Chapter 26

Chapter 26


Dera

Spending the day with Alpha Eric had been really something that I had not expected to turn out as it had. We spent time in the garden but as he spoke while being so close to me, I could not help but feel the need for his touch. He was so close to me yet, I desired so much from him. I wanted this man and I was beginning to curse at myself. I could still not fathom why his scent was so necessary to me and why I was wishing that I was that special person.

As for Tia, my wolf was rather restless as I had been. It was a mutual feeling and I was glad I had her to share it with. She kept trying to keep her cool but I could tell what she was feeling was as in-depth as what I was feeling and it would not matter at all if I was trying to disguise it. I held onto my emotions and she kept telling me to go with the flow. At some point I suddenly stood up and he looked at me like there was a problem. I needed an excuse as soon as possible and then told him that I would like to be excused as I wanted to go get water to drink.

He told me I did not need to worry about that as it was the servants duty to ensure that I was okay. Right now, I felt like I did not want to argue with him and I relaxed my tensed muscles. Well, the muscles in-between my legs were pulsating as if they were about to go crazy from desire that I had never experienced in my life. It should be a sin, right? I am sure that was what Isaac would tell me. He would have explained what explanations that were missing and the implications. He might have as well punished me for harbouring evil thoughts. It was not my place to feel these things that I was feeling and I realised that I might have made an error.

Isaac might have been really harsh to me but it tamed me. Just take a look at me right now. I was barely off his clutches and I was already beginning to feel evil. I was desiring my best friend's dad so badly that I knew I had lost control. At least Isaac made me a woman with respect but out here, I realised I would have to fight these urges alone. No one to guide me on what was to be done anymore.

Alpha Eric noticed that I was spacing out and brought my attention to him.

"Dera, Dera? Are you okay?" He asked me.

I blinked quickly as I collected my thoughts rapidly and then I looked at him, bringing up a smile. "I'm fine. I'm sorry. I was lost looking at the daisies."

Well, I lied and that goes ahead to prove that I never should have left my husband's side. Now, I was becoming immoral and filthy with sins. Gosh, the moon goddess was probably frowning at me right now. But as I looked up at him, I realised that it would not matter anymore.

"Okay but I wanted to ask you, do I terrify you? Like, do I make you uneasy?" He asked me suddenly.

Come on, asking me all that in the middle of my chaotic feelings was pretty much the same as asking me if I was going insane for him.

"Um, no. Actually, I'm okay with you around.  I'm really sorry if I make it seem like you're making me uneasy. I guess it's because I'm tired or something." I responded and then I realised that it was definitely something. I really wanted to tell him that I was dying for his touch and that I have had a severe crush on him since the first day I came around his place but I could not. That would sell me short and stupid. Hell, what if he hates me for that?

'Are you kidding me, Dera. If that man hates you as you think, I doubt he would have kissed you.' Tia said to me.

Well, she had a point. I mean, we had shared a kiss and probably that rules out him telling on me to his daughter unless he wants to lie. Several times while growing up, my brothers had told lies against me and my father always believed them. He made me understand that a man's word was his bond and they would never lie. Hence, I was always at the receiving end of his reprimand. What was to say that would not be the case if Amara was told that I came up to him and kissed him? I would then lose my best friend.

As I was still thinking, the maid returned with the bottle of water and a glass. I totally lost it as I took it and drank straight from the bottle. I had not even thought that I would be this thirsty when I had asked for the water as it should have been a way to escape. I sat down now staring at the bottle and saw that it was down to the bottom when I looked and noticed he was looking at me. I looked now from him to the bottle.

Oh shit! Fuck me! I went ahead to drink without asking questions. There was also a glass and I had not used it. Perhaps, I should have given him some.

"I'm sorry, were you also going to drink?" I asked him.

He chuckled and then came over to sit beside me on my own chair. I wanted to tell him that he should stay away because I would not be able to control myself around him but it was already too late as he was seated beside me already. His eyes twinkled and hypnotized me so much that I wanted to be lost in them. I desired this man so much and it was worse that I had just a tiny string keeping me from going crazy.

"Not at all. I mean, it's been almost so long that I have seen anyone drink like that and the last was Amara. You looked really beautiful drinking. Do you need more?" He asked me.

I was shy. His gaze was piercing now and I looked down, away as I shook the bottle. "I guess not. I still have some left and I'm full already."

Well, he cut me short from going on a nervous outburst when he suddenly reached and placed his hand underneath my chin as he turned my head to face him. A thousand electric shocks ran through my body and I could feel the jolts they brought. Gosh, I think I might have actually peed my pants from how I was starting and now, my pelvic region was breathing really hard because of this.

"You have such beautiful eyes, Dera. You should hold your head up high and always look me in the eyes." He said, his voice rasping and sending thrills down my spine.

"Like this?" I asked him something like one having a seance and then I looked at him with my eyes. Now, I was stuck in his own eyes as they seemed to be pulling me into them and then I looked at his lips.

"Yes, like this." He responded and then started leaning over to me. 

I wanted to stop him and tell him that we could not kiss but I had lost control of my vocals when suddenly, his lips touched my neck. He kissed me passionately and then turned to kiss the other side. Then he raised his head as he stared deep into my eyes. I was losing it.

"This should be forbidden, right?" I asked him.

"Yes. But I want you, Dera and I'm losing my shit over you." He said to me, his face within inches of mine.

"What do we do?" I asked him.

"We? Wait, you feel it too?" He asked me.

"I don't know if it's the same as what you feel." I responded.

"Then I would let you have time to make it clearer, what you feel. Go inside before I lose it. Any time wasted and I might really do something with you. I don't want to take advantage of you." He said to me,

I really did not want to go. I wanted to stay here and keep kissing him. That was something that made a lot of sense to me at the moment but then it dawned on me that I was being given a chance to remain loyal to my best friend and I had to use it wisely.

So I got up and noticed his hand was holding my wrist. I looked at him and then he kissed it before letting me go away reluctantly. I rushed back into the house and I went straight to my bedroom. My entire body was on fire from desire and need. I was trying to keep myself from going back out there and telling him to fuck everything.

As I stayed there pacing around in my bedroom, my eyes fell right on my phone as a thought crossed my mind. I went over and I picked it up, my finger some inches away from the start button.

I was trembling from what I was about to do as I knew that one error and I would blow everything up but was it going to be worth it? I mean, it was the only way to prove that I was still that loyal friend, right?