Chapter 162: That's not possible they died

River POV

He puts his hand lightly by Annie, he gently puts his hand on hers. I can feel and hear him crying but I just hold him tightly not saying anything. Tears form in my eyes as my heart breaks for him. He's always so tough it's hard seeing him break like this.

I don't know what he's dealing with but it's killing him inside and I just wish I knew how to help him. He's finally breathing deeply now. He must be a sleep, I lay there and listen to him and Annie breathing till sleep takes me.

I wake up and they are both still sleeping so I head to the bathroom and as I'm coming out I see Lucky going into Finn's room. I knock lightly "Goodmorning" I say as I lean up and kiss him.

"Goodmorning sweet enchantress. Thank you River for everything" he says kissing me hungrily while pulling me close to his chest.

When he pulls back, I say  "She won't be up for a little while longer if you want to come shower with me?" I take his hand in mine.

He looks me up and down making me blush and sending fire through my body.

He turns his eyes and coughs uneasy "Enchantress I can't, I really want too but I have a appointment with a lawyer to go over my options and I can't be late." He tucks some hair behind my ear and gently caressing my cheek.

I nod and kiss him "River can we keep what happened and what was said last night between us?" I lean up to kiss him but he turns his head slightly "Lucky our business is our business always. My lips are sealed I give you my word." he looks at me for a long while and then caresses my cheek holding his hand a minute longer.

He leans in and kisses me like it's the last time he'll ever do it. My body is burning and aching for him when he pulls himself from my lips we're both breathing heavy.

"Goodbye River" he whispers softly in my ear, he kisses my cheek and walks out the door holding my hand.

I walk him to the door and bite my lip thinking about that kiss. I wave as I close the door.

My phone rings and a text comes through at the same time. I decided to answer the call "Hello"

"Hi.. River it's Brain can I talk to you?" He says voice kinda shaky.

"Yeah of course, is everyone okay? You sound upset" I ask worried by his tone.

"Yeah they are alright. I don't know how to say this but If I don't I'll lose everything and everyone I've ever loved."

I can hear him taking a few deep breaths.

"Okay.. just tell me then, Brain please" I'm shaking a little now, he's scaring me.

"First of I'm so sorry Riv I should never have believed him. I should have come back for you." He says and it sounds like he's crying a little.

"Wait what! What are you talking about?" What does he mean, what is happening?

"River" I can hear him crying softly.

"Come back for me where? I don't understand what happened?"

"River my past is something that's always haunted me. There's no way to say this but just to say it. River I'm Ryder I'm your brother" he breaths out loudly.

I drop my phone. I pick it back up and sit on the floor cause my legs are shaking so bad. I can't breath my chest feels tight.

"River are you still there? River I'm sorry" He yells through the phone. "Oh god River are you there?"

"What! No! That's not possible they died. The police looked for them after... after I was attacked. Calie paid for a investigator and nothing was found." I'm shaking so much I can hardly hold my phone.

I can't talk, I can't think, this isn't possible. I think I'm dreaming or having a nightmare. I pinch myself hard and then open my eyes but I'm still on the floor. I can hear my phone beeping and I think someone is knocking the door.

"River. River. Ohh god please be okay River!!" I hear him yell.

"You.. you can't be my Ryder. I'm sorry but no." I shake my head. It's not possible, it's not true. Why would he call and lie about something like this?

"Riv I promise I'm him, I'm your Ryder and I'm so sorry" I shake my head again.

Who ever is at the door is knocking really loud now.  Everything is like slow motion, I see Lincoln come out of his room with his button up shit undone and Chailor right behind him. He runs to me as Chailor opens the door.

"Sweetie can you hear me?" Lincoln asks snapping his fingers.

I look up at him "Sweetie what happened?" He asks. Tears are running down my face and my vision is blurry.

"River! River! I'm so sorry. Please talk to me." Ryder yells from the phone.

"River! Oh god he actually did it, didn't he. Is that Brain?"

I look up at Pickle. He reaches down and pulls me up and carries me to the couch.

"Mommy!" I hear Annie scream.

I open my arms and pull her to my lap.

I move the phone to my ear.

"He told you I was dead?" I ask quietly.

"River. Oh my god, I'm so sorry." He takes a deep breath "He told me he killed you and buried you with mom, before he shot and buried me" Ryder cries out.

I start to cry. Chailor quickly comes and grabs Annie before she sees me crying.

"Let's go make coco pancakes, I need my special helper" she says taking her hand.

"Okay! Mommy I make you coco pancake and you be better okay." She yells looking back at me.

"Thank you sweet bunny" I say to her.

"Is mom really dead?" I ask him.

I hear him sniffing "Yes she is. He told me he beat you to death after I passed out and then he stabbed mom to death as she cried holding you and he buried you both together in the hole next to mine. He beat me and threw me in the hole and then he shot me in the back and buried me. He must have been too drunk and didn't realize the hole he put me in was too shallow. I was able to crawl out and crawl to the road where I was lucky enough for Pinky to find me" I can hear him sobbing now.

"Ryder... it's really you." I can't stop crying now.

"I'm sorry its taken so long for me to tell you. I tried but I didn't want to ruin your last few days with Finn" he sobs out.

"Wait what? You knew this whole time?  Everytime I've talked to you, You knew?" He knew this whole time! So what he was never going to tell me? He was just going to make the people I love lie to me for what? Just lie to me forever?