Chapter 78 078
Amy’s POV
I listened to him growling at me as he couldn’t accept the fact that I had decided I wanted to leave. This environment is way too toxic for me, and I don’t think I’ll be able to survive much longer with my baby. As long as I’ve decided to keep my baby, I won’t let anyone harm my child. This is why I have to leave since he doesn’t have any sense of calmness with him.
I thought I would lose my child earlier, as I was in so much pain when he decided he was going to kill Brian. I know I don’t care about Brian anymore, but at the same time, I don’t want to be the cause of his death.
Even if he’s stubborn and annoying, we used to be friends in the past. Giving him up when he only rejected me doesn’t mean anything. After all, he would be able to understand that I don’t want him anymore for now.
If I hadn’t gotten agitated like that, what would have happened to him? I think I would probably be getting blamed for everything by everyone, because Damien wouldn’t care, and my pack wouldn’t be able to win a war against him even if they wanted to avenge Brian.
At the same time, no one would want to see that it wasn’t really his fault, and that Brian was just making him angry to the extent that he couldn’t take it anymore and killed him.
“I don’t think you have a right to decide my life for me. Besides, I don’t want to be in this toxic environment anymore, which is why I want to leave. Don’t you think you’re doing me more harm than good?” I asked him.
He shook his head. “I know I’m not doing things the right way with you, and I’m apologizing for that but I can’t let you leave when you’re in this kind of position.”
I knew he was going to say that no matter what I did. Is it really impossible for me to get away from him and make sure that he doesn’t get any misunderstanding about me? But he still didn’t trust me.
If he trusted me, he wouldn’t have been so mad seeing Brian like that. I don’t want to do this anymore. I want to protect my child, and I don’t think he’s fit enough to be the father to a child right now.
“Damien,” I called him, “don’t you understand me at all? I agreed to stay with you for protection earlier but what protection are you giving me now? All you do is get jealous all the time without giving me a chance to explain myself. Besides, we’re not even in a relationship anymore. Why should I listen to you?”
“What do you mean by we’re not in a relationship? We’re having a child together, what kind of relationship do we need to confirm this? Don’t you know your status with me?” he fired at me immediately.
I guess he was very offended by what I said, but it didn’t matter to me anyway. His anger wouldn’t stop me from saying the things I should.
“Are you even listening to yourself at all? Since when did you see me as someone worthy of being in a position with you?” I asked him, and he couldn’t say anything.
So I continued, “You’ve always seen me as someone who wasn’t worthy of being with you especially when I didn’t have my wolf. Now that you know we are the same species, you want to prove that I am finally worthy to be with you? You think I have no self-respect?”
I don’t know why I was getting angry saying all of this. Maybe it’s the pregnancy that’s giving me mood swings, but I just couldn’t take it anymore. He’s way too arrogant. He doesn’t listen to anyone, and he doesn’t think about the consequences of his actions. All he does is order people around and push his ideals onto others, even if they don’t want it.
“Amelia, I promise you it’s not what you think it is. I wasn’t looking down on you. I never looked down on you,” he explained.
“What the hell are you talking about? Are you saying my memory is wrong?”
“No, that’s not what I said. Your memory isn’t wrong. I did say a lot of hurtful things to you, but I just thought I had to do that to make you stay by my side. Like I said, it was my only way of forcing you to stay with me. I just didn’t want you to leave me,” he replied gently for the first time.
Should I listen to him at all? He says he didn’t mean to disrespect me like that, but he’s disrespected me on so many occasions. He doesn’t even respect my parents. He only thinks of himself as above everyone else.
I shouldn’t forget that he’s the devil everyone fears and hates. My family doesn’t want me to be around him at all. If it wasn’t for this deadly night that would have taken me away and now he’s making me feel like he never did that to me. Is he trying to push the evil narrative onto me, or what?
“I’m going to pretend I didn’t hear you say all of that. Are you trying to manipulate me into staying? You shouldn’t think if you force me to stay here, you won’t watch me end my life with your child,” I told him.
I know I definitely wouldn’t do anything to hurt my own child, but I have to force him to do this so I can get away from him. He’s not going to bend to my rules if I don’t force him. I thought I would give him time to figure out everything on his own. Even if I have feelings for him, I have to make him trust me and reciprocate those feelings.
“Do you hate me that much that you don’t even care about our own child?” he sounded so hurt by this.
I nodded. “No, I don’t hate you but I hate your personality. I hate your character. And I hate the fact that you think you’re above everyone. You have no regard for anyone. You’re selfish, and you only think of yourself. Have you ever asked me if I like any of the things you’re doing for me? Do you think my opinion doesn’t matter at all?”
He didn’t say anything but stared at me for a while. Is he having second thoughts, or is he going to lose his mind again and do something that’ll make me hate him completely? I kept looking at him, trying to see the answers in his eyes, but nothing was coming out.
I could definitely tell he was planning something but what is he going to do? Is he going to lock me up and make sure I don’t get out of here anymore? He has nothing against me; however, he definitely has more power than my entire pack.
“Amelia, can you give me a chance to make this up to you again?” he suddenly asked.
I stared at him in confusion. “Give you a chance? What does that even mean?”
“I want to try this again with you. Will you give me a chance to try and not leave me?”
He sounded like he was begging me, and I just couldn’t say no to him. His eyes showed so much sincerity and desperation. Does that mean he cares about me sincerely, and he’s scared to lose me? Does this mean it’s not about possessiveness or power anymore but actual affection?
“Damien, do you love me?”
He looked startled by the question I asked him, and he didn’t say anything. What does this mean? Did I misunderstand him again? If he loves me, he wouldn’t be taking so much time to answer me. He’s not saying anything, which means he doesn’t care about me. Is he doing all of this for the child? Or maybe I didn’t understand that he’s just a psychopath that can’t love anyone.