Chapter 126. FIONA

Chapter 126. FIONA
I cupped his face and brought his lips to mine. My desperation for him grew larger and thicker. I didn't want to waste time talking right now. All I wanted was for him to touch me in the places I desperately missed his touch.
"Do you think it's wrong that I want you to touch me?" I sighed softly.
"This is all wrong. My presence in your life is wrong. But in the midst of all that wrong, I ended up with you. It's a very strange game of fate."
Joshua intertwined his fingers with mine, and I stared at him in amazement.
"I never thought we'd end up like this tonight. It's definitely not because of the wine. I'm not drunk at all."
"No. It's not because of the wine, but because we wanted this to happen."
"I've been trying to resist every urge to touch you, but I failed the moment you broke through all my defenses with your kiss. This longing is so real."
"I almost did this in the hospital when you squeezed my cock. It felt so good. My cock was having a party before ending up unhappy because it couldn't get the release it's been craving for the past four years."
He brought his lips to my nipple. I parted under the touch of his lips and his fingers. Joshua opened every crease that had been sealed for four years. It felt so good.
“You feel as tight as the first time I fucked you.”
“No one has ever opened up except you. I was too afraid to put my feelings into words while I was undercover because I didn’t want to repeat the same mistake.”
“Lucky me then. I didn’t have to tear Gideon apart in prison or put a bullet in Fabio’s head for touching you.”
Erick was right. He was a jealous bastard. Either I was lucky or… Very lucky.
Actually, we still left our problems unresolved. We considered it over for now. I didn't even know what would happen after this was all over. I hoped it wouldn't be something that would hurt me again like it did before. We would have so much to catch up on after this was all over. We deserved this time-out after everything that had happened in our lives.
“Don’t think about anything. Just think about this.”
I groaned as Joshua slammed into me hard. I was so caught up in the pleasure that I didn't even think about the consequences after it was over.
He split me open. Every nerve in my body tensed with anticipation. I could feel myself getting really close. I was almost there.
Joshua increased the tempo of his thrusts. He was fast and hard. He twitched inside me. I could feel him swelling even more. He was hitting my sensitive spot.
“Josh, this is too much for me.”
“This is too much for me, too.”
He sealed my lips with his as the storm of pleasure swept over us both. The orgasm washed over me, and I loved every moment of it.
I felt reborn.
Joshua rested his forehead against mine as the storm of pleasure slowly subsided.
"I hope this never ends, even when we wake up tomorrow morning."
"It never ends."
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I rested my cheek against his warm chest, which was moving up and down steadily. I was exhausted, but satisfied. He fucked me in various positions because we were so greedy.
I kept asking him about his ribs every time we started a new position. Joshua reassured me, telling me they wouldn't break again just from making love to me. He also assured me that the stitches in his back wouldn't tear just from me riding him brutally.
It was a relief to know he was okay. My heart broke when I saw him lying in the hospital bed with tubes attached to him. At that moment, I felt like I was seeing a different side of Joshua. He was just a human being who could feel pain and bleed.
I fell asleep to the music of his melodious heartbeat. Joshua's palm gently caresses my back. His arms encircle my body in his favorite spot.
There was nothing more comfortable than sleeping in the arms of a lover. Even though our status wasn't clear, it still felt good.
I had so many plans for tomorrow morning. My mind was full of exciting things we would do with Melissa. My little girl would be so happy to see her daddy here. I couldn't wait to see her surprised face tomorrow morning when she met him in this house.
"Mommy..."
My eyes felt so heavy. I was too lazy to open them and just wanted to lie on Joshua's chest all day.
"Mommy..."
My shoulders were shaken hard.
"Mommy, wake up."
"Lilly, let me sleep a little longer. You play with Daddy."
"Daddy? Where's Daddy?"
I frowned and felt the empty side of my bed. Joshua wasn't there. Just a few hours ago, I could still feel his presence.
Did I dream about making love to him last night?
I opened my eyes wide and sat up quickly. My eyes scanned my room for Joshua. He was nowhere to be found.
I looked down and found myself wrapped in my worn pink pajamas.
I still couldn't believe I'd just been dreaming last night.
“Where’s your Daddy?”
“Was Daddy here?”
I jumped out of bed and hurried to the bathroom. It was empty. I even checked behind the shower curtain, even though I knew Joshua wouldn’t be hiding there with his size.
“Is this a prank?” I muttered to the air like an idiot.
Mellisa followed me around the room, annoyed.
“Mommy, I want milk.”
She stomped her foot, pouting.
“Did you really not see your Daddy?”
“No. I want milk.”
Disappointment crept into my heart. I thought last night we’d done something meaningful for our future. At least, it meant something to me. I never expected to be left alone in my bed after such a satisfying night.
As I was about to go down to the kitchen to pour Mellisa some milk, something caught my eye on the nightstand.
I quickly grabbed the small folded piece of paper and read the short note Joshua left for me.

I'm sorry I didn't stay until you woke up. I have to go back to Chicago today. I hope our time together last night wasn't our last, and we won't have to say goodbye. My plane leaves at ten. Come with me to Chicago. And we'll find out what happens next.

"You fucking jerk, Joshua!"
I clutched the letter tightly to my chest, tears of joy streaming down my cheeks. He just left me without even knowing that I never planned to end our time together last night.