Chapter 195: My poor princess
River POV
Flame strokes my hair "We're not leaving either love, I just ordered dinner. When it gets here you need to eat some okay." I nod my head at her.
"Ryder do you want to go?" He nods at me taking a deep breath "Room 432"
"I need to use the bathroom I'll be back" I say as I turn around and head to the bathrooms right out the door I feel like I'm sleep walking like I know I'm moving but I don't feel my body moving, like I'm numb. I feel like my heart was ripped out and stomped on, I hate seeing him like that. I'm barely holding my shit together, I feel like any minute the dam is going to break and I'll never be able to stop crying. I need to be strong for Pickle, he's always the strong one for me.
I go to the bathroom and when I'm done washing my hands I take few drinks of my flask. I pull out the small bottle of mouthwash that I took with me from the plane. Shit my flask is getting low and it might be a long night, It's not like I can just refill it here. I'll just have to ask Lucky for his if I run out. I take a few ragged breaths and open the door.
Lucky's standing there waiting for me. He looks at me and I lose it I just start crying and he walks over pulling me into his arms holding me tight against his chest "Shhhh enchantress it's okay, he'll be okay. He's a fighter and we know he isn't going to leave you without a fight." He just let's me cry till I feel like I have nothing else left. He lightly kisses my head "Bunny's asleep and she ate all her dinner and even asked for more." I look up at him and smile "I read to her and told her we'll call her when she wakes up." I squeeze my arms around him even tighter.
"Thank you for telling me that. I was worried about her, I didn't want to leave her but she doesn't need to be here for this. Thank you for saving him and bringing her back to me and I'm really glad your back. I missed you Lucky. I couldn't do this without you. I need you." I just hold my head to his chest crying while he strokes my hair, his fingers lightly running across my neck every once in awhile stirring up the fire in my belly and shooting electricity through my body. His arms around feel so warm. I breathe in his smell and I feel more relaxed then I have in days.
Lucky POV
I just stand there holding her and it feels so good to have her in my arms again, she feels good against my body. I missed how warm her body feels next to mine. God I missed everything about her. I start thinking about how happy she was when she seen on Saturday. I start thinking about all the fun places we can take our daughter all four of us or I guess five of us when Finn gets home.
No I can't get all wrapped up with her again. I have to be on top of my game. I feel her breathing get a little louder and I feel her body go limp. I look down trying to see her face when I feel her body getting really relaxed. Too relaxed now. I try to look down at her again.
Shit she's a sleep! I laugh a little, my poor princess. I quickly pick her up bridal style and carry her in the waiting room. She looks peaceful and I don't want to disturb her. I walk a little slower then normal so I don't startle her awake.
Flame seeing me walking in with her and walks over to the couch that I'm lying her on.
"What happened, is she okay?" Flame asks looking worried. I nod at her "She fell asleep when I was hugging her" I say trying not to laugh "She literally fell asleep arms around my waist just standing there. I've haven't seen that since Pickle was what 16 and wouldn't sleep because he kept having nightmares and he fell asleep leaning against the wall in the gym and nobody wanted to wake him" I laugh a little, "He was so cranky" it's not funny now or then but if I don't laugh I'm going to lose my shit.
My brother literally died while my hand was in his chest and once more on the table. I can't do it without him, none of it. I don't even know how to breathe without my brothers. This was the longest we've been apart since we found each other. I'm coming home, I need them and now I know they need me too. River needs me and if I'm going to keep my daughter and everyone else safe I have to come home. I have to ask for help. I need them just as much as they need me.
I lift River's legs and sit putting them on my lap just so she can feel me and get some sleep for a little bit. I need to feel her so it's a little for me to. I lightly rub her legs.
"Are you going to go in there tonight?" I ask Flame who's in the chair by me.
She looks to the door and nods "Yes just for a minute to let him know I'm there and to say a little prayer for him. I'm going to stop at the church and light a candle later if want to come." I nod even though she's not looking at me, I lean my head back against the wall taking a deep breath.
This is one of those times it sucks being tall. Its not the most comfortable but feeling the warmth of her legs is helping. I'm just going to close my eyes for a second or two. I breathe in deep trying to calm my mind, there's so much to do if I'm going to come home. I relax a little listening to her breathing, my own breath starting to match hers.