Chapter 39 "First time"

Elena narrating.

In these days, I was being meticulously taken care of by Damon. He showered me with attention, affection, and more than I could ask for. He even put his uncle in charge of the business just to take care of me during this time.

I still felt a bit lost, though. Wherever Damon went, he had a gun in hand, or nearby, just everywhere. I don't know. I liked him, maybe even too much. But I felt a little out of place in this life of gangs, guns, and everything else.

After last night in the garden, I felt that we could be more. There was a connection I couldn't explain.

I say Damon has trust issues. But the truth is, I have them too. My past is filled with lies. I don't know who my parents are. I was exposed to evil from a young age in an environment where we should have been treated well. Should have.

Now I realize how much that robbed me of the ability to feel, to be carefree.

But I knew I needed a strong heart to endure all of this. Sometimes, Damon's actions made me want to curse him, to hit him, but I can't. It would be a lie. I think I was falling for him.

Damon was downstairs in the kitchen. I didn't know what he was doing. Dulce took the day off today to visit a distant relative, and the other employees didn't show up much, probably scared of Damon or something. I don't know why, but okay. I was feeling better, so I went downstairs to see what this guy was up to.

As I descended the stairs slowly, I entered the kitchen, and there he was, making breakfast. Nothing had happened between us yet, and I wanted it to, but at the same time, I didn't feel entirely ready on the other days.

He was startled when he saw me standing at the kitchen door, watching him.

"It wasn't meant for you to come. It was a surprise breakfast," he said.

"Oh, so I deserved a surprise breakfast? What did I do?" I smiled.

"Just appeared in my life," he said, smiling back.

"I feel a bit embarrassed now."

He was preparing scrambled eggs, toast, and jam. Everything I loved for breakfast. I sat at the dining table and waited for him to set everything up. Since the surprise breakfast was for me, he had to be a gentleman. I watched how he did everything with perfection. That's just how he was.

I never imagined I would suddenly be married to a mobster, and worse, I would have feelings for Damon the way I do.

He poured coffee into my cup, and I helped myself. Everything was amazing; he was good in the kitchen.

"Where did you learn to cook?" I asked while taking a bite of my toast.

"I used to hang out here when my parents died. It was like an escape, you know? I'd stay here with Dulce, cooking recipes to distract myself. My life wasn't great—lots of money, a huge house, but no parents," he said with a hint of sadness.

— I'm really sorry, Damon.

— It's okay. I'll get revenge on the person who did this.

— Revenge is not a healthy thing to do, you know, I said.

— For me, it's very healthy. And necessary, he finished the sentence.

The way Damon talked about revenge scared me; to him, if someone did something wrong, they had to pay. And that frightened me.

We finished breakfast, and Damon went upstairs to the bedroom. I followed him, and he sat on the bed.

— Now that you're feeling better, I need to get back to business soon, he said.

— I understand, and I appreciate you staying here with me, Damon. You've been a great help.

— I'd do it a thousand times, princess.

I smiled, approached him, and we kissed.

I wanted something more. It was time for me to surrender.

In the middle of the kiss, I straddled his lap. Damon was sitting against the headboard of the bed, so I positioned myself on his lap, and we continued kissing while he caressed my body.

He was looking at me and then said, — Are you sure you want this? — referring to making love.

— I'm not sure about many things, Damon. But if there's one thing I'm certain about, it's that I want to be yours now.

He looked at me and smiled. We kept kissing. But there was something I hadn't told Damon, and I don't think I could escape it now. I was a virgin, and it would be my first time, and I wanted him to know.

— Damon, I need to tell you something.

— What is it, Elena? You can tell me anything, he said, removing his hands from my waist.

— I don't even know how to say this. But... — I sighed. — I've never done this before.

— What do you mean, never done this before? — he seemed not to understand.

— I'm a virgin, Damon! — I blurted out.

There was no response. He seemed to be processing what I had just said. Did I ruin everything?

— I can't believe this, he finally said.

— Is it a bad thing?

— Of course not, you're unique, Elena. Seriously. You're such a beautiful, perfect woman, and you've never been touched by another man. It's hard to believe.

— But it's the truth, really, I said, feeling embarrassed.

Damon didn't say anything else. He just pulled my body closer to him. And started kissing me. I was speechless. His touches under my body, made me totally shiver. It was something new.

Damon took off his shirt, exposing his tattoos. Then he took off his sweatpants.

- May I? - he referred to taking off my shirt and I nodded.

I was a little nervous. I won't lie, it was my first time, and seeing the volume in his underwear, I don't know if it would be very comfortable.

After I nodded he pulled my blouse, I turned my back and he unbuttoned my bra. I was naked in front of him. He had seen this before when he helped me shower, but now it was different, our bodies were glued together. Damon took off his underwear and looked me in the eyes continuing to kiss me. I was a little tense and he noticed.

- No need to be afraid. I'll be affectionate, I promise. - He whispered in my ear.

My whole body shivers, I feel the warmth of his body, his voice firm and thick in my ear. He kisses every part of my neckj making my body stiffen. I was ready. I wanted to be this man and no matter what else.

Damon lays me down under the bed, and starts kissing my belly and moving further down. He reaches down, and I feel his hot tongue on my part.

- Ah. Damon, please continue. - I say as he continues.

After he finished, I don't even know what I was feeling. It was like a huge heat that only stopped when he was glued to me. I wanted him. I wanted him like I had never wanted another man in my life.

- You're very hot Elena. - he said in my ear.

- "If you keep coming that close to my ear, I won't answer for myself. - I said.

- And what would you do elena? - his voice was in a provocative tone. I couldn't stand the pleasure.

- As far as you want.

I threw him on the bed, and climbed onto his lap, rolled over on top of him, and he looked at me with a face like he was really enjoying what was happening.

I don't know why I was acting so provocative. Damon was awakening a side of me that I hadn't yet known.

We hadn't even started and my body was already soft. I was at my peak.

Damon climbs on top of me, puts his finger carefully so I get used to it while kissing me at the same time. It hurt, but I got used to his finger. He held my left breast while with his other hand, he moved inside me.

- 'Tell me you're going to be my elena. - He presses me against the bed and whispers once more in my ear.

- I'm going to be yours Damon. - I whisper in a moan.

He penetrates me. Slowly, I feel a very strong pain, Damon realizes and speaks to me

- Is it hurting? Do you want me to stop elena? I don't care.

- I don't want you to stop Damon. Keep going.

He nods. And continues, in an attempt to be more comfortable he kisses me slowly and hugs me. I think I love him, I love this man.

We continued, and as time went by I got used to it, Damon continued to do what he was doing before and I screamed like crazy.

It was the best moment of my life.

After we finished he hugged me, we were without clothes and on our sides. He came closer to me.

- I love you elena. - he said.

- I love you too Damon. And a lot.

After sex we stayed hugging talking. Suddenly, I remembered the gift I had prepared for him for everything he has done for me, I was grateful. I had bought him a watch. And I hope he likes it.

- I have prepared a present for you.

- What? - he smiled.

- You'll see.

I got up, went to my bag and took out the present. As I took the present out, something I've never seen before fell out of my bag, but what the fuck was that? I've never seen it in front of me. Before I could react Damon got up quickly and jumped out of bed and picked up that thing from the floor, when he saw what it was damon was extremely upset by his face you could tell.

But I didn't understand what I did?