Embrace the light (clairvoyant)-Chapter 19. Irritating Sadness

"Florence, don't lie to me baby... you know that I'm a psychiatrist right?" he hugged me closer in his arms.

"Yeah... today was boring actually, but maybe I'm not used to it just yet. Gabby and Ralph were very nice to me though, maybe I just needed sometime to adjust." I sighed and leaned my back closer to him.

"Well, in the mean time why don't you find out what do you want to do besides working in the clinic. You can try and browse it online, and maybe find a new hobby? try something that you always wanted to do, but never had the chance to?"

"Well... I've always wanted to go to a real school, I have been home school all my life, but I'll be too old and I wouldn't know what to study." I shrugged, and took comfort back to him.

"As for hobby, I don't think I have any. Not that I had the time and the luxury to explore my options." I sighed and suddenly I feel very sad, my body was tense. I've never felt so useless in my entire life.

"Flo? Hey... it's okay we'll figure this out. We have our whole life in front of us." He kissed my cheek trying to calmed me down.

"Look, let me put Milo in his room... we should rest for tonight okay? We'll continue our talk in the morning." He got up and took Milo with him, and leave me alone in the living room.

I decided to wash our coffee cups just before we go to sleep. My thoughts were all over the place, I didn't even realize the drop of temperature.

Then I saw him, his lanky posture, his dark aura, and his blank stares that pierced right through me. Suddenly I feel scared for my life. The familiar feeling came rushing through my body, making me shivered.

The cup slid from my hand, it cracked on the sink. He reached out his long like hand to me, I could feel his dark surroundings but I couldn't resist him. My mind was telling me to scream, but my mouth stay silent. My body stood still, I was awaiting for his touch.

It felt like minutes until he finally pulled me to his side harshly. I gasped, not knowing what had happened until everything around me was all dark and cold.

"You..." His voice was dark, throaty, eerie just like the darkness that surrounded us. My body shivered as the coldness touches my skin, the silence was deafening to my ears.

"So pure..." I could feel his long dainty fingers caressed one side of my face.

Then out of no where the sadness hits me, tears started falling from my eyes, my chest hurts as the pain was becoming mentally unbearable. I was sobbing, my body shook with sheer intense sense of loss.

Seconds later I could feel his rage as he let out his violent roar that made the leaves from the trees around us rustled. His hands wrapped my body as he towered above me. His skin was rough, as he was pulling me closer to his cold chest. His black dirty rug like long robe scratched my cheeks. But I was like a doll as he engulfed me in his arms, and not letting me go.

I didn't know what happened next but, all of a sudden I was back in his arms. Walter was holding me tight in his embrace. He was calling my name over and over again until he looked at me, and took my head to the crook of his neck. Then he rubbed my kissed cheek softly.

"Florence baby, God! Don't ever scared me like that again. He took you didn't he? Shit! I'm so sorry baby, I forgot all about the outside barrier. I'm going to check on it now. Wait..." he carried me back to the bedroom and lay me down on the bed.

"You will be safe here, he could not get inside the bedroom. It's protected, it's the most secure place in the house." He said to me, as he kissed the top of my head. Then he was out the door seconds later. I was exhausted from the previous encounter as I slowly close my eyes while waiting for him to comeback.

I didn't know how long after, or even how many hours had passed, I must've fallen asleep when I feel the bed dipped and he was pulling me into his embrace. "It's done love, he won't come near the house again. I'm sorry baby..." I hummed and close my eyes again, and snuggled closer to his side.

That was when I felt his great sadness seeping through his aura, it woke me up instantly. "Walter? what's wrong?"

"I can't loose you too, you said that we'll grow old together, kids, dogs and all. What if you're wrong? Fuck! Sorry baby, I shouldn't even be questioning you." Then his face went stoic but keep his hand on me, he was definitely keeping his feelings to himself.

This was the one thing that I hated about him, he was so sure that he was doomed for life. I let him hold me in his arm, but I was disappointed in him.

I stayed quiet until I couldn't take it anymore, then I slowly got up and go to the kitchen to get some water. He followed behind me, as he get a glass of water for himself. Then I drink my water while resting my back to the kitchen counter, and looked at him. He was still stoic, he was still trying to show me that he was good.

"Walter, why do you to this to yourself, to me? And don't tell me that you're fine." I put my glass down, and waited for his answer. I have had it with him, I needed him to man up.

But he was still quiet.

Damn him...

"I've watched you die! I even grieved for you, so don't lecture me about loss. Cause I don't have anything if I don't have you. You are it for me and I've lost you once. And now I have you back, but then you shield your feelings towards me." My vision started to get blurry with tears as my rage, my disappointment, and my passion for him was all out for him to ingest.

"Sshh... I'm sorry Flo..." he pulled me into his arms, I was trying to pull myself away from him, since I was still very mad at him. But he was keeping me tight in front of him, I was struggling to get away from him, I was livid. Until I finally break down, and sobbed in his embrace.

"I love you Walter, I need you to believe in me, believe in us. If not then I'm not going stop you. It hurts me, to have you doubt us every time something happened. I can't be strong for both of us, cause I'm so tired already. I'm tired of my own life, if I didn't see our future together...." I didn't get a chance to finish my sentence, when he cupped my face and kissed me softly.

"I'm so sorry, we're doing this Florence. I'm not letting you go, we're making this happen. We got Milo already. The rest will follow."

I was still teary, still battling with my inner self. But I slowly stop my tears, taking a deep breath and calmed myself down. He kept his hold on me tightly, and put my head to his chest and keep me there, where I took comfort in hearing the steady beats of his heart.