Chapter 31

"But, what if we make a mistake that hurts other people? Wouldn't that be bad luck?" 

"Good luck and bad luck, sometimes it all comes through intermediaries. It could be humans, animals, time can also be an intermediary. What is different is only the point of view. A person can be a murderer and be an intermediary for the death of the person he killed. People -People will definitely think that the murderer was cruel because he took another person's life. However, what if that person should have died at the same time? He would have died even though it wasn't due to an accident, illness or his own negligence. "

"Then do we have to be murderers and decide the ends of other people's lives?"

"I didn't say that! I told you, all of that is just a difference in point of view. Murderers will not think the same thing as what their victims think. But, basically all humans have the same potential to become a murderer. It's just that there are those who are right really use that opportunity, but most don't want to do it for various reasons. But when they find a reason and encouragement to do it, they will definitely do it even if it's just to defend themselves before!"

Eli was silent, she couldn't deny anything Robert. This man has a different thinker, very mysterious and scary. When they were both silent, the silence that fell made twin fears emerge. 

"Have you ever killed anyone?"

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***"Oh my, what did I say?" She thought. Eli didn't know why her mouth so easily uttered forbidden questions like that.*** 

***She died of fleas, her breath hitched like a goat that was almost attacked by a tiger. Can't escape anywhere and can only cry in resignation.*** 

***He, who was standing only one meter next to Robert, even stopped breathing. Eli couldn't bear to look at the face of this man who hadn't said anything since he asked that stupid question.*** 

***"I-I'm sorry! I didn't mean to-"***

***"Yeah, it's okay! Forget it!" He said calmly as he continued his work.*** 

***Eli exhaled, she felt a little relieved even though she wasn't sure James would really forget her question. He felt that his current position was like an egg on the edge, wherever it moved it would definitely fall. It would be better for him to keep quiet and keep his mouth shut.*** 

***After that serious conversation, they had not spoken to each other. James didn't seem too bothered, he did his job well as usual. Meanwhile, Eli still doesn't feel that the situation is safe. It was as if he was on the verge of revealing his identity and was willing to cooperate with the police in looking for evidence of his friend's death.*** 

***Eli served the food on the table, because he was thinking too much, Eli didn't realize that the food was ready. Eli pulled out a chair and sat quietly. Eli, who still felt awkward, took her place in front of James.***

***"Why didn't he say anything? Why didn't he ask me to talk again? Geez, what did I expect from him? If he's quiet like this, it's because that's his character." Eli pondered. His head was filled with thoughts that weren't necessarily true.*** 

***In front of her, James began to feel his anger. Eli is not the type who can hide her mood, her movements, facial expressions and body language make it easy for other people to guess what she is thinking.*** 

***"What are you thinking? Why aren't you so calm?" Robert asked, finally reopening the conversation which had stopped after they had been in silence for 20 minutes.*** 

***"No, I'm not thinking about anything! I'm just confused about what I should do after this. Should I go to campus tomorrow and act as if nothing happened or-" Eli stopped her sentence. Remembering what tough situations he would face on campus made him want to cry.*** 

***"If you're ready for it, just come!"*** 

***"What?"*** 

***"I won't tell you what you have to do! I will only show you what you will face and the choices you will make. But in the end, you are the one who has to choose. It all depends on your mental readiness in facing the people who might think badly of you!"*** 

***"I already know what they will think. When Diana was declared dead due to murder and I was the last person to see her alive, all the hatred and suspicion was focused on me. Because no suspect had been named, they started making rumors that I was the one who had the potential to kill Diana I don't know, why did they think that far ahead? Why did they have the heart to accuse me of doing something I couldn't possibly do!"***

***"Humans are the cruelest creatures. You should get used to dealing with such evil!"*** 

***"Do I really have to go back to my house and stop studying? Mr. Huntington, should I not return to this place again? I hope my problems will end here soon and I will go home to my parents and swear not to set foot outside the house. I'm scared, something like this will happen to me again!"***

***"There is no guarantee that you will remain safe even if you are at home. Running from problems is not a way out, if there are problems they will chase you faster."***

***"Then what should I do? Tell me what should I do? If I really can't run, if I really have to face it, please tell me what should I do?" His screams were so emotional. Her face was red and tears were flowing. Eli was starting to lose her mind, she wasn't quite ready to be in this position.*** 

***Realizing that she had just shouted at her teacher, Eli looked down sadly, trying to hide her sadness and embarrassment. She had been rude, not caring if the man in front of her was the man she loved and loved. But he was still a teacher he had to respect.*** 

***"Are you calm?" James asked with a straight face. He was not at all bothered by Soraya's emotional attitude.*** 

***"I'm sorry! I shouldn't have shouted at you. I'm really sorry!"***

***"Never mind! Finish your food and then rest! There's no point thinking about that problem now!"***