Chapter 81: I can't let her suck me in too

Lucky POV

Okay, I'm going to get my ass beat for being a dick to her.

Pickle's going to fuck me up good for that jab.

I just can't let her suck me in, She's one of my best friends dead sister and my other best friend is in love with her.

He keeps saying he can't love what's not his but I've known him most my life and I've never seen him look at a female like that before even ones his dated before.

I can't sit and be friends with her knowing what I know. She is beautiful and seems sweet.

I watched her for a hour on the tapes, I watched as Flame's friend Finn pushed her against the wall kissing and touching her.

Quickly imagining how she would feel under my body, how kissing her would feel till I had to go finish my self off in the bathroom.

Seeing her in person makes me want to hold her, hold tightly and fight all the monsters who threaten to cause her harm.

How did she worm her way in my head before I even met her.

She looks weak, I'm not into weak women.

So why can't I just can't get her beautiful green eyes out of my head?

I could never make a play for her or kiss her head and hug her like Pickle did, if I ever did I would lose the two most important people in my life and that's not ever happening.

I will just keep her away from me then I won't be tempted and I won't have to lie to her or my best friend.

I already feel guilty for not telling Pickle what we found out. I'm glad I got a match tonight because I need to smash somebody's face to get some of this aggression out.

I'm shadow boxing around in the ring when I look

up and lock eyes with her.

I would just ruin and break her heart, and again lose my family.

I'm not the forever type anyway, I probably just want to fuck her cause she's off limits.

I will just find some hoe tonight that's looks like her and fuck her out of my system.

Goodbye beautiful

enchantress hopefully I won't have to be mean to you again. I can just avoid you and just watch you from afar. That will keep you away from me and my fucked up mind.

I see Pickle walking quickly towards me.

Fuck! Okay here we go.

I shake my head at him as he pops me in the eye.

My ass hits the mat hard.

I make the smart choice and keep my ass planted there.

"Fuck man, you can beat my ass tomorrow. I got a match tonight and you know they won't let me fight if I'm fucked up, we need the money for the clubhouse I can't afford to miss this fight"

"Then make it right!" He says seething through a clenched jaw.

"I'm sorry brother okay, I was out of pocket I have a lot of my mind" Fuck I hate apologizing but I hate it even more when my brother is mad at me.

"Not to me, to her! Now!" He yells.

"She left bro I seen them go" sorry not sorry I think to myself.

"Then tonight" he says squeezing my hand as he helps me up.

"She's coming tonight?" I run my fingers through my hair.

"Yes! So fix it Lucky cause she's going to be around alot" he says as he heads to the bar.

What the fuck!! Great!!

How am I supposed to concentrate knowing she's here watching.

River POV

Pickle's friend isn't anything like he described.

He was a ass!

Nothing like the guy Pickle told me about, the one who saves street kids.

The kind and gently man who taught a kid to box after he kept being picked on.

I get a text..

Pickle- Are you okay? Sorry about Lucky not sure what crawled up his ass. He will be apologizing!

Me- It's fine. I'm fine. He was probably just having a bad day.

Pickle- I'm sorry. I'm glad I got to see you today. I'm leaving some back stage passes for the four of you. Please come back and see me before the fight Kitten.

Me- Okay I will. I'll see you tonight.

We had a quiet ride to a little restaurant close by.

Lunch was kinda weird, Chailor was was doing her crazy truth finding look where she pulls the answers to all her questions from my soul.

Victoria was asking me weird questions about my interests, what I want to do as a career.

I tell her I used to like photography and always wanted to do that.

She tells me that there's a course available at a community center and if I wanted to do it they would gladly pay for that as well as any other classes that I wanted to do.

I tell her thank you but I will figure it out on my own.

She says family figures it together and not alone.

We go over some dates for the wedding and talk about their plans for the honeymoon.

Chailor looks uncomfortable. Probably because they already did a wedding and they haven't told them.

After lunch we have dessert and talk about going and doing a lunch and shopping day together.

We make plans with her to go out again in a few weeks.

We say our goodbyes to Victoria as she drops us off at the hotel.

Chailor has something to say to me, I can tell by the way she's looking at me.