Chapter 73 Local news

Chapter 73 Local news
Elara

“Dad is completely lost without you, I don’t know what to say to him? We have never had a one on one conversation, you were always there but now you are not, we don’t know when you will wake up. I hate that every thing is messed up, I hate that I can’t stay her forever and I have to leave but I need to prove it to you, by the time you wake up, you will be glad knowing I choose my heart.” I smiled

Landon left, I tried not to think about it, I asked him to leave, I told him I didn’t need him his pity, I didn’t need his fake teas and he should leave, I told him I have Clara and everyone else with me

I was mean, I felt horrible doing this and I wish I could take it back, I know I can’t.

“Visiting hours is over.” A nurse said from behind and I nodded at her.

Dad had not uttered a word to me since I walked into the hospital, it felt like he could barley look at me, I wish I could be there for him in a way he wants me to be, but I doubted he needed anyone at the moment.

We were like strangers  without mom

“Hey Dad.” I whispered, his eyes darted to mine, I found him sitting outside, both our eyes swollen from tears.

“Here to tell me you are about to leave.” He asked. “All she ever wanted was for you to be-“

“No, you are not going to blame this on me, she got into that car, the drove, it had nothing to do with me, it has nothing to do with my decision or my  future, even if I choose to be a doctor, she will still be there in the hospital bed, it is not my fault, I understand you are angry, you are hurt but it has nothing to do with me.”

I didn’t want to yell, we have been through so much.

“I think I will be in town for a couple of days, I got a scholarship in Uk, for arts, I’m taking it, I can make a call, post pone-“

“We don’t need you here.” Dad cuts me off

I held in my breath

“She was fine all these weeks without you, she will be fine, I’m here for her and if we need anything, we can do it ourselves, you can leave tonight if you want to, I promise you when she wakes up, she will not be looking for you, she won’t even utter your name.”

I paused shaking my head

“You hate me, it’s valid but you will not turn this against  me; she is my mom and you are the reason our relationship is so strain, because you won’t let her be herself, you think about that, I am not the bad daughter, she is not the bad mother, you are the bad father, a horrible one and I hope you can see through that, I will come every day until I leave.” I breathed out. “You were never there for me, the least you can do is be there for your wife, you want to place blame’s, why did you let her leave the house? I could easily stand her and pretend it’s your fault, it’s not, you want to find someone to blame. Blame yourself Dad for being you, for sitting out here while your wife is inside, for not being there when she needed you.”

——-

“I want to sleep in here tonight. I know you want to be alone and you don’t need me but I’m staying.” Clara mumbled. She settled beside me on the bed. “I heard your argument with Landon, when you asked him to leave.”

“Hmm.”

“You told him you wanted uk didn’t you.”

“He found out.” I breathed out. “I keep thinking of everything he said and I hate that he is right. I messed things up. This is who I am. I mess relationships up.”

My chest tightened

“No.”

“You are being nice Clara, it’s the truth, I kept thinking if mom didn’t get into that accident. We would be in Vermont right now, he would have never known what I had in mind and I would have left. He asked me if I had plans to leave him after getting to Vermont and I did. Wha type of horrible person I am? Tell me the truth.”

My eyes glanced at her

“Tell me.” I breathed out.

“You choose Uk, you have to make it worth it, Landon, how he behaved, how mad he is? It’s not his fault, I would do the same but Elara you can still fix this. Give me your phone.”

“What”

“Just trust me.” She spoke

I watched as she typed something on my phone before handing it over to me.

“Here I accepted the UK scholarship for you, told them about your little situation with your mom and anyone will be glad for you to resume after a week and not right away, they love you already there and they can’t wait to have you, stay with your mom for a day or two, give Landon time to be alone then find him, if he is in Vermont find him and talk, make him understand you are sorry and you love him.”

“You think he will listen.” I asked

One week.

“It’s worth giving it a try and he loves you, traveling all the way to Vermont, it a good way of saying you love him and you will always love him, you both can make it work, you can go between trips, maybe Christmas with him, Thanksgiving with you, it’s going to be hard but you love him don’t you.”

“More than anything .” I smiled. “Do you think mom will be fine?”

“We are all here for her, we will make sure she is, she is a fighter, and that woman can’t go a day yelling at someone; she will be awake before you know it.” Clara smiled and I playfully rolled my eyes at her.

The next morning, I got an email from Ellis Cross and the university, he is glad I accepted it and is saddened about what happens to my mom, and the university is kind enough to give me two weeks instead of one, I will convince Landon. I will make him realize how much I love him and I care for him.

I was the first to get to the hospital, mom will be moved to the house today, she will have her private nurse, who will be at the house twenty/ four seven and Dad, he is at work.

He can’t even get a day off work to be with his wife, to care for her after everything that happened last night, for him work is always first, whether we understand it or not, he cherished it more than anything and I know mom wished he cherished her instead.

Clara and I helped with the hospital, and the moving, I made sure mom has beautiful flowers on her side table, we helped change her clothes not after Clara made a joke about mom waking up at the exact moment she is getting changed.

She will lose her mind.

—-

“You are here.” I smiled, I found Nathan and Paul in the living room.

“You didn’t think we will let you go through this alone, we would be been here easier but we just found out because someone did not tell us.” Paul spoke staring at Clara. “It’s all over the local news, the accident and her condition, I rushed the moment I found out.”

“How are you doing Elara?.” Nathan asked. “I can’t even imagine-“

“She is fine. Don’t be dramatic.” Paul joked. "We are all here for her."

“I could be worse, I don’t want to think about any of it, I want to pretend it’s all fine, mom will be fine, she will soon be awake yelling at me for wasting my future.” I smiled weakly.

I would give anything to hear her yell, to have her smile.

I was glad I have friends to go through this.

We watched a couple of movies, Vivian was kind enough to make us a meal, and no one asked about Landon, I felt like they knew, the fact that he is not her is enough for anyone to know.

——

They stayed till evening, dad was nowhere at sight. I felt comfortable leaving her with Patrick and Vivian, when I got back to Clara’s room

All day I felt tempted to call or text Landon, I typed a message over as over again until I erased it, maybe he is not ready to hear from me

I intended to be here for four more days before I leave, first I need to find out if he is in the town or he left already.