Chapter 72 072
Amy's POV.
After my parents left, I started thinking about living with Damien again. Now I have to bear with his annoying self just to protect my child, but it's not so bad living with him after all. Even though he did some things that made me angry, I think he made up for it by making me talk to my parents that I was worried about, and I also solved the problem of telling them about my relationship with him.
I know my dad doesn't fully support me being with him and I don't support it either. He's not to be trusted, and I guess he's just being nice to me because of the child. If there was no child, he probably wouldn't be so good to me. But I couldn't help feeling guilty about what I did to him earlier in front of my parents.
He probably did this because he wanted to have more control over me and also know where I am, but most importantly, he wouldn't do anything to hurt me.
However, his control is too much for me; it makes me feel like he's trying to push me further away from him. Every time I try to understand his actions, I end up condemning them.
But then again, I thought about the danger I would be in if I went out now. They would probably have found out that I'm with him and would be looking for every opportunity to catch me. I haven't even practiced or done anything with my wolf. I don't know how to control myself yet.
If I go out there I might be in danger and I will have to be in trouble all the time. He might be a lycan, but it doesn't mean that he's not going to die if they try to kill him with everything they have.
I walked around the living room and found him sitting down and working on some things. Sometimes, looking around his mansion, I can't help thinking about how rich he is. He must have a lot of businesses and empires that I haven't heard about. Who knows if he's also doing some evil underground things? That wouldn't be something he's not capable of doing given his reputation as the most evil person alive.
"Are you done cursing me in your heart?" I heard his voice ring in my ears and I frowned.
I turned around to look at him. "How long were you hiding behind me? Or have you been following me since?"
It's so annoying to think about how powerful he is, that he can hide his steps and also his scent. I was startled by him appearing from nowhere, and the fact that he can also read my heart makes me mad.
If he can read my heart, he should know that I condemn every one of his controlling acts, and he should find ways to stop. Why does he keep doing it? He's probably trying to make me more angry, right?
"You already know I'm cursing you. Since I have no privacy at all, why are you asking me that?" I snapped angrily at him, pushing him out of the way to sit on the couch.
He sat down opposite me, staring at me like he wanted to say something, but he didn't say anything. His stay only made me feel uncomfortable, and I had to force him to say it.
"What exactly do you want to say to me? Don't just look at me like that. Say the damn thing," I demanded from him.
He took a deep breath before saying it. "What do you think about becoming my Luna as soon as possible?"
"What?"
"I know you said you didn't want to become my Luna, but don't you think it's time you started thinking about it? You're carrying my child now, and it's only a matter of time before we be together, so in my opinion—"
"Can you shut your mouth and stop talking? What the hell did you just say—become your Luna just like that? You already said so many times that I wasn't worthy of being your Luna. What makes you think I would accept just because I'm carrying a child now?"
I thought he would be offended by what I said, but he wasn't even offended. It was as if he expected me to say that, but he just wanted to say it anyway. Is he doing this to test my patience or what? He already knew I would reject him, and he still said it out.
"You don't seem surprised by my reply to you. Anything you say will become the law and I can't refuse, right? You're just informing me, aren't you?" I asked him.
He nodded. "You're right about me informing you, but this is all for your own good. I have already talked to your father, and he also thinks you will be very well protected by me. Which is why I have to make you my Luna."
I scoffed. "What does being your Luna have to do with anything? I think you're just looking for an opportunity to force me into being with you!"
He's a jerk! Even if I'm the one who's in love with him now, I don't care. I don't want to be with someone who doesn't care about my feelings and who only wants to put his own words into action.
Everything he always thinks about is his control, and he doesn't know how to love properly. If he can't care about me properly, then there's no use loving him or being with him. The only thing bringing us together is the child and I would never let him mess with me again.
After all, I have my wolf; there's no reason for me to be scared of him. If it gets worse, you have to fight me with his child and I know he wouldn't want to do that, because anyone can see he's more excited about having the baby than I am.
"I'm doing everything to prove that I just want to be with you and not force you into anything. Why would you think that of me?"
"Isn't that what you've always wanted? Have you forgotten how you treated me and how you messed around with other women in front of me with no regard for my feelings? You think I'm going to believe that someone like you actually cares?" I asked, and he went silent.
"See? You can't even defend yourself because you know what I said is the truth. You haven't learned to love anyone and I don't know what your problem is. But if you've never loved anyone, you shouldn't think of being with me."
With that said, I walked away from him, leaving him to think about what I said and reflect on his actions. He needs to learn about his feelings and what he actually thinks. If he can't differentiate his feelings, then it's not useful to talk to him.
But deep down my heart hopes he can actually think about what he wants, and I won't want him to be with me despite his evil nature. Because I'm in love with him after all, and I want him to love me back.