Chapter 1 Chapter 1.1
I am now kneeling while Mom relentlessly hits me because of the huge mistake I made. Like me, she is also crying.
"I didn't raise you to be like this, Heaven! You know our kind of life, and then this is what you'll repay us with? After we struggled to send you to school!" she shouted angrily at me. She was almost going crazy with anger.
"Aahhh! Mom, it hurts," I pleaded when she pulled my hair. She almost wanted to kill me because of what I did. My crying was non-stop because I had no right to be angry at Mom either. I know, I disappointed her.
"You have no right to be hurt, Heaven! We raised you and sent you to school, and you know that we're only expecting you to help your siblings finish their studies, but what did you do?! You got pregnant by a man you don't even know? What shame will you bring to this family?!" she shouted, crying and very angry. I could do nothing but gladly accept her hurting me.
I was the one who made the mistake, so I should just accept her anger. When I found out I was pregnant, I didn't know what to do either, I was also angry at myself because of my carelessness. I let a stranger take me that night.
If only I knew that this would happen, if only I knew that night would bear fruit, I should have just refused my friends, I should have just not followed them so I could have avoided this event.
"You just finished school, Heaven, and then this is what you'll do to us?! If only I knew you would do this, I shouldn't have sent you to school!" I bowed my head, I couldn't bear to see Mom crying and angry. She was almost gasping for air because she was so angry at me.
My tears flowed again. Mom was right, I am a disgrace to our family. They almost struggled to send me to school, and then this is all I repaid them with. I took care of myself for many years, I didn't enter into any relationship to avoid this kind of event, but who would have thought that because of just one night, I would get pregnant by a man I don't know.
Mom pulled my hair again, and I endured it, I did nothing but cry and endure her hurting me. Mom is kind, but there is really a limit to a person's kindness.
Mom continued to cry, she was hitting her chest because of the pain she was feeling. I just graduated last year, and I have only been helping them for a year, so I can't blame Mom if she's angry because of what I did.
Her slap landed on my cheek again, I knew my cheeks were already red, but I had no right to fight her, because it's all my fault.
"Aunty! That's enough," Aleena, my friend who had just arrived, intervened. "I know Heaven made a mistake, but she didn't mean to." Aleena explained to calm Mom down, but nothing happened.
"She didn't mean to? Didn't she mean to open her two legs and offer them to a man she doesn't even know, huh?! What kind of thinking does your friend have, Aleena?!" Mom also shouted angrily at Aleena.
Aleena approached Mom to calm her down, she helped Mom sit down and handed her water.
"Aunty, calm down first. You might hurt Heaven too much. We all know she's pregnant, right? Calm down, please." She pleaded with Mom, but I just bowed my head when Mom left. I also didn't know what my dad would do to me when he found out that his eldest daughter got pregnant by a stranger.
Aleena approached me and helped me stand up. I almost fell when my knees weakened because I had been kneeling on the cold and hard floor for so long.
"Are you okay? Why did you let Aunty hurt you like that?" Aleena asked worriedly.
"It's my fault, Aleena, I understand her anger," I answered her shyly.
"It's not your fault, it's our fault. If we hadn't forced you to go on a blind date that night, you wouldn't have gotten drunk and you wouldn't have gotten lost in a room." I shook my head at Aleena, I knew she was also blaming herself and she almost always apologized to me when she remembered what happened to us with a stranger.
"It's not your fault why I got drunk. I was the one who kept drinking to reduce the nervousness I was feeling. What am I going to do?"
"You know the person you were with that night, right? Why don't you go to him and tell him about your pregnancy?"
"Are you crazy? I won't do that." Aleena sighed as if she was calming herself down.
"Heaven, what's in your womb won't be formed without someone. What do you want? To raise the child alone? At least you have someone to help you raise it, and he comes from a wealthy family. He's an heir to a company, right? The youngest in their family, even if you just tell him about the child you're carrying, even if you just ask him for support."