Love and hate

"Pretty much," Zack says , rolling his eyes.

"Don't roll your eyes at me, sir! By the way, how come they don't hate me like everyone else?". I ask the question that burns inside me.

"One, we don't associate with petty high school dramas. Two, we can judge people for ourselves and three, our sister seems to like you, so I guess that makes you cool to us," he says. It makes me want to cry at how nice they're being.

"Not your sister!" Serena interjects.

"Damn it, Zack! You're ruining our reputation. Tell someone and we'll deny it. But yeah, you've had it bad enough. Having someone on your side is what you need," Rent says , winking at me.

"Thanks, guys!" I tell them. "And I'm glad you found me," I say to Serena .

"Same here! We need to get together again soon," she tells me.

"I'd love to," I tell her as the guys leave.

She's been nice and I really hope it's true and I have another friend. I have Noah, but I could use another one. I don't want the same thing to happen to me as it did with Kate: getting my hopes up about having a friend only to be let down in the worst possible way and have that person hurt me. I guess we'll see how this new friendship goes.

I stumble towards the front door. As soon as I walk through it and close it, I slam into it and a very pissed off Rayan looms over me. I stare at him. His hands are on my head and his body is blocking my way.

"Where the fuck were you?" he blurts out angrily. I shrug and don't answer, which seems to infuriate him more. "Answer my fucking question!".

"Why the fuck do you care? You left me stranded on the side of the fucking road. If you really wanted to know where I was, you shouldn't have left me there." I shout angrily at him. How fucking dare you demand to know where I was when you abandoned me on the side of the fucking road? "Tell me again how the big bad Rayan doesn't care about the bitch!".

"Did you let any of them fuck you? Is that why they brought you here? Are you drunk?" she whines.

"So what if I did and so what if I was?". I retort. I try to look at him, but there are like five people in front of me. Damn. Now I'm really fucking high, but I love the feeling. A giggle escapes me.

"You think that's funny?" he growls.

"What do you want me to tell you, that I had a quadruple, no, wait, quintuple, with the boys and that girl? Is that what you want to know, that I was out being the whore you keep calling me?" I snap at him.

"For your sake, none of what you just said better be true!" he snarls in my face.

"Get out of my way, asshole!". I mutter as I try to get out of his way, but he doesn't budge. In the next moment, my whole world comes crashing down, or so it seems. I realize that he has thrown himself over my shoulder and is walking with me somewhere.

"Wow, you have a nice ass for such an asshole," I say and then let out a chuckle at my words.

"Shut the fuck up!" he says as he slaps my ass. Involuntarily a groan escapes me and I'm not sure if he heard me.

When we get to where we're going, he pulls me back to my feet. I see we are in my room. I'm confused for a second because he just stands there staring at me. When he turns around and closes and locks the door behind him, I realize I could be in a lot of trouble.

RAYAN

Last night, after I left Lia's room, I was in a bad mood for the rest of the night and barely slept a wink. Her words were running through my mind in a continuous loop. They were obviously true, and that's why I was so pissed off.

I'm going to follow up on my previous opinion and say that this girl is a witch. In the last two weeks or so, she has made me doubt myself and made me feel things I never thought I would feel, especially for her.

I watch her as much as she watches me, and I don't know, but something has been changing in me. It's the little things about her that have been catching my attention. I still hate her, but now I'm also a little more intrigued by her. That doesn't stop me from being rude to her or hating her. You could say I have a lot of conflicts.

That's why I'm in such a bad mood that I head to the kitchen for a coffee before I leave for class. I'm almost out of breath when Leah crashes into my chest and instantly I'm angrier than I was a second ago. I had almost forgotten she lived here and as soon as I remember that tidbit of information, my mood deteriorates even more.

"Watch out, fat ass!" I growl so that only she can hear me.

"Good morning to you too, asshole !" she growls under her breath.

I push her away from me because her touch burns my skin. The witch is definitely doing some shit to me. As much as I hate her, I can't stop obsessing over her. The fact that she's already caught my attention several times only serves to piss me off even more.

Somehow she has captivated me without even doing anything. I'm not sure how to handle that. Well, I do, and that is to continue my childish games.

I push her away from me and watch her face instantly droop at my reaction, but I don't dare make a big deal of it. I can't even shake off the hatred I feel for her. I would feel like I was letting my mother down and that thought burns me like a son of a bitch.

I'm about to leave the kitchen and forget about the coffee I wanted when I hear my dad tell her that I'm taking her to school because there's something wrong with her car. I didn't hear what he said but seriously, I don't care.

"Come on! If you're not in my car by the time I'm in it, then I'm leaving you behind!". I growl at him, a little angrier than I was a second ago. I turn to leave, not saying a word to anyone else, least of all my father. As far as I'm concerned, fuck her.

I hear her running to follow me and I smile to myself. One move and I know it, but when the hell have I ever pretended to be nice?

She opens the passenger door just as I open mine and quickly gets in before buckling up and closing the door as I sit in the driver's seat. I clench my jaw, but don't say anything because I have something else planned.

I get into gear and, when we're about five minutes from the house, I park on the shoulder and turn to look at her.

"Get out!" I growl at her in a deadly tone. She lifts her head and looks at me with wide eyes as she takes in my words.

"What?

"I want you to get out of my car. You're stinking it up with your disgusting smell," I tell her to be petty. But it's a lie. She smells delicious and all I feel like doing is pulling her out of the car to bend her over the hood and fuck her. But I can't do that or I'll look weak.

"Really? That doesn't make any fucking sense," she yells at me, and I shrug. He grumbles something under his breath that I don't quite make out.

"Don't make me throw you out! Find your own way to school. I'm not your driver," I snap at him. Without waiting a moment longer, she storms out of my car and slams the door extra hard. I clench my jaw, trying not to react to her meanness.

She's lucky I have to be at school soon for training, otherwise I'd make her pay for that stunt. No one disrespects my car like that, least of all her. I don't wait a second longer, I pull away from the curb and leave her standing there. Let the bitch make her own way to school.

I don't give a shit.

Liar...

Looks like my conscience is a bitch today too.

I get to school, park and get out of the car before going into the locker room to change into my soccer clothes.

Coach is pulling us out of morning classes today so we can practice some more. Since we are all doing well with our grades, he never has a problem pulling us out of class whenever he wants. I walk into the locker room and see that the boys are already here and have put on all their gear.