Thinking of her

"Hey, bro! What's good?" asks Adam as soon as I get next to him and start undressing.

"I missed you at the party last night, bro," says Nick .

"If I remember correctly, wasn't a certain redhead supposed to move in sometime yesterday or the day before?" Charlie asks. I should have known he'd be the idiot to bring it up.

"Can't you talk about your own life instead of always butting into mine?". I ask in exasperation.

"No. Yours is much more interesting than mine. So tell us, brother, how's life with the redhead living in your house now?" he asks cheerfully. "By the way, aren't we due for a visit to Rayan's house, guys?".

Charlie acts like he's waiting for me to confess something. I have a pretty good idea what it is, but it's not going to happen.

"No, she's not due for a visit and things are going.... My dad made me take her to school this morning," I say.

"Wow, I didn't think you'd be so nice." Nick laughs.

"I wasn't," I tell him as a smirk crosses my face.

"What did you do?" groans Adam .

"I left it on the side of the road."

"Fuck. That's cold." Nick hisses.

"What if she gets hit by a car or something? Or if she gets kidnapped? Then we'd never see each other again." Charlie says dramatically.

"Oh, stop being such a drama queen! Nothing will happen to her. Besides, no one has ever been kidnapped from here," I say as I roll my eyes.

"What if she becomes the first? I mean, there's always a first time for everything," she retorts and now my thoughts are occupied with her.

"It'll be fine. Stop acting like a child." I growl. When Charlie starts, he's like a dog with a bone and won't stop chewing until he's done.

"When are you going to stop being a jerk and tell us what's going on with you and her already?". asks Adam .

"Nope. I'm not ready yet," I grumble.

"Fine, asshole ! But if this goes wrong and blows up in your face, I'm going to be the one to tell you that I told you so! I've been telling you that you're in love with her, but you're too much of an asshole to see it or acknowledge it," Adam grumbles .

I'm not in love. And definitely not with her.

"You're one to talk. Have you told Kate how you feel yet, asshole?". I ask him and he instantly shuts his mouth. "Yeah, that's what I thought. You take care of your shit first, then I'll take care of mine."

Before I can say anything else, the coach comes into the locker room and yells at us to get our shit together and get out on the field.

"Well, this could have gone better," I tell the guys as we head back to the locker room after practice. That session couldn't have gone any worse if we tried. Before anyone can answer me, the coach bursts into the locker room behind us.

"What the hell is wrong with you guys? Whatever was going on on the field, it sure as hell wasn't soccer! What do you guys have to say for yourselves?" The coach is ranting and everyone is looking at me, I'm the captain . Fuck my life.

"Sorry, coach, it won't happen again!". I yell loud enough for him to hear me.

"What the hell was happening to you out there Rayan, do I have to ask you for help or something?". Coach asks me and I clench my jaw. He probably thinks I'm still broken up about my mom, and I am. But today's fuck-up was because of a certain redhead and not my mother. Charlie's words made me think of her and that's been on my mind the whole training session.

"No, sir! Today was just a bad day and it won't happen again." I tell him.

"Of course it won't! Each and every one of you better get in shape before the next training session starts. The way you guys played today, it looks like you don't want to win the next game, which is only a few weeks away!" he yells again. I don't know why he's yelling, as the room is so quiet you could hear a pin drop, but he keeps yelling at us. Oh, he's definitely furious right now.

This is all Charlie's fault . If he hadn't said something might happen to Lia because I left her on the side of the road, then I wouldn't have been thinking about her. Not what I should have been thinking about because I don't care, right?

I don't even know what the hell is happening to me. I'm clearly losing my fucking mind and the fine line between hating her and liking her has been blurring over the last few days. I've been lashing out at her because of my confusion and I want to stop but I can't. When I look at her, sometimes I just want to strangle her and that's where things always get messy.

I think that's why I always fuck her so hard. I try to push the demons away, but they never go away. However, she seems to like the rough sex I give her too much. That's why she's my perfect little slut.

As soon as we finish showering, I head to the cafeteria with the guys. We grab our food, head to our usual table and sit down. I glance around to see if I see her, but she's nowhere to be seen.

My eyes collide with Lily's and I roll my eyes. She looks like a lost puppy without me, like she's going to fuck that bitch again. She's lucky I didn't have any feelings invested in her or I would have ruined her for what she did.

Maybe Leah didn't eat lunch here today. I know why she wouldn't, since there's always someone making fun of her when she's here. But then again, after what I saw after dinner, she's probably just throwing up what she already ate.

I fully settle into my seat and start eating since I'm starving. The training has demanded a lot from me and I need to replenish my strength.

When we get to class after lunch, I go back to look for her but I don't see her. The seat she normally sits in is empty and I decide to check the tracker on her phone. It shows she is at home and I get pissed off.

I know it's irrational and I have to force myself to sit here instead of going home to see what the hell she's up to. Somehow, she's gotten so far into my skin that I can't get her out of it.

You'd think with how much I hate the girl I'd be able to fuck her and get her off my back, but ever since that first time, when I fucked her and realized she was a virgin, my brain went crazy in an instant. Even if the rest of me disagrees with that statement.

"Tell me again to what extent you're not obsessed with her," Adam says from beside me. When I look up, I see a smirk on his face. I hadn't even realized he was watching what I was doing.

"What?" I ask, feigning ignorance.

"Don't even try to deny it, asshole . I know what it is because I have the same shit installed on Kate's phone," he says, smirking in satisfaction.

"Ha! So you're obsessed too!". i laugh.

"Too?", he smiles, and that's when I realize what I just said.

"Fuck you ! See you later, asshole," I grumble and stand up.

"Where are you going, bro?" asks Nick , chuckling.

"Home."

"Oh, is it because a certain one who shall not be named isn't here?". asks Charlie with a shit-eating grin on his face. I let out a long groan before leaving class with the intention of heading home.

When I get home, I head straight to her room to see where she's hiding. I don't know why I feel the sudden need to have her. I hate that she is under my skin, and because of that t, I always feel my skin burning at the thought of her.

I have a petty hope that the same thing is happening to her, because I can't be the only one suffering. As soon as I walk into her room, I realize it's empty and it's been that way for a while. where the hell is she?

Now I'm pissed, wondering where the hell she's been, since she hasn't been to class. She better be ready to answer me when she gets home. I go back to the kitchen for a snack. I've been sitting at the table for two seconds when I see a car pull up in front of the house.

Dad has a monitor here when he's home to keep an eye on the place. We have security for that shit, but I guess being aware doesn't hurt anyone either.

Leah gets out of the vehicle and, instead of going into the house, stays talking to a girl. I also see her talking to the three guys.

It takes me a second to recognize them and I clench my jaw angrily at the sight of them. They are the Slim Brothers, or that's what they like to call themselves. They live on the outskirts of town. Everyone knows they're the ones you go to when you want drugs and shit.

I wonder why the hell he's with those guys in the first place. I've never had a problem with them and I'd like to keep it that way. I stay out of their way and they stay out of mine.

There are rumors that they are involved in the mafia or something. I don't know how much truth there is to that. I've never cared before, but they know I run this school and this town and I let them run their drug business. Everybody wins.

Rent says something to her and I see a laugh escape her. It's something I've never seen from her before and I take a second to watch her features. Her laughter lights up her face into something so beautiful it takes my breath away.

But I push all those feelings away and hold on to the anger I still feel. That's what I have to keep doing and not let it make me let my guard down where she's concerned. It looks like she's about to finish her conversation and go inside, so I walk out of the kitchen and head straight for the front door.