Chapter 22

Bella had managed to fall asleep but she was woken up with a jolt several hours later. She allowed a sigh to break from her lips as she slowly allowed herself to sit up from the ground. She had a terrible day as it was already and she just needed something for her to use to distract herself. Her hands practically itched with the need to reach out and paint something.

She had taken up painting from a very young age. it had helped her to distract herself from the fact that she was considered a freak by most of the people that she knew as well as the fact that it felt as though no one wanted to be associated with her.

She set up her canvas and her easel as she let out a sigh to break free from her lips. She felt a sense of relief come over her at the feeling for her brush hitting the page.

When she painted it was as though she was being transported into another world. She simply got lost in the paint as she found herself unable to pull herself away from her work.

She closed her eyes as she allowed her thoughts to drift off to what was on her canvas. She opened her eyes several minutes later and she marveled at the sight before her.

She never really could understand the meaning behind her paintings and they were always something that was very personal to her but when she looked at this one she had to admit that it actually did look beautiful. It was a magnificent black wolf with blue highlights in its fur. It was something like what she had never seen before. the picture changed to the wolf transforming into a human. She took notice of his shaggy blonde hair and piercing blue eyes as she inhaled a deep breath at the sight. She didn’t know who it was but she found herself drawn to the sight that was in front of her.

She turned towards the other paintings that were around her room. She tried to decipher what they were but it didn’t look like any wolf she had ever seen looked like that. For a moment she thought that it could be her mate, but she let out a bitter laugh as she knew that wasn’t possible.

She was supposed to find her mate when she was sixteen but that had never happened. It was sad to see some of the other members find their mates. But she knew that the chances of her finding hers were almost zero to none. She wasn’t just an ordinary wolf and so she knew that everything of hers was also going to be very different. She knew that there was never going to be a chance for her where she would actually meet someone that would end up wanting her for her.

It was something that she had come to terms with a long time ago and she had accepted the fact that she was never going to be able to get that slither of happiness or that happy ever after that she saw others getting and that in the end she was destined to desperately be left alone.

She was pulled out of her thoughts when she heard the sound of someone knocking loudly on her door. She was snapped out of her thoughts by the sound as she turned her attention towards the door. She watched as the door opened and she made her way inside.

She had a bright grin on her face as she wore some sweat pants and a t-shirt. She looked at her with a raised eyebrow. “Hey bestie!” Lizz called out enthusiastically and Bella only looked at her with a raised eyebrow. “So how about you tell me what made you so excited this evening?” She asked her.

She only shrugged at her in response as she made her way over to her bed and collapsed on top of it. “so how are you? why weren’t you at school today?” she asked her and Bella only shrugged her shoulders at her.

“Well I was going to go but then the alpha called me and it isn’t like the pack really cares that much about whether we go to school or not anyway,” she said to her in a mutter under her breath.

She watched as lizz sat up on her bed with a raised eyebrow. “Okay so what did he want to tell you? Was it so that he could bitch about how you and your dad ruined the family.” Lizz said to her with an eye roll and Bella couldn’t help but chuckle.

“Actually, no this time he gave me my grandmother's ring and he said that since I am turning eighteen in two days that I will need to start participating more in wolf and pack activities.” She said and she watched as lizz looked towards her with a look of surprise.

“And so what did he mean by that?” she asked her and she let out a sigh from her lips as she turned around slightly in her bed.

“Well, he wants me to use my powers to spell the border so that it would kill any unwanted wolves. But that would also mean that any time someone passed through I would be able to feel it. It would be like me being a living security system.” she said to her and she watched as she looked at her with a raised eyebrow.

“And is that something that you can actually do?” Bella sighed as she stood from her seat and began to pace the room. “That is the thing I have no idea. I know that my magic is getting stronger with every passing day. I am afraid to say it but I might even be stronger than my dad but I don’t know how this will affect me and I am not willing to risk the pack in order to find out the limits of my powers.” she said to her and lizz nodded her head at her in understanding.

“Well I say we say ‘fuck it’ to the alpha. We have better things to discuss anyway. Like your party.” Lizz said to her with a grin and Bella only groaned at her un response.