Chapter 83: I will want you forever

Finn POV

She put her hands over her mouth but she hasn't said anything, she has her eyes tightly closed and tears are now leaking out.

Was this too soon, too overwhelming for her?

I give her a few moments longer, maybe she's going over her feelings still, or maybe I fucked up and it's too soon.

"Baby, can you open your eyes and look at me please?"

She's still for a minute then her eyes open full of tears.

She wiggles out from under and stands by the bed.

I sit up and wrap my arms around her waist. She looks at me and takes my face.

"Finn, I love you. I didn't even think I could ever love anyone till I met you. Because I love you and I want you to have every happiness in the world, I have to say no" she's crying softly.

She said no! Why?

My heart is in a million pieces right now and I don't know what to say, how can she say no in the same sentence she tells me how much she loves me?

Somethings not right, there's something she's not saying.

Something she thinks will be a deal breaker for me.

Is it because of Pickle?

No I can't make this a huge fight about jealousy.

I'm not a jealous person.

She's just stareing at me crying.

I take some deep breaths in and out.

I'm so confused, I know she feels the same way I do.

"Finn say something please" she cries out, she reaches for my hand but I pull it back.

This causes her to cry harder.

"River is it because of your feelings for Pickle"

She shakes her head quickly.

"No" she cries.

I stand and walk to the bathroom and grab both the robes out of the bathroom.

I feel like this is going to be a conversation we probably shouldn't have naked.

She's sitting on the bed sobbing when I come back out.

I start pulling one of the robes on as I walk back over to her.

I take her hand and help her stand.

I gently help her in to the robe.

I take her hand and pull her to the bed with me.

"River talk to me" I say softly.

She starts crying again.

I take her hands in mine.

I gently lift her face to mine.

I lean over and kiss her softly on her forehead.

"Please baby talk to me"

"I can't ruin your life" She finally cries out.

"How would you ruin my life?" I ask confused.

"I might not be able to have kids because of the excessive damage done to me from the sexual assault" she covers her face and starts crying harder.

I pull her to me, holding her as she cries.

"You deserve to have beautiful babies and I won't be able to give you any" she cries into my chest.

Oh my poor sweet love. I would never leave her for that.

"I don't care about that" I say quietly.

I never thought that far ahead honestly.

Would I need that?

I would love to have kids and yes I would want them with her.

We would have beautiful babies but I would give up everything for her.

Everything, I don't care.

"River, I don't need that. I need you and only you"

I kiss her deeply, I can taste her tears on my lips.

"Finn you can't say that. You can't know how much you might want kids later"

"River. I don't care. If we try and can't get pregnant then we can try other options. There is always other options like surrogancy and adoption. I will love any child no matter how they were brought into our life because their with you"

She kisses me fiercely and pulls me to her tightly.

I growl from the aggressiveness of her movement.

Her eyes light up, she pushes me down and climbs on me.

She leans down so we're face to face.

"I love you Finn. I need to know if you really mean it! Can you still love me and want me forever if I can't carry your child?"

I sit us up and cup her face with my hands.

"River, I love you and I will always want you. Yes, one hundred percent yes. I will love you and want you forever no matter what" my eyes are fighting to hold my tears back.

Of course I would want her always I can't see any scenario where I wouldn't want her to be my wife forever.

I hold her eyes to mine and we just stare into each other's eyes.

I can tell she's thinking about everything.

"River, I will always want you and I will always love you"

She closes her eyes for a minute, then they open back up and she cups my face with her shaking hands.

"Yes Finn! I would love to marry you more then anything I've ever wanted in my life"

I crash my lips to hers deeply and passionately.

I need her. I want her forever. She's apart of me now.

I start kissing down her neck sliding the robe down her shoulders.

I'm getting hard under her.

She starts pushing down towards my hard dick as she's kissing from my neck to my chest.

She takes my mouth hungry as she lifts her body up enough for me to push into her.

We both moan as she slides her wet pussy around my hard dick.

We make love till we're both moaning through our climax.

We take a shower and make love in there too then when we're done, we return to the bed and make love till we pass out from exhaustion.

The sound of my phone ringing wakes me I reach for it groaning.

"Hello" I say tiredly.

"Are you guys sleeping?" Lincoln says.

"Yeah I guess we were"

"Well get the fuck up and let's go feed our women before the fight starts" he says playfully.

"Okay, let me wake River up" I say ending the call.

I lean over and kiss her cheek, her neck and then her lips.

She responds and starts kissing me back.

Our kiss turns deeper and I pull away quickly.

"What?" She says looking worried.

"We have to get ready everyone is waiting for us"

She looks around quickly "What time is it?" She asks worried.

"It's time for dinner and the fights will start soon" I answer back.

"Oh my god, I need to see Picke before his fight"

She's grabbing some clothes. She looks so cute panicked.

I just watch for a moment.

She looks like a goddess running around crazily all naked.

My god I'm so in love with this woman.