Chapter 360: He's everything I didn't know he wanted
Finn POV
It wasn't fast and instant like with her, it slow and confusing and everything I didn't know I wanted.
At first it was sleeping close for warm and safety and that turned into routine and comfort. We found ourselves sleeping next to each other even when we didn't need it. Fighting about who was sweating more and who's body heat is making it hotter in the room we were locked in but either of us moving away from each other.
Then it went from cuddling in our sleep to falling asleep in each other's arms. I get goosebumps thinking about that first weird awkward kiss.
We were wrestling around bored waiting for food to be brought to us. We were all hyped up after a good raid, no one died and we got some padding for our room so of course we're guys we had to test it out by wrestling around on it. He slammed me down a little to hard and was leaning down over me checking my eyes in a panic and that's when I seen it flash through his eyes. My heart started racing as he leaned in closer and I didn't stop him. When our lips touches it was like life coming back to my body and for a minute I was glad I was there. I pulled him back to me when he stopped right before our lips parted.
They brought us food a minute later interrupting us but just in that minute we were both breathing so heavy I didn't think my heart would ever slow back down. That night was awkward we were both freaked out by what happened. We both just laid there in our heads. We fell asleep not touching for the first time in a months but in the morning I woke up in his arms and I didn't care about anything else, nothing else mattered in that moment and it was perfect in ever fucked up way it could be. I'm getting hard thinking about him.
"Ten minutes to porn'oclock." Bickley says.
"Yeah. Just let me watch this till he flips off our internet." I say. There's not enough power for everyone to be on at once so we got assigned times and he's quick to get on for his porn at lights out for us.
I watch them a little longer. Pickle and Denalii come in and move them around a little so they can squeeze in the bed with them. Nunzio money can really get you everything. I've never seen a hospital bed so big before. I laugh trying to picture a bigger bed then the one they already had bought for our house that I've seen a ton of times in video chats. I take a deep breath and blow them a kiss just as it goes dark. I close my laptop.
"Okay I'm killing these two for the suits and he'll get hit in the cross fire somewhere." I say confidently pointing to the fuck who beat the fuck out of Kenny. I could only take who I can without being noticed. The fucker that beat Lucky and then caved his head in at the tarmac is like the final big bad boss you fight at the end of a video game. He's my Bowser and I'm going to torture his mind slowly letting him get paranoid as he starts to catch on that someone's hunting him. He won't even see me coming because he doesn't even know I'm here. I don't exist anymore, I'm just a weapon of the United States government used to get a job done and keep my mouth shut, trying to keep the man I love from going to prison as a traitor and the women I love going to a state mental prison for hitting a general which is a federal charge.
I will do anything to protect them even if it means I might spend the rest of my life without them.
Three months later
River POV
"What day is it?" I ask my nurse Johnny he used to do my home injections but I think the guys pay him to be here now at the center because only two days after I got here he started coming in and giving me my meds.
"Tuesday." He says taking my blood pressure.
"Remember what your doctor said these new meds might make you achey so I'll give you a muscle rub down after I inject it. Blood pressure looks good and I took your blood already so why don't you go get changed into something else so I can give you this muscle rub, I have other patients. Shorts and a bra or tank top would work best." He smiles and sometimes his smile looks familiar but he says it's because he's been my nurse for so long.
"Wait, on Tuesdays Pickle comes." I say getting excited now.
"Remember he left."
I freeze "He left?" I say turning and looking at him with tears in my eyes.
Johnny comes over and rubs his hand up my arm "Remember him and Annie went to Mexico this week." He licks his lips "Change River, I can't wait I have other patents to see." He says fixing my bed.
I don't like the idea of him touching me but my doctor says that touch therapy is helping a lot of people. Johnny is in school for it so she agreed to let him start doing it. She'll be back in town in a few weeks and then she's take over, she's taking a class on new treatments for people like me.
I hurry and change, the sooner he's done the faster he'll leave.
"Okay lay on your belly first. I'll start on your legs and move up." I nod.
"Are you going to give me my meds before?" I ask confused if he said that or not. I'm sad I don't get to see Pickle or Annie this week. Wednesdays are Chailor's day though so they are usually fun days. She does my nails and tells me all the gossip from around town or the tabloids that the boys don't tell me. Denalii doesn't come see me any more.
"Owww." I say as he gives me my shot in my thigh.
"Sorry I'll rub it extra when I get up there." Johnny says.
"Do you like to do your job?" I ask just trying to keep my mind from worrying that I forgot Pickle was gone this week.
"Some days are better then others." He says pushing my legs open more.
"What are you doing?"
"Just relax. I need to be able to rub the outside thighs and the inner I just have larger hands so I needed more room."
"Okay. You can't see up my shorts can you?"
He shakes his head and laughs.
He rubs so slow but I guess it feels nice. I lay my head down a little. This new shot gets me kinda foggy like I've been drinking or something but it only last like a hour or so.