DAY 11.3 – The LQ

“Do-do you want another one?”

I ask Jano while he’s busy to his second cup of noodles.

He just look around so I look at the other tables, I just notice that they were looking at us.

“Ammm, can I?

He shyly said, I chuckled for a bit and stand up.

Does he have a dinner? It seems he doesn’t have, tsk tsk, seriously what happened to him and Fred?

I buy him again a cup of noodles then go back to him after I put a hot of water on it.

We’re here at the convenience store. I ask him to go here for a bit well actually it’s just my excuse to stay him for a while.

“Mmm I’m so-sorry! I think I dropped my wallet earlier, I’ll pay you next time”

He said then he opens it.

“It’s okay... I’ll make you pay for these”

I chuckled but he unexpectedly choked.

“I thought ‘its okay, you don’t have to pay’”

He’s kiddingly said while imitating my voice. So I laugh, he looks funny and he’s cute.

“I’m just kidding, don’t worry I’ll pay you”

He said then looks at the cup to look for the price.

“mmm don’t bother, I’ll just ask you for a favour once I need it”

I said then smile at him, I really can’t stop my self to smile at him, he always makes my heart fluttered and I’ve been great of that.

“Any way, where’s Fred? Why are you alone?”

I confusedly ask while watching at him.

“At the house and He’s been drunk having fun with a girl”

He murmured like sarcastically.

Then he looked at me suspiciously.

“Why did you ask me for Fred?”

He confusedly said.

“No-nothing, you were sharing in one house right?”

Then he’s eyes become wider.

“Ho-How do you know about that?”

He asks it in a lower voice like it’s a secret.

Ugh! He’s so fucking cute when he in the state of shock! He was like a kid.

Now I realize how badly in love Fred with him, Ugh! That fucking gay Fred. Haist even in the past he was like that! He’s in denial.

And Yes! I know Fred, very well.

“No-nothing, make it fast, it’s been 5 am”

I just said, He looks in my watch then he eats again.

I really understand why he treats Jano like that, Jano is a simple but a Friendly, and He’s so cute.

Fred is in love with him, He’s in denial that is why he brought a girl even if he knew that he’s not alone in the house.

Why do I know? That Fred is my cousin, ugh! We used to be friends before, as in best of friends. How did we end up like this?

I don’t know, maybe because of Jonas

Fred is a childish one, he likes you to obey what he wants, and he’s been like that when his mother married a foreign.

Love is not affordable by his thinking, even if his father was rich but still his mother doesn’t love his father anymore.

It’s just a coincidence that my aunt falls in love with a foreign, that’s why everyone is mocking at her as a gold digger.

He started to be like that when he left by his mother, He wants to get a girl he likes even if it’s gay-man he would bring it home, until Jonas came, he’s trying to make Jonas jealous just to make sure if Jonas were in love at him, and He succeed it, but everything went back again when Jonas decided to went abroad, and now he’s back.

That’s why Fred is in denial, He’s not sure if he still in loved with Jonas or he’s in love now with Jano?

“Hey! Thanks a lot, we’re here”

I didn’t notice that we arrived at their house, I voluntarily offered him to send him back home.

He stopped when he saw Fred standing at the gate seriously staring at us.

“Get In!”

He strongly said, Jano quickly go inside, I smirked at him while he’s glaring at me, He come closer to me when Jano went in the house.

“Stay away from him!”

He seriously said.

“Why? Are you afraid this time that Jano will choose me?”

I tease him.

“Shut! Your fucking mouth Giro!”

He angrily said, I just laugh at him and smirked.

He turned back and go inside but he look at me back before he close the gate.

This time I know He’s really afraid.

“Stay away from him... Please Bro!”

Then he closed it.

I don’t know but there’s something in his eyes, I know he’s afraid of looking him, I can see it in his eyes.

“Stay away from him... Please Bro!”

It keeps echoing in my head, I can’t explain my feelings right now, there’s something pain in my heart but at the same time, I’m happy.

It’s hurt because I know that Fred is in love with Jano, and Jano loves with him too, and I can’t stop them to love each other.

I’m happy because It’s been a years when he lastly called me Bro and plead me.

I missed Fred as my Brother

But I want Jano.

“Stay away from him... Please Bro!”

I couldn’t sleep because of that, it’s still echoing in my ear, I know he’s desperate to win Jano. Should I sacrifice for the three of us?

Should I ignore my feelings to Jano for Fred to make it with him and become friends again?

Jano’s Point of View

No bad vibes okay? Don’t think of it, don’t stress you self about the last night, that’s would be fine.

I was startled when I see Fred slammed the door, I sit back at the couch and calm my self.

Wait! Why do I feel nervous? I don’t do anything wrong.

“Where have you been?”

Seriously, is he asking me or scolding me?

I saw a bandage on his side temple and it’s bleeding, Is he alright? I also noticed some reddish in the corner of his mouth I don’t know but he looks like having a fight and looks injured.

“Ah I-I just..”

I couldn’t finish my self when he speaks again.

“You went out with Giro to flirt with him right?”

He said like he really knew what happened!

I look at his eyes and he’s very furious, I don’t know but I can’t understand him.

“What? Oh! So you guys having a sex!”

He sarcastically said like he’s so sure about it.

I don’t know but I feel something pain in my chest, I couldn’t open my mouth and explain.

Where did he get that? How could he say that thing?

“Wha-what ar...”

He interrupted me again.

“What? He brought you to a hotel? Or in he’s unit? Then what? He offered coffee then FUCK!”

He almost shouted, I see his body were shaking, But I started to feel sold in my hands, I even can’t breathe properly, my heart beats too fast, and it’s not because his teasing me, it’s because I’m pain, I didn’t know but there’s something warm in my eyes, I’m trying hold it, I don’t want to make it worst.

“What? Are you speechless? So I am Right! You guys were having a sex! What an Immoral bitch slut!”

I didn’t know but I can clearly heard it, everything went silence but I can still hear that in my ears, I’m trying to hold my tears but it betrayed me, My tears flows down in my face.

It’s enough!

I couldn’t hold my self, my body was shaking and I couldn’t stand with my knees, I was staring at his eyes, I tried my self to hold my self but I couldn’t anymore.

“How about you, Having a sex with a different girls, isn’t an Immoral?”

I straight said to his face

“Isn’t too much to make fun of anyone’s feelings whoever you like to play with? What is it to you if I flirted with Giro? So what is it to you if I’m with Giro for the whole time and having a sex! And what is it to you if we were on the Hotel or in his unit? What do you care about it? You’re just my boss and you don’t have a right to put your nose in my personal life”

I said and wiped my tears, He can’t say anything because I am right, I don’t know but I’m too affected even it’s not true what he said.

“Excuse me Fred! oh! I forgot its Sir!”

I sarcastically said then walk out and went up on my room.

And finally my knees broke down when I get in my room. I couldn’t hold my self but I cried, I cried very loud.

I covered my mouth but it’s very loud and I couldn’t stop my self, my body were shaking to hard, and I couldn’t breathe, I feel like I am about to fainted.

I just cried until everything went black.