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Chapter 24

“You have someone. You told me you have no one but you have your boyfriend.”

She shake her head at me. “He has a family who he refuse to leave. He said he loves me but I don’t think he does… he chooses them and not me, so I practically don’t have no one… I’m just someone’s option, someone who he come to when he needs something.”

That made my mouth open… I can’t believe this revelation from her… I can’t believe mom’s twin sister is a mistress, she’s like Aunt Marie in our situation. I bite my lips and didn’t say anything to her… I don’t like this but it’s her choice and I don’t really have a say on the decisions she make.

She smirk at me. “I;m not proud of it but I love him.”

The next day, we were called by the morgue to claim my parent’s body and good thing Aunt Candice did all the work because I don’t know if I could handle all of this… every process of their funeral makes my heart ache because this is the indication that it’s time to let them go.

“I’m scared.”

We decided to cremate their body and toss their ashes to the ocean… some of mom’s ashes are made into a necklace that I’m wearing now, I want her to be always be by my side.

“It’s not easy to lose the people you love… but you’re strong Kate, I know you can get through this. I’ll leave you here, take the time you need before going home.”

I sit on the sand and watch the wave flows to my feet. My tears are falling from my eyes and I smile sadly upon holding my necklace.

“You always thought me to be strong mom, to stand up for myself when everyone hates me, you always say that I’m beautiful and I should know my worth… to chase for the things that I want in life, how funny because I didn’t think of those words but now that you’re gone it has been running back and forth to my mind… I used to despise you because you were never there for me… I always try my best to be number one when it comes to school and did all the classes you wanted for me. I was a good daughter but at the same time a bad daughter for hiding the truth to you about dad’s affair when I should’ve told you the moment I found out… I just couldn’t bare to see you hurting… you have so much in your plate and I know how much you love dad and it would break your heart once you found out… how I wish I could turn back the time and change those mistakes that I did but it’s too late and we’re here now. How sad that we thought of how we will live a simple life now but before I knew it… you were gone, do you really love dad that much to leave with him?” I chuckle to myself and wipe the tears from my eyes. “But don’t worry mom I have Aunt Candice by my side… thank you for sending her to me… and I will live my life on my own now… I will follow my heart and I know you will always be by my side guiding me… I’m letting you go now… be happy with dad, and I forgive him.”

It took me a while before deciding to leave and instead of going back home I decided to go to dad’s ancestral house… I don’t know why but I just followed my guts but upon arriving there I immediately regret my decision.

“There she is!”

I was about to ran away but they immediately blocked my way before I could do so. “What do you want from me?”

“Where’s your father? We have to talk to him.”

I bite my lips and upon seeing them I had a feeling why they’re here. “He’s not here… you’ll never see him.”

“Don’t lie to us.”

“He’s gone… they’re gone.” I look down on my feet and that made them silent.

“He’s in debt with us, and you know what that means, right?” I nodded and didn’t say another word.

They asked about of question about dad’s assets and whether they left me with something but I couldn’t give them anything, they were helpless… when a man came who talked to me. I was nervous and I didn’t know what to do by that time but they didn’t hurt me instead they made me sign something that I know I will regret in the future… but I didn’t have much of a choice.

When I arrive home I was weak and hopeless that I didn’t have much of a choice but to call the only person that might help me right now… I memorized his phone and it took him a while before answering.

“Jade.” I whispered.

“Hmm?” He sounded cold and indifferent.

“I need your help.” I whispered, biting my lips and eating my dignity.

“Kate… I really like you but I’m sorry, there’s nothing I can do right now… my parents are mad and once they know that I still have connection with you, they might cut me off… so I’m really sorry Kate.” He didn’t even let me speak another word and cut the call.

I was left dumbfounded and I didn't know what to do anymore… my heart is breaking and how funny because I promise mom that I’m not going to give up but the only thing I want to do right now is kill myself.

I look at the cutter in the kitchen, just inches away from me, my tears are flowing nonstop and my vision are blurry and I was about to grab it when a hand stopped me.

“Don’t even think of doing it. You’re not dying and you will fight hard like you never before. I get that you’re hurting but you mom would be disappointed of you.” Aunt Candice said with firm voice.. and I can feel the pain from her grip on my wrist… and that’s when I knew that I just couldn’t die.