Chapter 196: Code blue 432

Flame POV

I knew that was going to happen I think as I watch Lucky lean his head back and fall asleep.

They both have been going none stop for days.

Ryder comes in and I go to him. I cup his face and kiss and then hug him "What do you need my love" I ask him. Holding him tight, I feel his breath against me as he pulls me to his lap.

He burys his face in my neck he holds it there and takes a big breath "I missed your smell. I missed how warm your body is next to mine."

He pulls back and looks at me "Baby I missed you. I know I fucked up and I'm so sorry. I'll never forgive my self for my part in what happened." He caresses my cheek and holds his hand there.

"I missed you to my Cervello. I really have but we can't just start where we left off. I need time for me and I need you to understand I'm yours forever but I just need a minute to find me again"

He looks at me for a minute and smiles "I'm not going anywhere my love, your my life. Take all the time you need." I kiss his lips softly and I touch his cheek "I'm going to go see him and then I'll wake her up. If dinner gets here before I get back wake him and get him to eat" I kiss his forehead and turn and walk away.

I push open the door slowly and take a deep breath. I go and sit, I pick up his hand and put it between the two of mine as I say a prayer. I kiss his hand as I lower it back to the bed not letting it go yet.

"You better not die on me Pickle, I still need you.  Hell I'll always need you, your my person and I don't work without you in my life." I feel a squeeze on my hand "Pickle you can hear us can't you? That's really good, just keep getting better we're all here for you. I love you Pickle I'll always love you. You were my first everything that mattered."  He squeezes my hand again. I put my head against his hand and just feel his warmth on me.

I don't know what happened when I had my episode but when we kissed it felt explosive. That's the best way to explain how I felt, it feels the same as the first time we kissed and I didn't want it to end. "I love Ryder with all that I am but I'll always love you Pickle." I say to him in low whisper, my tears silently falling. I'm still really confused about the whole thing but me and my therapist are working through it.

I've loved him since I was thirteen years old and he found me hiding in a trash can from some older boys that were trying to touch me. He taught me how to defend myself, how to keep myself safe. He taught me how to live.

I'll never not loved him but it feels wrong now. Why are all theses feelings happening now?

It's so confusing cause I don't want to be with him but I don't want to be away from him either. Maybe I have.. what was the damn thing called my shirk said.. Hero worship or some shit like that.

He always saves me, he's always there for me when I need him. He hasn't ever been with anyone like we were till now with River.

"Pickle I love you and so do your brother's. River needs you to be okay. I've watched that girl go through hell and she needs some good to happen. She loves you so much."  He squeezes my hand twice. I kiss his hand as I close my eyes and a few tears run out. "I'll send in River and I'll see you tomorrow we're all out in the waiting room waiting for you. Goodnight Pickle" I kiss his cheek for a minute and walk out the door.

Brain/Ryder POV

Code blue 432

A voice sounds through the overhead system.

Code blue 432

Everyone jumps at the sound, we all look at each other for a moment before Lucky yells "Pickle!" He runs out to hallway, followed by me, Flame, River and Carter. Marco, his sister and Gio's wife all stay up closer to the waiting room door while we rush down towards his room.

Lucky gets there first, but I'm right behind him. We're stopped from going in by the night nurse "You have to stay out so we can help him." He tries to look around her.

She notices River and Flame coming up behind us and quickly pulls the curtain closed.

"I know your worried about your brother. If you all just stand off to the side keeping the hallway clear, I'll go ask the doctors for a update." We all nod and move against the wall.

I grab Flame's hand and River's. I notice Lucky already has River's other one. We watch as Gio is wheeled in a room a few doors down from Pickle's.

A doctor passes us heading to the others in the waiting room. I need to get into their system and put alerts for updates on everyone. We already know the kid is alive, he was already released from the ICU and has been moved up to the private floor, hopefully where they all will be moved soon.

"Okay." she says rushing out of the room finally.

"Let's move back some. Here's what's happening right now. He stopped breathing and we lost his pulse but he was brought back in a matter of minutes." She tells us.

I hear River and Flame gasp. Me and Lucky look at each other. That makes three times so far. The doctor talked to us already about long term effects and complications that can occur with continuous life saving measures.

"He has hemothorax which is some bleeding in his chest cavity. He also has a pneumothorax which means his lung has collapsed, he said he talked to you guys about that being a possibility." We all nod.

I can hear my sister sobbing I squeeze her hand a little tighter.

"They are prepping him for surgery now. We'll know more once they get in there. They will do their best but it's time to decide what life saving measures you want taken. I have some paperwork that will need to completed before surgery can take place. It will have some questions to determine what actions you want them to take while their in there." She says waving her hand to follow her back to the desk.

We quickly all decide what life saving measures we approve of and what we don't. That was the easy part, waiting will be the hardest.

Now we just have to sit and wait for them to come tell us if our brother lived or not.  We all head to the chapel even Lucky and Marco joined us this time.