Chapter 27 Sleep
I was unable to sleep all through last night because I could do was think, think hard about Adrian and what he has said, maybe he is right or maybe he is not, and I hated every part of the thoughts that I had in mind, I hated to think so much
A part of me wants to deny what my whole heart knows is the truth, that no matter where I go, what I do, the mafia will find me, but if I remain married to him, I am not sure I will be happy, I don’t love him, I don’t even know if I like him, I don’t even know if I care for him
I know he doesn’t feel anything for me, anything he does is for my father, to make him happy, to make him trust him even more which I thought it’s good.
The next morning, I felt good waking up on my bed, in my house, taking a shower, wearing clothes that belonged to me before I headed out.
“Good morning papa.” I smiled as I leaned in to leave a kiss on his cheek.
“You are right on time.” Papa smiled, as I settled beside me, the chair belonged to the queen, but papa always wanted me there.
I didn’t see Adrian and I wanted to ask so badly yet I didn’t, papa would think we don’t talk.
“Did he sneak into your room last night.” Papa asked. “Remember don’t lie to me princess.” He said and I smiled
Did he hear our hushed voices while we were in his office.
“Papa we are both adults.”
“There would be no unholy relationship under my roof, at least not until you get married to him.” He said and I smiled
Even at then, I am never going to sleep with Adrian, we may be friends or enemies, but we would never ever like each other to that extent.
Sex ruins things, it brings people either closer or apart and I didn’t want any of that.
“I know you want to get done, leave your old man so you can find dresses for tonight.”
Tonight. What’s tonight? I didn’t ask.
“You can help me pick.”
“I would rather not.” Papa said and I playfully rolled my eyes at him, he didn’t like the idea of shopping, or helping me pick clothes, because I am indecisive and I did understand that a lot.
That’s how I am.
A breath falls out of my lips as we ate.
What’s going to happen tonight.
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Hours passed, I already picked out a dress, I got dressed and Sarah helped me with my make up, no one knew what tonight is all about, I tried to ask in a way they won’t think I know yet it didn’t matter.
Fuck. I got dressed into a beautiful black dress, with heels that matched it, I headed downstairs when I saw him waiting for me by the stairs.
Where did he tell papa we are going to.
I didn’t hesitate to take his hand.
“You look beautiful Elara.” Adrian said as I glanced away form papa.
“Thank you.” I smiled at him.
“Now you keep her safe and you be back right on time, don’t do anything I will not approve of.” Papa said and I smiled.
“Don’t worry papa, I won’t.” I smiled at him.
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“Where are we going .” I whispered to Adrian.
“No where.” He stated.
He just ants to intentionally annoy me and I didn’t even understand why, he only made me more upset.
The moment we got to the car, I pulled my hand away form his.
“Where?.” I asked again.
“To show you what the mafia is really about, to show you sides of the mafia, I showed you a bit, yet it’s not enough Elara.”
“It sounds like you want to scare me away.” I breathed out. “That’s not what you said last night.”
“I want to prove to you that you have your father blood in you, I want to show you that people are ruthless, people don’t care about others and certainty, if you leave, and your family finds you first, this is what they will do to you.”
“Did you really tell papa where we are going to.” I asked and he didn’t speak
He lied to me, I know papa will never allow me to head toward any dangerous, he has protects all of his life but now he can’t protect me anymore, he is leaving me, I am going to be with someone else and it’s going to be different.
“What if after everything I still choose to leave.”
“You won’t.” He whispered, how could he be so confident about all of this, did he not want me to leave? Won’t he be happy if he is not stuck in a loveless marriage.
I didn’t even seem to understand why he would want any of this.
Each moment passed and my heart skipped a beat, I would be lying if I said I am not scared, I am not anxious and worried about where he is about to take me to.
I know it’s nothing like the meeting we had, this is something else.
“Adrian, are you still mad at me?.” I asked as he turned to look at me.
“No, there is no use of dwelling toward a feeling of something that has already passed, I am not mad at you Elara, what you did,you are never to do it again.” He stated and my breath hitches
I am never to do it again, last night I didn’t keep all the files, it was when I got to my room, I realized I had a few papers in my pocket, that I hid in my closet, I have no idea if I am still going to go ahead and read some of it.
For now he is not going to know, I can’t tell him about it.