Chapter 82: I'm not even sure how I feel myself

River POV

Once we got our keys from the front desk and we're heading up the elevator she gets a serious look on her face and turns to me and asks,

"Hey sweet face, what's going on with you and Pickle?

I turn my eyes to hers. I take a ragged breath.

How can I even answer this, cause I have no idea myself.

"I honestly don't know. I can't even answer that question my self. I love Finn, like all in type love" I take a deep breath as I think of Finn.

I sigh as I continue.

"Pickle, I don't know. I just know I need to be around him. Finn makes me feel seen and beautiful and loved and Pickle makes me feel safe, grounded and like he could heal every broken part of me." I blush saying that aloud.

I keep my head down. Tears stinging my eyes.

"Sweet girl. Different people heal different parts of our soul. My momma always told me that. Our souls need to be healed in different ways that's why we're made to love different people or different things in different ways" she hugs me tightly.

"I love you Chailor, you're going to make a great mom. You always know what to say."

She's hugs me tighter.

"I love you too"

"Now go to your room and take a hot bath and some more Tylenol. I'm going to nap before my husband comes back and violates me." She laughs.

I blush thinking about Finn's body over me.

"Hello, no daydreaming in the hallway do it in the tub while you're relaxing"

We're laughing so loudly, someone down the hall opens their door and peeks out.

"Oops" she says covering her mouth.

"Bye" we both say laughing as we go in our separate rooms.

This is a beautiful room. There's a huge jacuzzi tub and floor to ceiling windows.

That is the biggest bed I've ever seen.

I run and jump on it, it's so soft.

I giggle as I roll around on it.

Maybe I should start that big tub, and climb in it.

I quickly text Finn as I'm getting the tub ready.

Me- I'm in the room it's beautiful. I'm getting in this tub and relaxing right now. I'll send you a picture xoxo

I check the water again and add some oils and bath salts In. I quickly strip off my clothes and climb in.

There's jets but how do you turn them on?

Right there.. Ohhhh yes, they feel amazing.

I might just stay in here all night.

I use the remote to turn on the in wall speakers and put some music on.

I just told it to put on relaxing music.

Some of it's like soothing nature sounds and soothing music it's actually pretty relaxing.

I quickly take a picture of me in the tub and send it to Finn.

It's sexy but taste full.

I hope he likes it.

I quickly get a text back.

Finn- Your trying to get me trouble aren't you doll. Don't move I'll be there soon. Whisle my baby's sexy.

I blush even though he not looking at me.

Finn- Your blushing aren't you. Damn girl your killing me. Xoxo

I laugh to myself. He knows me too well already.

I'm dozing off when the door opens and before I know it Finn's in the tub with me fully clothed, pulling me to him.

"Hi baby doll" he says kissing me hungrily.

"Finn!" I say laughing at him.

"What?!" He says laughing and pulling his wet shirt off.

I grab him and pull him on me, crashing our lips together.

He is naked and pulling me on his lap within seconds.

He kissing down my neck and pulling my breasts into his mouth "I missed you" he moans.

"I can tell" I moan as he slips a finger in me.

As my head dips back he pulls my mouth to his.

He quickly picks me up as he stands and gets us out of of the tub.

"I need this bag" he moans as I suck on the soft part on his neck that makes him do the growl noise that makes my toes curl.

He throws the bag to the top of the bed before he tosses me on it as well.

He quickly joins me.

He starts kissing down my body.

He takes his time kissing every broken part of my body on his way down, he kisses and lightly nips at my thighs as he inserts a finger back in me.

I arch as he takes my legs and throws them over his shoulders and quickly grabs my hips as he starts licking and sucking my pussy.

I moan his name loudly as he puts another finger in me. I cover my mouth as I moan louder.

"Not this time doll. I want you to let go, no one will hear you but me and I want you screaming my name" he growls as he dives back in.

That sends a nervous excited shiver down my body.

He lifts my hips up bringing me closer to his mouth as I start shaking and arching before I come completely undone from just his mouth and fingers.

"Finnnn!" I moan as I'm clenching around his fingers.

I'm still shaking as he pulls his fingers from my pussy and crashes our lips together.

I can hear him fumbling around with the bag as he lifts my thigh up and starts rubbing my throbbing clit.

I grab his back and try to pull him closer to my body, I need him in me.

He just gently starts kissing my neck from one end to other.

"River I love you baby" he's looking in my eyes now.

"I love you so much Finn" I moan as he pushes a finger into me.

He just holds my head to his as he sounds like his unwrapping something, a condom I guess.

He grabs my face and kisses me passionately but gently.

He meets my eyes as he removes his fingers and slowly pushes his dick into my wet throbbing center.

"Ohhhh Finn" I damn near yell grabbing his back and pulling him more into me.

He growls as he pulls my hair from behind giving him more access to my neck.

I moan so loud involuntarily that It almost stops us both.

He looks at me questioningly.

I just nod.

"That's a good girl" he moans.

He gently pulls my head back with my hair as he lifts one of my thighs.

This move almost finishes me off.

I'm moaning loudly and shaking under him now.

He keeps up the fast steady pace and I can feel my orgasm building faster and faster.

He pulls back a little and pushes back in as we both climax at the same time.

We just lay there breathing heavily and holding each other.

He pushes my hair from my face as he holds my cheeks "River will you marry me when I get home" he asks.

I let out a gasp at the question.