Chapter 57 057
Amy's POV
I'm going to leave this damn place s f not forgive anyone of them. My family and Damien are putting me through way too much. Even if they wanted to protect me from Damien, they never really tried to ask for my opinion. Now that I know Damien doesn't care about me, I need to make a decision.
I'm already carrying his child. What am I supposed to do with it now? The father isn't willing to be in our lives, we're left alone. I know nothing about being a mother but this baby is mine. My baby is innocent and I certainly won't let anything happen to my child.
So what if Damien isn't here with me? I can always raise my child by myself. The only problem I have left is my family. They surely won't let me keep the child if they find out. They don't want me to have anything to do with Damien.
There's no telling what they can do to make sure that connection is completely lost. I also hate Damien for breaking my heart. But I won't let them hurt my child. The only thing left for me to do now is to find a way to start my new life.
"Amy, what have you been thinking about?" Stacy's voice brought me back from my thoughts.
I looked at her with a faint smile, "Nothing much. I'm just thinking of how much of a joke I've become. It's like the universe is having revenge on me."
She quickly sat down beside me, holding my hand in hers. "Please don't say that Amelia. You've done nothing wrong. You're the victim and you shouldn't blame yourself for anything."
I shook my head, "You don't understand. My life has completely changed. Am I supposed to just accept it and move on? Raising a child alone is no small issue."
She looked speechless for a moment. I knew she was also going to struggle in telling me what I can do. I don't expect too much anyway. She has done her best to help me all the time, I should face my own problems on my own.
"Is that why you haven't eaten well the past few days? Look at how you've lost so much weight and became pale. Don't you know it will affect your baby? Does your family not care at all?"
She stood up, ready to go and question my parents but I pulled her back. My parents just think I'm throwing a tantrum, they don't know about my pregnancy and I don't want them to know.
"You don't have to do anything on my behalf. I don't want you to fall into trouble for me. I'm fine, don't bother them." I told her.
But I know she's very stubborn and unwilling to accept something like this.
"Since you don't want me to tell them, then you should eat something to put my mind at ease. We need strength to discuss the next line of action." She suggested.
I didn't want to argue with her anymore because I knew it would be hard for me to win against her in ab argument in this situation that she already made up her mind.
"Fine. We'll do as you said." I assured her.
She nodded, "I'll make you something myself. Don't forget I cook well now. If you can't eat their food, you'll surely love mine."
I almost laughed because I know she used to be bad at cooking but she improved her cooking because she wanted to cook the favorite dishes her boyfriend loves just to pay him back for always cooking for her.
She's lucky to have met such a man who cares about her and not just sees her as a mate or sex tool. Her boyfriend is a honorable person and I can vouch for him. He also comes from a prestigious family so he's trusted. At least, I'm rest assured that she's treated well.
"I'll be right back. Don't think too much, you'll harm your baby's health if you keep doing that." She reminded me again.
I knew it wouldn't be easy talking to her and she won't let me have my way in a hunger strike. Maybe she's right about the fact that I have to eat in order to take care of my baby. I might be mad at everyone but my baby is the most innocent.
I waited for her to bring the food while trying to take my mind off Damien. I can't stop thinking about that jerk no matter how I try. Maybe because I'm used to the way he treats me and then I thought he might actually want me.
It turns out I was just fooling myself. I meant nothing to him and the truth I didn't want to face was clear: I was just a replacement for his first love because he couldn't forget her. Being his mate was just a bonus. I'm a Lycan, I can never be anyone's substitute.
They used to look down on me but now I'm the one who will look down on everyone. I wonder what kind of child we're going to have. When two Lycans have a child, the child will naturally be a lycan but more powerful especially in this world where lycans are extinct.
This means that I not only need to protect myself but my child. If the evil ones ever find out about me, they'll come for the both of us. If they can't have me, they'll set their sights on my child. Why is my life so complicated?
"Amy look! I brought you the food." Stacy said, rushing in with the tray of simple food she made
"You really cooked for me today. I must have saved a country in my past life to experience this."
"What are you talking about? I always wanted to cook for you. You were just too busy to taste it. Now, you have an opportunity to do so." She replied, pouting like she was mad at me.
I chuckled, "Thank you, I'm going to take my time enjoying what you cooked. I hope it's as good as you rumoured."
She smiled at me and made sure that I tasted it. She wasn't lying when she said her cooking skills improved. I guess she did try hard to cook well for her man.
"How does it taste? Do you like it?" She asked in anticipation.
I smiled, "I'm not going lie to just because you're my best friend." I moved closer to whisper to her, "It's too fucking delicious!"
"Really?" She asked excitedly.
I nodded, "I'm serious. If it's bad, you should know already. Thank you for making this for me."
I slowly ate all the food she gave me. I didn't know my appetite would be so big despite my attempt to stop eating for a while. I guess there's a lot I don't know about myself.
"What exactly do you plan to do now?" She asked after a while.
I sighed, "You know my parents. They want me to have nothing to do with Damien so they surely won't let me keep the child."
"Don't say that, they might actually support and seek justice for you. How do you know if you don't tell them?"
I shook my head, "I don't think so Stacy. They hate Damien so much, they won't let me have his child now that it's at the stage where it can be removed."
"But that could endanger your life!" She protested, "don't worry. I'm going to talk to them myself and make sure no one hurts you! They have to support you."
I stopped her again, "Stacy please. Just do what I want. Sometimes, I feel like I'm not part of this family anymore. I just want to restart my life away from all this mess."
Her eyes glistened and I could tell she was trying hard to hold back her tears. I didn't mean to make her this sad, but that's the reality of my situation.
"You can't just go away. How are you supposed to survive easily with no one by your side? You also have a responsibility." She refused.
I moved her closer to me, "Stacy, you know my secrets. I'm a Lycan, I don't need to worry too much about defending myself. But I'm heartbroken right now."
"Amelia..."
"If I keep seeing or hearing about Damien, I'll be agitated and I might lose the baby. I want to give the child a chance to live. So please, help me out Stacy. I'm begging you."
I went down on my knees for her to help me with this big secret. She helped me up, refusing to let me kneel for her.
"In terms of rank, you're higher than every Alpha. You're born to be the supreme Luna, you shouldn't kneel to me. As my best friend and sworn sister, there are no secrets between us."
She hugged me, "Don't worry. I'm going to do whatever I can to help you. I won't let you suffer unjustly. I promise you that."
Her assurance made me feel comfortable and at ease. Maybe I'm putting her in too much trouble to help me but it'll be fine once I'm gone. I need some time away from everyone to figure myself out and I don't want to see Damien anymore either. I hope I don't have to meet him again.