Chapter 2 Chapter 1.2
"I'm not crazy enough to do that, Aleena, what will he think of me? That I'm using the child for money?" she sighed. I met that man before I left the hotel, and I don't care who he is or what his status is in this society.
I already forgot what happened, right? I accepted that what I was supposed to give to my future husband was gone, but why did it still bear fruit? Why did that man let something be formed from what happened to us?
My shoulders were almost slumped, I didn't know what I would explain to dad.
"Stay here first, I'll just buy ice to apply to your face because it might get bruised tomorrow." Aleena said goodbye, I just nodded at her. I felt the pain of Mom's slap, and it was still burning on my cheek, but I didn't mind it because what should I do?
I touched my womb, I couldn't believe that I would be a mother. I'm not even part of teenage pregnancy, but I got pregnant without a partner. What will other people think when they find out about this?
I let out a deep sigh. What kind of life will I give to my future child? Maybe like me, he will just have a hard time, especially since I don't have anyone to support him. Just when our daily needs are enough, that's when I added expenses.
Why am I blaming him? It's not his fault that he was just formed in my womb. It's still my fault, he didn't choose to be formed in my womb, he was formed because of my carelessness. I just touched my forehead, why did I even drink that night before meeting who was supposed to be my blind date, that's why, I entered a different room.
No matter what blame I put on myself, I can't bring it back anymore. What's in my womb isn't just something I borrowed to return again.
Since Mom found out about my pregnancy, she hasn't talked to me. Every time we meet in the living room, she doesn't acknowledge me. I wanted to talk to her, but I knew she was still angry, so I just let it go first. Her head will probably cool down because we have no choice but to accept what I'm carrying.
"Mom, I'm going to work now," I said goodbye to her, but I didn't hear any answer from her.
"Heaven, our allowance," said my second sibling, so I took my wallet from my bag. My siblings' allowance and their other needs for school depend on me, so I can't blame Mom if she's angry because of what I did.
"Study well, okay? Be careful going in," I said to them with a smile.
"Thank you, Heaven, you too, be careful," I just smiled at them. There are still three of them studying, my younger brothers are the youngest. There are two of us girls and two boys. I looked at Mom again in the kitchen, but I didn't hear anything from her, so I just smiled sparingly and then went to work.
Almost every now and then, I was gasping for air because I got tired so quickly. Is this because of my pregnancy? It's still early, but I feel so tired.
"Heaven, where are the papers I asked you to get!" I heard our manager shout again, so I quickly ran to the stock room to get the papers she was looking for. I just touched my stomach when I remembered that I was carrying something. I can't be careless, my body is not like before, even if I run and run, nothing will happen to me.
I let out a deep sigh when I felt dizzy. I held on to the wall because my vision seemed to be spinning. I shook my head to get rid of my dizziness. I tried to walk straight, but I was already staggering. Straighten up, Heaven, if you don't want to lose your job.
I slapped myself, hoping to wake up my spirit. I blinked my eyes, but I really couldn't do it anymore. I was already holding on to the wall while walking just to get to our manager to give her the papers she needed.
"Ma'am, here it is," I said, but my vision was already doubling. I didn't know where to hand the paper because I was seeing two of them. I closed my eyes again to hopefully feel better, but my vision completely spun and I dropped the papers.
"Heaven!" I heard them call my name, but I completely fell to the floor. I just held on to my stomach because I was worried about my baby.
"Call for help, my God!" I heard their worried voices. I still felt someone tapping my cheek slightly to wake me up, but I seemed to have no strength.
"Excuse me, I'll take care of her," I heard a man's voice. I felt him carrying me, but I couldn't even open my eyes to look at him. I was dizzy, and I felt like I was going to throw up any minute, but I needed to stop myself because it would be embarrassing if I threw up on whoever was carrying me now.
"My baby," I said weakly, but I didn't know if he heard it. Before I could be taken to the hospital, I completely lost consciousness.