Chapter 161: Can I see Annie?

River POV

I finally got Annie asleep, I sneak out to go clean up her toys before I head to bed. My phone dings it's a text from Lucky.

Lucky- Can you come to the door.

Is he here, I thought they were still in Mexico.

I go and open the door slowly ready to turn him away if he's not here to tell what's going on.

As soon as the light hits him and I see his face I gasp "Lucky what's wrong, what happened?" He looks awful his face is still healing so it's yellow and green In some spots but it's his eyes that I notice first they are not as bright as they usually are and they look hollow like he hasn't slept. He looks like he has the weight of the world on his shoulders.

I grab him and pull him in for a hug. He hugs me tightly like he'll fall apart if he let's go.

I hold him for awhile I don't pull away first I let him when he's ready. He slowly pulls away from me "River, I'm sorry" he says sadly his eyes are red like he's been crying.

"Lucky are you okay?" I ask him worried.

"Can I see Annie?" He asks with a sad face.

"Of course I just got her to sleep, god she's amazing Lucky she really is"

He squeezes my hand "I'll be quiet, I just need to see her" I nod as I pull his hand into mine and lead him to my room.

I watch as he takes a deep breath and goes to her. He gently sweeps her blonde hair out of her face and kisses her cheek. He drops his head to the bed next to her, he's shoulders are moving up and down like he's crying or shaking maybe both.

I put my hand on his shoulder and he pulls me to him. His face is on my belly and his arms are wrapped around me. I run my hands through his hair and rub his back. He lifts his head to me and stands. He looks tore up like somethings wrong, something happened. I take his hand and lead him to Finn's room.

I close the door and he's back is to me "Lucky what's wrong?" His head drops.

"I did a DNA test on her, she's my sister. My dad took Abby as his bride when I ran. She would have been 9 when he married her. I thought when I ran she would have been safe. I'm a fucking idiot, he's a monster. She was to marry me and I should have know he would keep her as his. God!!" He drops his head again, his fists are in balls "It's not your fault Lucky, none of this is your fault" I tell him rubbing his back.

"You don't understand. She's my sister and I have to protect her from him. He hurt her she's just a little baby and he whipped her already. I should have killed him. I'm sorry River I shouldn't have come here" he says as he try to go out the door.

"Lucky please don't go. Not like this, just stay with us tonight please" I don't want him to go do something stupid, he's mad and scared. I understand what Abby was talking about a little better now.

"I can't drag you into my shit and I can't drag a baby through it either. I shouldn't have come here. I'm sorry River."

I grab his wrist, he looks at me so broken and so sad "Lucky, please just stay here tonight. Let me hold you, let me help you." I say as I put my hand on his face. His hand meets mine on his face,  he holds it there and closes his eyes.

I pull him to me and kiss his lips softly I hold them there just as I'm getting ready to pull back he grabs me and kisses me back. He's slow and soft just moving our tongues and mouths with each other's. He pulls away and puts his head to mine "River I can't keep her. I can't keep you. I'm fucked up in the head and I should never of thought I could keep you both." Tears are in his eyes as he looks down and me.

My eyes shoot open and I pull away to see his full face "No! I don't understand. She needs you and I need you" I grab him and wrap my arms around his neck "Talk to me and we can figure this out together" he pulls me tight to him.

"River I can't be her dad. Hell, I don't even think I can be her brother at this point. I'm not someone who should be any thing to anyone."

"I think you're wrong, I don't think you give you're self enough credit. I can help and so can your brothers and Flame plus you have everyone at the clubhouse" he keeps shaking his head "I can't! I'm sorry I can't,  I can't give you what you want and I can't be who she needs" I cup his face "Can you please just take a minute before you decide anything. Come lay with us, I want to hold you and you look like you need some sleep"

He goes to say something else but then just nods his head. I lean up and kiss him tenderly on his lips and

I help him take off his clothes and give him a pair of Finn's pajama bottoms. My heart is breaking for him.

I grabs his hand and start to head to my bedroom but he stops and pulls me in to him. He grabs me and pulls me up to his waist pushing me against the door. He just looks at me for a second then he moves my hair behind me ear.

He pushes me tightly against him and kisses my lips so soft and so sweet I wouldn't expect a kiss like this from him. The fire in my belly ignites as he slowly brings the kiss deeper and more urgent.

He stops and we are both heavily heaving "River I can't, I have to stop. I'm sorry it wouldn't be right" I kiss him quickly "That's fine. Lucky let's go lay down. We can stop." He puts me down as he does he kisses my head softly "Maybe I should just go enchantress. I'll see you in the morning for training class or whatever." he turns to open the door.

"Lucky please just stay with me tonight" I say as I take his hand. He drops his eyes to his feet and nods. I lead us to my bed, I have him get in first next to Annie and I climb behind him and wrap one arm over his waist and the other one I gently play with his hair.