Alpha's home. I was still trying to get my home there. The alpha didn't like me very much and he had said that I should stay away from him and his damult. It didn't make sense to me at the time and i have been a foolish child because I had always had assumed that the reason northwest was because i had done something wrong, but I couldn't have done anything wrong to bim because the fact was that I always did and tried my best you make him happy and so that he wanted. And yet it was always the luna who seemed to be the only one who was on my side. She found a way for her to tell me what was right and she always was gherr to keep me calm. I loved her truly and I felt as if she understood me. And I or I have time to realize that the reason for that was mainly because he harbored the darkness as well . It was something that the two of us shared together. She was also plagued by it and dhr knew that I held special powers. She wanted to help me to be able to take control of that and she wanted me to learn how otherness and make use of my magic properly. At first most of the people didn't at the time I was hush level and I was being bullied and tossed around by those that were in the pack. Do I decide to take on her offer?
She fwcoded yo teai me on her own accord and on one occasion we have ended up teleporting to the dark forest .I didn't know whether shd that had happened to me but we were stuck and she yried tl get me to harness my powers and to focus othem kn her. The just Timing that I wanted it do ears to hurt her and so obviously when she had said that i has msde am attempt to decline. I had tried to explain to her that I wanted nothing to do with that but she just wouldn't listen. All she could do was so sad to offer me a smile as she shook her head first. She tried to attack me to get me to be tiled and at first it didn't work but then she seemed to get me angered. I did it half the time after that but I felt as though at some point I had locked out because Indktn remembered what happened next. One moment I had attacked her by accident and the next moment she was wriggling on the floor unmoving. I knew that it was my fault and I hated the sight of it. I had been called a monster for sl mind and it seemed as though they far by had just been confirmed to be the truth. Raven said to him as her words echoed through the room
She didn't want to look him in the eye at first as the last thing that she wanted was for her to be met with the sight of disappointment. She knew that it was one that was point to happen but aside from it she knew that she could also find fear. That broke her heart and she knew that he was the last person that she would want to fear. She didn't want him to be hated by her but rather in sonr twisted way she wanted for him to be able to trust her. She didn't know how she would be able to do that.
She felt some movement to stomp her as she came back to a stop in for her. She felt as he reached out his hand and he grabbed a hold of her before lifting it up as he forced her to look at him eyes and stare of concern on his face. He had a worried look on his face.
“Hey i know that you think that you are a terrible person and that you feel as though you have done a lot Of bad things but i don't believe that. I refused to believe that you are capable of all of the bad things that you claim. You aren't sure of what happened to her and I don't want you to continue to blame yourself. It won't do anyone any good. It will only cause you more pain and sorrow . I know that it is hard for you to come to terms with that but it is simply hope things are. We have things in this world and in this life that are just out of our control.`` He said to her and she let out a sigh from her lips.
“Well I don't know if you can say that. How is it that you are able to look at me and you don't see me for the complete and utter monster that I know that I am .” She said to him .
“Because I am not better.”