AMBROSE'S POV
Fucking hell! I growled angrily before throwing the files off my table on the ground.
"Ambrose? Are you okay? What's wrong? I heard some crashing -" I could see George stopping at the entrance, and I looked at him with angered eyes.
"Leave me alone, George,"
"Alpha, is everything okay?" Lucas entered next, and I gritted my teeth to control my anger. Hurting my people in the fit of my anger was the last thing I wanted to do after I messed up this big time.
"Leave me alone, you guys," my voice came harsher than I had intended.
"But Ambrose, you don't look okay and -"
"I said leave!" I roared in my alpha voice and saw George and Lucas trembling in their positions.
It made me feel guilty, but right now, controlling my anger was my main focus.
"Call me if you need me," George mentioned in a low voice before leaving with Lucas, and I walked to the window, leaning against it helplessly.
What do I do now? What the hell did I do? I know we were both in the moment of our lust, and I had been waiting to make love to her, and her heat scent got to me, but marking? That to be without her permission?
Fucking hell! I growled, and Cyrus growled inside me.
"What are you regretting now?! We all did that in our love. She didn't mind us kissing her, making love to her, so she shouldn't mind our marking her either," Cyrus growled, and for the first time, I realized how blind a wolf can become in love.
"You don't understand, Cyrus. We marked Valerie! She is not normal. She is a fucking hybrid!" I gritted my teeth, tugging my hair in frustration.
Why the hell did I let it happen? A woman's senses are the weakest in heat, and she was weak. I was strong enough, wasn't I? How the hell did I let it slip? Making love to her was a different thing, but marking her and -
"So you are not angry because we had sex with her but are angry because we ended up marking her, and it would make us take her responsibility? I didn't know you had it in you, Ambrose," Cyrus said, and I gritted my teeth at his vague accusations.
"That's not what I meant! And you clearly know that! Stop making me angrier than I already am! The only reason I am worried about marking her is because she is a hybrid. If I had known about her secret, we would have found another solution for it," I said, and he scoffed.
"Solution like what, Ambrose? Why are you hiding behind these meaningless words? Just say what you want to," Cyrus said, and I paused.
He was right. He saw right through me. I wasn't angry at Valerie because she didn't tell me the truth. She didn't know anything either. I could see it in her eyes.
I was getting angry because her hybrid self might make me want to choose between her and the pack. And that's the last thing I want to do. I don't want to end up choosing between her and the pack. I love my people, but this never-ending love for her was true too.
I love her. I love her so much that it hurts. How am I supposed to live without her now that I know what loving her feels like?
"George," I summoned him because I didn't know who else to talk to clear my head, and he immediately rushed to my office.
"Are you finally ready to tell me what's wrong with you? I know something has happened, or you won't act like this. I know you this much," George said, and I sat on the chair, helplessly.
"Valerie went into heat," I said, and he nodded, his eyes telling me he already knew the gist of what I was about to say to him.
"I couldn't control myself around her. Cyrus and I went crazy for her after we smelt her arousal and heat scent," I paused.
"So you ended up having s*x with her?" George said, and I looked down.
If only it was that easy, I wouldn't be here racking my brains about what I should do now.
"Yes. But that's not the only thing I did," I said, and he widened his eyes.
"No way did you -"
"I did," I cut him off, and he sighed before sitting in the seat across from me.
"Are you serious about her?" George asked, and I looked at him.
"Are you seriously asking me this after knowing everything? You better than anyone knows how serious I am about her," I groaned, and he sighed.
"Then what's the problem? It's not like this is happening for the first time. There are so many times when a rogue turns out to be an alpha's mate. If no one questions it, why is this wrong?" He said, and I ruffled my hair in annoyance.
"I know, damn it. I know you all got my back and would be with me in all my decisions, but this time it's not so simple," I looked away.
"Is it about Luna's position? Is she not ready to be your mate and a part of us?" He asked, and I hummed.
"However, that's not the only reason," I paused.
"Valerie is the same girl the council wanted us to protect and keep under keen observation, right?" I asked, and he hummed.
"Well, that's because she had a secret. A secret bigger than any of us could've imagined," I stood from my place to walk to the window and close it.
I can't have this information released to anyone else until I am sure about everything.
"The council wanted to protect her because apparently she was cursed by a vampire's bite. She is a half-vampire now," I said, and George widened his eyes.
"Half what? Are you sure about it? I mean, last time I checked, she was a pure vegetarian and everything... Does that mean she had been lying to us all this time?" George asked, and I shook my head.
"No. It's not clear how, but she found out about it last night too," I sighed, and he shook his head.
"Hold on a minute. I think I am missing something here. Did you say she just found out yesterday night? If that's the case it means she had no idea she was cursed by a vampire bite until now. For a species to turn into a half-vampire, they need to drink someone's blood. Did she end up killing anyone? Did she kill an innocent human or a werewolf to quench her thirst, and that's how you guys found out?" He asked me, and I didn't know how to answer this question.
"Wait. Don't tell me... You said you marked her. It means she must've bitten you too. Does that mean...the person she drank blood from -"
"It's me. I activated her curse," I confessed, and he looked at me for a few good seconds, saying nothing before he unleashed his anger.
"The hell is wrong with you?! You fool! Do you even know what kind of danger you have unleashed upon her? Is this what makes you angry? Is this why you are regretting your mark?" George asked, and I looked away.
"It was one of the many reasons I didn't want to be with her anymore. However, it wasn't the main reason," I paused.
"What do you mean? Look, I know you are my alpha too, but right now, you are just a friend who has done something grave, and I can't keep my patience and respect anymore. So without wasting any time, tell me everything that's going inside that head of yours," George stood from his place, and I clenched my fists.
"I don't want to be with her because I liked it, okay? I f*cking liked it when she sucked my neck and drank my blood. It was nothing as I imagined, and as much as I hate myself for being like this even when I am the strongest Alpha in the world and am supposed to hate those vampires, I fucking loved every minute of it. And if she offered to drink my blood again, I would get down on my knees and beg her for it!" I growled in one breath, and George looked at me as if something was wrong with my head.
Honestly, even I didn't know if I was the same and sane anymore. I wasn't supposed to feel like this.
That's the reason I rushed out of her apartment when she asked me to leave. I know she hated my outbursts, and I regretted raising my voice at her, but God forbid I fell in love again when I saw the mark on her neck.
I didn't know I was so madly in love with her until I realized what kind of thoughts I was having. This wasn't supposed to be normal.
"So, what are you waiting for?" George asked me, and I looked at him, unsure what he meant by that sentence.
"I mean it, Ambrose. You said you know we always have your back, so what's exactly stopping you? You know that you love her dearly. I can see that in your eyes. I know you are looking out for her because you don't want her to feel guilty and turn into something she isn't, but aren't you kind of running from your responsibility?" George asked.
"You made her believe in you even when she told you she had a secret, and now that you have unleashed her demons, you are running away in the name of protecting her. What kind of tyranny is this? I didn't know you were such a coward until today," He walked to me before holding my shoulders.
"She maintained her secret for eighteen years, no? Do you think she will turn into a monster overnight? She can control herself pretty fine. What she needed at a time like this was your support! And what did you do? You left her alone because you couldn't get your thoughts straight," he looked into my eyes, and I looked away.
"It's okay, Ambrose. I know you fear what you'll turn into at this rate because of this love, but it's okay. It's okay to want her even after everything. It's okay to be her lover and want her to bite you, and as sick as it sounds, want her to drink your blood.
Love makes you want weird things. I know you came here to know if your pack will have your back, and we will accept your choice in love. I assure you that the loyalty of this pack will always be with you, especially mine. Besides, I personally believe we can have a Luna who can take our rude alpha," he said, and I thinned my lips.
"Hey, I am sorry about earlier. It's because -"
"The time is ticking. Go and get her before that council head's son comes and takes her away. He has always been a nuisance in your love, no?" George said, and that was enough for me to run out of the office and pack in at full speed.