Chapter 359: Fuck you!
Pickle POV
I turn and Lincoln looks like he's going to punch me and why shouldn't he I let her get hurt then I hid it from her and everyone else, then I pretty much begged the man who hurt to come back home. I losing control of everything and everyone. I've never been this scared in my life. My people, my partners, my family, my life is crumbling apart everyday and I don't know how to hold us all together anymore. They outnumber me now. Denalii's one bad day from drinking himself to death. River's mind is in a million pieces and I'm scared everyday that she will break and we won't get her back and there's Lucky, my brother, my best friend, all of this stress and drama can literally kill him. Finn.. oh god Finn. He's just gone. Even before Brain or Nate could always find some tiny little shred of life but now there's just nothing it's like he never existed. Fuck okay here we go....
"Pickle." Lincoln says shaking his head then he just straight punches me right in my nose.
"You should have told me! God damn it! Pickle you should have told me!" He yells, rubbing his hand and throwing the tissue box at me. I nod my head.
He comes back to me grabs me and hugs me tight.
"Your not alone. Stop hiding what is happening, our fucking houses are connected, I'm literally right there! My parents live down the street! Pickle, my brother, we're here your not alone." He hugs me tighter and I squeeze him tightly as I cry.
Finn POV
I wipe a tear from my cheek and slam my laptop closed. Watching that shit from the security tape is killing me, Pickle is falling apart and he's alone because of me! They're all falling apart! I thought if they had Sheldon back it would be easier for them and Denalii "FUCK!!" I scream as I throw my cup against the wall. He hit her! He's letting the darkness win.. I've seen this too many times with our guys before. He's not far from hurting himself or someone else it's only a matter of time. Sheldon looks good though, he's shaved his face but he left his hair a little longer the way I said I like it. I miss them. I should have waited and I would be there with them now! I couldn't risk their lives just on hope. I couldn't risk not getting him home! I throw the stupid stress ball the 'doctor' gave me for my anxiety attacks.
I should be sleeping but I can't help but watch them. That's all I do now, I go and use some of my new found methods of 'interrogating' prisoner for information and then I sit in my dark room and watch the recordings of all of them. I watch them eat, sleep, walk around, physical therapy, cry and my favorite is laugh, it doesn't happen much yet but I hope later it will be what I see the most.
Now they are gone and I'm all alone again. I can't get into their cameras at home Brain's too good. Even with Burks old connections no one can touch it.
"FUCK!!" I scream.
"Shut the fuck up!" The guard beats on my door.
"Just cause you have a room now doesn't mean you're not a prisoner anymore. Your a fucking traitor you little bitch and if I had a choice I'd just leave you in there to die!" He says.
"Fuck you!" I yell back.
"Shut up Spencer or they'll just come beat you again and my hands still hurt from picking all that glass out of your back the other night. Don't be stupid! Want me to come sedate you?" Bickley yells.
"Fuck you too! No, I have a run tomorrow and it makes me sick. How much longer do I have?"
"Not long!" Dick head says.
I go back to my desk and open up my laptop. Bickley comes in dropping his medical bag.
"It's because they need to up your calories and their only feeding you twice a day still. I ordered you some protein shakes. You drink them this time quit giving them away." He hates that he's the doctor and they don't listen to him. They want to keep me weak, I'm not stupid but he hasn't caught on yet.
"They're kids and they're hungry! They'll get them before me everytime so just order more if your worried about it. Come.. walk me through Lucky's injuries again. I want to run back through all the names once more before tomorrow." I kiss my hand and put it on Annie's drawing she made of us holding hands, it's the only color and little bit of happiness they allow me.
"Where's Wilson and why I'm I still stuck with asshole mcgee over there!" I say as Bickley takes my blood pressure.
He looks over at Nava and laughs. The guys a downer he hates everything but porn. 'Don't laugh, don't talk, turn off the light, turn on the light.' He's a fucking weird perv. He will sit there and watch porn and jackoff, no shame and no care in the world. We can't see it but we can hear it cause he likes it loud and wet. It always sounds very wet. I don't know what kind of kink it is but me and the other two men down here think it's some kind of piss kink or weird water play. We take turns asking him questions about it, we're bored and a normal human can only jackoff so many times a day till it gets boring.
I watch Lucky hold them both as they laugh together and watch some movies. Lucky laughs when he guesses the movie by the first few lines of it. He got the blind thing down pretty fast. He picked up using his cane and hearing instead. Bickley says it's because your brain will pick it up quicker if it thinks it's just temporary and it's harder for your brain to adjust to the loss of something permanently.
I zoom in and watch how River touches Lucky's chest and rubs her head into the crock of his arm. He takes her hand like it's second nature and just rubs small circles with his thumb around her hand.
She's so beautiful when she smiles. She keeps my heart beating, she's what I've always held on to. I watch as she reaches over and pulls Sheldon to her. She grabs his hand and holds it. He looks at them sadly for a minute then he wipes his cheek. I can feel my heart breaking along with his, I miss him so much. He wasn't anything I thought I would have or ever wanted. I never looked twice at any man but it was different, it was slow and it happened on its own before either of us realized it was happening it was there and it was amazing. I'll never regret our time together. I love him. I love them.