Chapter 195 195

Chapter 195 195
I woke up in a good mood. I found Luca in the kitchen cooking while Vanna was chattering away. Luca was listening to our daughter and sometimes commenting.

"Good morning, Mommy!"

I smiled and immediately sat beside Vanna when she greeted me. I kissed her soft cheek and muttered "good morning" and "I love you" to her. My precious daughter just giggled and kissed my cheek too.

"Good morning..." Luca went to me, then kissed my temple. "I love you," he whispered, then immediately went back to what he was cooking.

I just smiled while silently watching him. No matter how many times I tell him that he should always go to the company, he still chooses to work here. It's like he really doesn't want to be away from me. I'm the one who's strict with him because sometimes he can't work from being too affectionate with me. I just tell him that he can't be affectionate with me until he finishes his work... That's the only way he moves.

"Here it is," Luca said, then served the food.

I smelled the fried rice. My forehead creased when my stomach seemed to turn. I quickly stood up and went to the sink and gagged. Luca went to me, worried, and held my back. "H-Hey, w-what happened? Does something hurt?" his voice was full of concern.

I gagged again. I immediately turned on the faucet and washed my mouth, then gargled. I suddenly felt weak in a way I couldn't understand. I just looked at Vanna, who was shrieking while running around. My eyebrow arched even more because Luca also seemed restless and was asking me questions.

Should I just tie these two up?

"Calm down," I said, laughing. "Maybe my stomach is just upset."

"Crescent... A-Are you sure? Should I take you to the hospital?" Luca asked again.

"Yes, Daddy! Maybe Mommy is sick," Vanna said, then held Luca's hand.

I just laughed and shook my head. "Mommy is okay... Maybe I just won't eat for now."

Luca was obviously not convinced, but he couldn't do anything. I just went to our room, then looked at the calendar there... That's right, my period is a month late... I just bit my lower lip.

I was exactly like this when I was pregnant with Vanna.

It looks like there's a big possibility that I'm pregnant... I don't know if I should still be surprised. It seems like we have sex almost every night. Add to that the fact that he doesn't use condoms, and I don't use contraceptives either.

I just went to the hospital to get a check-up and be sure. I secretly left while Luca was busy with work and went alone. I also don't want him to be disappointed if it turns out to be a false alarm. So it's better to be sure.

"Congratulations, you're 5 weeks pregnant," the doctor said.

"I-I knew it," I mumbled. My heart is beating so fast... I'm happy, excited, and a little bit nervous at the same time.

I admit, I still have fears about this. I know Luca will be sensitive about this. I can feel that even now, he still feels guilty about what happened before... we both still feel guilty about what happened.

WHEN I GOT HOME, I was surprised that Luca was no longer in the house. I called him, but he wasn't answering. I also left a message. It's strange that he didn't even text me... but maybe there was just an emergency at work.

I noticed that Vanna was also gone. I was even more confused. Where could that child be? Maybe Luca took her with him. He wouldn't leave Vanna alone here at home... but after a while, my brother Clyde texted me. He said he was with Vanna and he took the child to the mall. He even sent a picture of Vanna eating cotton candy. I sighed in relief.

I just read a book to pass the time... until it got dark, but the father and daughter still didn't come home.

"You're really going to get it later, Luca," I just whispered while staring at my cellphone, waiting for his call or text.

I flinched when it suddenly vibrated. I was just disappointed to see that it was Cadmus who texted. I just breathed out and read the message.

Cadmus: Pst, your boyfriend is here at my bar. He's so drunk, bestie. #StressedWithYourBoyfriend

My forehead creased. Why would Luca suddenly get drunk? I thought he went to work!

I didn't waste time. I immediately took my jacket and went out. I was holding the steering wheel tightly as I drove to Cad's bar. I was so annoyed. What was that man thinking, suddenly getting drunk?

I immediately got out of the car when I arrived at Cad's bar. I froze when I noticed that the bar seemed quiet... I also didn't hear any loud music. I just frowned and immediately went inside, but instead of a lot of people and eye-straining lights, Luca was the only person I saw inside. There was even a candlelight dinner prepared.

"W-What is this, Luca?"

Luca went to me and gently pulled me to the center. I was stunned when he held my waist and gently danced with me to the soft music that was pleasant to the ears... I just smiled and laughed, then shook my head and just danced with him... I didn't miss the trembling of his hands.

"Crescent... I know where you went earlier," he mumbled while staring at me.

I stared into his eyes... I don't know what to say. "Oh, s-so, you already know."

Luca licked his lower lip. His hands holding me trembled even more. "Y-Yes... you're pregnant." He gave a small smile. "To be honest, I'm a little sulky. I-I wish you just took me with you. I-I don't want to miss anything in your pregnancy. I-I want to be with you in everything."

"I-I'm sorry... b-because it might just be a false alarm. I just didn't want to get your hopes up," I just whispered.

Luca sighed. "It's alright... but whether you're pregnant or not, it's okay. I won't be disappointed because I still love you so much no matter what happens... So don't do it again, okay?"

"Yes, I promise." I just smiled and gently caressed his cheek. "How are you feeling now, Luca?"

"I-I'm scared," he confessed. "So many things are running through my mind, Crescent." We both stopped. He tilted his head and gently held my hand on his cheek and gently caressed it.

I looked into his eyes. What he said seems true... he really looks bothered... and scared.

"I'm scared of making a mistake again, b-but I'm more scared of losing you again." His eyes glistened... he's about to cry. "I'm scared that one day you'll just wake up and realize that you're too good for me, that I don't deserve you at all... until now I'm still scared that I might lose you again because of me and my stupidity..." He bit his lower lip.

I caressed his cheek. "Luca... we're scared of the same things. Between the two of us, I'm the one who's most responsible for what happened before. I was immature, impulsive, and careless. So, stop blaming yourself, okay?"

Luca caressed my hand on his cheek. His tears finally fell... "Give me a chance... I-I will do my best, Crescent. L-Let me be with you through everything we'll go through. I-I don't want to miss anything again, even a little. I want to be there with you always... whenever you're happy, whenever you're sad or suffering... I just want to be by your side."

I also started crying while looking at him. I gently wiped the tears on his cheek, then smiled. "I'm also by your side, Luca... We'll listen to each other now, we'll be honest with each other... we won't let go of each other anymore... T-That's why you have nothing to be afraid of."

Luca kissed my hand. I can feel his hands and his lips shaking. "Y-You, Havannah, and our new angel are my life... I'll do my best to be the best man, the best version of myself, and the best father... I-I know it won't be easy for me as I'm flawed, I'm far from perfect, I wasn't a good man... so please be patient with me... I'll do my best to be the man who's worthy of you and your love."

I froze when he took a small red box from his coat pocket. I was stunned when he knelt in front of me and held my hand. Tears finally fell from my eyes as I looked at him.

"I'm not gonna ask you this because you're pregnant... it's because I love you. I love you so much that I want to be with you for the rest of my life," he whispered.

"L-Luca..."

"I'm so happy that I went to this bar seven years ago... because I met you. I met the most beautiful and the most precious woman in my life. You don't know how mesmerized I was when I first met you... You're just too beautiful, too precious, and so lovable. It still feels surreal that such a perfect woman like you is my woman now... I don't pray... but when I met you, I thank God so much for it. He's too good for a sinful man like me."

I couldn't control my tears from flowing anymore. My hands were trembling... because of the overwhelming happiness in my heart right now.

Luca opened the small box. The ring inside immediately sparkled. The design was simple, which is exactly my type.

"I want to be your lifetime partner. I want to be with you for the rest of our lives. I want to smile with you, be happy with you, to cry with you... together with our children. I love you so much, Crescent North. Please keep my heart with you... You can break it too if you want to... I'll give you my everything, all of me, keep it all to yourself... I'm willing to give you all of it. Please just be with me forever. Let me love you for the rest of my life..." He stopped and wiped his tears with his trembling hands. He's about to cry again.

"P-Please, marry me, Crescent... Please be my wife," he whispered while looking at me, crying.

I immediately bent down and hugged him. I sobbed loudly and hugged him tightly. He also hugged my waist and let me cry in his arms.

"I'll marry you, Luca... E-Even right now... I love you so much," I whispered, then hugged him even tighter.

Luca also hugged me tightly. I felt his shoulders trembling; he's also crying like me. We stayed in that position for a long time before I slightly moved away from him, then wiped the tears on his cheek.

Luca gently put the ring on my finger. I smiled while staring at it. I looked at Luca, but he immediately crushed his lips on mine in a deep but gentle kiss.

"I love you, my future husband," I whispered in between our kisses.

"I love you more... I love you so damn much, soon-to-be Mrs. Falcone," he whispered, then kissed my lips gently again.