Chapter 93 CHAPTER 93: THINGS SEEN THINGS IGNORED
~ Elara ~
My body was used to getting up early, so naturally, I woke up the next morning in Calvin’s bed before he did. The sun hadn't been up yet, and the room was quiet as i slowly got myself out of Calvin’s arms.
I take in the softness of his face, so calm compared to his stern and cold look I was so used to seeing on him.
I didn't want to leave, wanting to stay in his arms all morning, but I still had a job after all. Mrs. Carmen has allowed me too many days off for me to just not show up again.
I'm not sure the exact time, but it was only half past eight in the morning when I was on the top floor, cleaning all of the windows. I was wiping the glass, before my eyes set on the sight of Calvin and Mr. Conner walking out of the estate, their walk nearly identical.
I furrow my eyebrows together as I watch them go towards a black sports car, my eyes immediately going to his wrist. A smile spots my face at the yellow bracelet before it completely fades away as he moves slightly, giving me a short glance of a gun holstered around his pants.
Calvin’s head turning to the side slightly gives me a glance of his cold look as he got into the car saying something, his dad in the drivers side as two other black cars follow behind them.
I swallow the lump in my throat before quickly turning around, holding the rag close to my chest as I try taking in what I'd just seen.
"I didn't see anything." I whisper to myself as I continue cleaning the windows quicker, the fear eating away at my head telling a completely different story.
I pick up my bucket with a sigh when I finish, pushing my hair away with my elbow as I walk down the hallway.
When I turn the corner I nearly drop the bucket almost running into Wayne . My eyes widen as I look towards him, freezing as he looks at me with a clenched jaw.
"Wayne -" I start, but he ignores me, walking straight past me. I turn back towards him, my heart sinking as he walks away.
"Wayne! Can I at least explain?" I ask, walking towards his direction.
" Why didn't you just tell me?" He suddenly says while turning back towards me, confusion and pain laced in his eyes.
My nerves start to rise as I tighten my hand around the bucket handle, taking a step closer to him so we weren't 8 feet apart.
"I didn't know...anything, I was just confused with my own feelings. It was hard, both of you were confusing me I...I couldn't tell what was real and what was friendly...or how I felt towards you but-"
"But now you know." He says, looking at me with his jaw tense.
" How long have you known? That I was just your side piece?" He says, and I watch him with furrowed eyebrows as i shake my head.
"Did you at least enjoy messing with m-?"
"I never intended to mess with you. I know what happened was wrong, I know, okay?
So I'm sorry I couldn't figure out my feelings earlier, I'm sorry I never understood what any of those...feelings meant the same as other people can do so easily apparently." I blurt out, stepping closer to him.
Wayne shuts his mouth as he looks down at me, listening to my absolute rant. I wanted to get it out truthfully, not give him some pathetic excuse I knew wasn't true.
"I'm sorry most of my normal experiences all happened in the span of a couple of months, I'm sorry I couldn't keep up with everyone else and what any of this means but I never wanted to hurt you like this." I say, looking up at him as I search his face.
I was never good at these sort of things, I felt like crying every time I had to speak to someone like this, or get yelled at.
His jaw tenses before a sigh leaves his mouth and he turns his head to the side slightly. I understood he wouldn't forgive me so easily, or at all, but I wanted him to know my intention was never supposed to be how this all turned out.
His hand suddenly runs down his face in frustration. My eyebrows furrow as 1 watch him, waiting on him to say something.
"I know I can't change your feelings Elara but my brother out of everyone? I'm still trying to get my head straight, I just need time." He says and I purse my lips together, slightly nodding my head.
A ringing sound comes through his phone and my eyes uncontrollably glance down as I see a message from Charlotte pop up on his phone. Wayne quickly glances down before clearing his throat, putting his phone away and looking back towards me.
Could they have actually become friends? Maybe my plan did work out in the end...
" Thank you, for being with Calvin . I can see how much you've changed him, I guess there's at least one good thing coming out of this." He says, giving me a small half smile before he turns back around and walks the way he was going.
I watch his back as he leaves, lost in my racing thoughts. It doesn't last for long when I instantly jump back to work after hearing Mrs. Carmen's heels clicking against the floor.
Maybe one day, we could speak to each other how we did before this situation.
Hopefully one day, Wayne and I could become good friends again.
The day went by as usual, I'd cleaned the rest of the morning and went to lunch with Mrs. Carmen at noon. The other half of the day was dinner prep and more cleaning which had already exhausted me to the point I wanted to sleep on the marble floors I was currently mopping.
It was nearly midnight and I was assigned my last task, mopping the main floor.
Usually it never took me too long but I'd gone slower today to make sure I was getting every spot.
I could hear the sound of the rain coming down heavily from outside since I was right by the front doors.
I hadn't seen Calvin nearly all day, and was starting to worry on where he'd gone for so long.
Mr. Conner came back at 10, I knew because I saw him walking down the hallway going towards where Mrs.Conner had been in the estates huge library.
But Calvin hadn't been with him.
I blow a piece of my hair that was bothering me out of my face as I scrub the floors harder, hoping nothing bad happened.
It might've been the storm outside that was worrying me even more, but the sound of the front door opening doesn't fail to make my head pop up.
I instantly notice its Calvin as he opens the door, completely unaware that I was there.
His dark hair is wet, dripping down on the floor I'd just mopped.
When he looks up, noticing me as I stood there with furrowed eyebrows he freezes, adjusting his hands so they were hidden behind his back.
I watch his sudden action curiously as he clears his throat, shutting the door behind him. His grey eyes are set towards me as he walks up to my short frame.
"You left again, this morning." The sound of his deep voice comforts me, and all I wanted to do was hug him as he wrapped his arms around me but I knew this probably wasn't the time.
"I had work, see." I say, giving him a small smile as I hold up my mop. Calvin glances towards the mop, before looking back towards me. His jaw was tense as he looked me up and down.
My hair was probably a mess from working, and I knew I'd looked like a dead zombie but for some reason he didn't seem to care.
"You were gone all day, what's your excuse?" I say, raising an eyebrow at him.
" Work." He says, and I wanted to say it so badly, that I was 98% sure I knew he was in a mafia, that this family was doing illegal business somewhere.
So I do
"I know."
" Know what?" He asks me, but the look in his eyes tells me enough. He knows exactly what I'm talking about.
" Before I say it, will you kill me if what I say is true." I say, just in case.
Calvin tries to hide a small smile as he looks down at me like I'm insane.
"Not sure. I wouldn't say anything, angel."
He says, but the amusement in his eyes tells me enough as I sigh, crossing my hands over my chest.
Why did he think this was funny?
"If I told the police you'd be done for." I say, but that doesn't phase him as he still watches me amused. I wasn't serious, but i thought I could blackmail him with it. It didn't exactly work.
" You wouldn't tell a single soul." He says, stepping closer to me. He still had his hands behind his back and I try to sneak a look at what he was hiding but he notices and moves to the side slightly so I can't see.
" How do you know that?" I ask, looking up at him through my lashes from our close distance.
"Because you’re mine, Lara." He says lowly. I swallow the lump in my throat, tightening my grip on the mop as my face flushes red.
I glance down when his hand suddenly moves, and he move it from behind his back, a lopsided bunch of yellow tulips in his hands as he holds them up to me. He looks down at the flowers with a frustrated look but I watch them with wide eyes.
"They're a little messed up." He says, but I shake my head no, taking the wet flowers in my hands as a smile pops up on my face.
He got me flowers, he stopped for me to get flowers. That means he thought of me, and he even knew these were my favorites.
How did he know? Does this mean we're soulmates?
I'd never told anyone what my favorite flower was, other then the one picture of the tulip field on my instagram "No, I love them." I say, looking at the flowers in my hands before looking up at Calvin who'd been watching me curiously.
" Where did you find these?" I ask, smiling towards him.
"On my drive back." He says, and I raise an eyebrow at his very detailed answer before coming up with an idea.
"Oh...so you didn't walk 10 miles on foot in unmanned grounds during a deadly thunder storm for me..?" I say, faking a sad look on my face.
" I did that too." He lies, and I break my serious face as a small laugh leaves my mouth. Before even thinking I reach up on my toes, giving Calvin a short kiss on his cheek with the flowers still held in my hands.
Calvin turns his head though, his hand moving down to my lower waist as my lips are suddenly on his own. I can feel the small smirk on his face as he moves his lips against mine, pulling me closer.
I don't stop him though, and instead kiss him back, missing his touch. Even though his clothes had been all wet from the rain I didn't mind being so close to him.
" Stay in my room tonight, Lara." He says lowly, slightly pulling away from my lips as he looks down at me.
"I can't, look at the mess you made me." I say, pointing out the trail of water he'd left behind on the floor I had cleaned.
Calvin looks behind him, his eyes moving towards the rain water on the marble floor.
I raise an eyebrow when he completely turns around, walking towards the cleaning closet in the nearby hallway.
I watch him in confusion until he comes out with another mop. He looked out of place holding it, most likely because of the expensive clothes and Rolex he'd been wearing compared to a, well, mop.
"Do you even know how to use that." I giggle, watching in amusement as he puts the mop in the water with no soap, taking it back out without even squeezing the extra water out.
Calvin moves his eyes up to me, watching me as I laugh at his lack of mopping skills.
"Very funny, anyone can do this." He says, a small smile escaping his face as he watches me laughing at him.
"Calvin, I just changed the water in that bucket there's no soap in there yet." I continue to laugh, causing him to stop, look towards the bucket then back towards me.
I sigh, knowing he was useless as I take the bottle of soap and walk towards the bucket. His eyes follow me as I kneel down, opening the bottle of soap.
I try not to move my eyes when I notice him following me down as he watched as I was about to mix the soap with the water.
I ignore his eyes on me, chewing my lip as I start pouring the soap into the water. I watch as it starts bubbling, the liquid turning white.
"There, now you can-" I pause while I'm talking, mainly because when I turned my head towards him I hadn't realized how close we'd been to each other, and his eyes set on my face tell me he wasn't paying attention to a single thing I was doing.
...use it." I finish, clearing my throat as I look away from him, mixing the soap and water together with my hand.
My face flushes red when his rough hand moves to my chin, moving my face so I was looking up at him through my lashes.
" Who knew I could miss you so easily." He says lowly, searching my eyes. My heart races at his words, but my intrusive thoughts beat my feelings when I'm suddenly putting the foamy soap on his nose with a laugh.
Calvin doesn't expect the action, moving his hand to touch the soap on his nose as he looks down at me in amusement.
"My bad." I shrug, shrieking when I notice the big pile of soap now in his hand.
"That's not fair!" I giggle, failing to escape as he laughs deeply while putting the soap all over my face. I grab more, throwing it towards him but his hand grips my wrist, stopping my escape.
The soap was everywhere on the ground now, my clothes even more soaked as we kept attacking each other with the foam.
"No mercy today, Lara." He laughs, pulling me close by my waist before putting more soap on me. I gasp, grabbing my eye as I pretend the soap got into it.
"Calvin, it got in my eye." I cry, watching as his face turns serious for a moment before I quickly throw even more soap at his face.
My face suddenly drops when I look up to see Mrs. Carmen stopped in her steps, looking down at us from the hallway confused. I flush red, knowing I was completely up against Calvin, his arms tight around my waist and soap all over both of us.
She catches my look, giving me a small mischievous smile before zipping her mouth shut and continuing to walk the direction she was going,
My eyes follow her, wondering what I did wrong in this world to get caught by so many people. My gaze switches towards Calvin when he moves his rough hand onto my chin, turning my face back to him.
I look up at him through my lashes, taking in his grey eyes.
" Get used to it."
" Used to it? Used to what?" I ask, furrowing my eyebrows. I know I probably looked insane with all the soap in my hair and on my face.
" Me and you, us."
I watch him, my face flushed at his response. I could feel my heart racing, even with the sound of the raging storm in the back.
I could still hear his heart, and feel my own nearly pounding against my chest as he looked at me with those eyes.
He moves his thumb on my cheek, gently wiping away the soap from my face.
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