Chapter 26

Alyssa POV

My heart is breaking. No, it has broken. I was not dating this guy but he still broke my heart. What an irony. I always thought that the person who could not break my heart in this earth was Micah but still he did, I unknowingly gave him my heart and he just broke it, although I don't think that he knows that he broke my heart, the Micah I know would do everything possible to make sure that I am happy but then again this Micah is different from my Micah.

I don't have to be a genius to know that something big is happening with Micah and he is keeping it from me on purpose, it is no longer funny or enjoyable. I thought I was giving Micah the space he wanted but it seems like I should not have done it. He must see it in a way that makes me the guilty party like he needed me and I was too busy playing hooky with Jake to pay him any attention. What he does not know is that he wanted me away from him, I saw it in his body language and gave him the space he needed.

Jake is just some one for me to focus on when he isn't around, why does he not see that. He must think that Jake has my attention from the beginning but Jake only got in my life because I knew I was getting too fixated on him. I needed someone to take my attention and Jake did that. I can see it now, I was trying to hide the truth and deceive myself but Micah words just now made me realize it.

I thought that my heart broke when I caught Jake in bed with Tiffany but now I realize that was just my pride that was stung. My heart broke when I heard those things coming from Micah lips, what is he trying to hide that he is willing to hurt me like that just to protect his secret. This is usually the point where I go find his younger sister and brother and threaten them to tell me what they know or bribe them to spy on their brother for me.

I am still in the numb state that Micah left me as I arrived at home. I needed someone to talk to?

“Honey, you are early today. Don't you hang out with Micah these days? “My father ask me when he saw me standing at the entrance to the living room.

“Dad.” I cried. And when I mean cried I meant that tears literally started rolling down my face as I ran to hug my father and buried my face in his shirt. His 2000 dollars for one long sleeve designer shirt, and my makeup was not waterproof. I stopped using waterproof when I stop crying in random place about a month after I saw Jake cheating on me.

“What is wrong. “He asked me, alarmed at my attitude. He has never dealt with crying me, I either lock myself up or Micah and my mother deal with it but now I am not in speaking terms with my mother and Micah has me confused. We are not in speaking with each other. It is either he is angry at me or I am with him. I know that I should be angry with him but I don't want to.

“I and Micah got into a huge fight.” I said as I looked at my father with messy sobs running down my face.

“Oh. “My father said uncomfortable, I am sure that he was planning on excusing himself to make me some ice cream while he calls Micah to come and calm me down.

“And it was in that fight I realized that Micah loves me and I have been hurting him by pining for another guy.” I explained to my father who blinked at me.

“Oh. “He exclaimed in surprise.

I bet he didn't see that one coming. Then this one will be a complete blow to him.

“And when he screamed his hurt at me, I realized that I had feelings for him... Well I always had feeling for him but try to shut it down but this one made me realize that I can't shut it down and he rejected me. “I bawled.

“oh. " my dad asks with his eyes narrowed as if he would love nothing better than to find Micah this instant and tear into him like a protective mama bear.

“You cannot do anything to him, everyone is entitled to their own feelings.” I warned him.

“okay.” my father conceded, when my crying did not reduce, he added "are you sure he rejected you.”

"I am pretty sure I read into what he said well.”

“Did he say the words to you?”

"No, he didn't have to. This isn't the 1980s dad, they don't say that unless you write a letter to they and he was the one who wrote the letter. “I said as I choke on a sob.

“He wrote the letter and rejected you, how does that work. “He asks me.

“He used it as his essay and you know how Micah is, anything he do turns to gold. The essay is now widespread and everybody is curious about the girl. He described our relationship but now he says that it isn't us. “I explained.

"Why would he do that?”

"He is hiding something from me. When I brought it up, he tries to convince me that I am crazy and I almost believed him. “When my dad expression didn't change as if he doesn't understand I explained it to him in it basic form.

“Micah only acts that way when he is hiding something. People gets defensive, Micah tried to tell you that you are wrong even if you know you are right. He is very convincing. I think I am the only person that, that trick didn't work on. And it's just because I have watched him do it a dozen times. "

"Think you can convince him to be a lawyer. I will sponsor his college degree, all he needs is to do is to work in my firm after he graduates." my father asks.

“Daddy,” I complains, my tears already drying up. " he already have sports scholarships lined up for him and I need to figure out what is wrong with him. "

“Fine. I will help you, just concentrate on your finals okay. “My father said as he kissed my eyebrows and I nodded.

“Thanks dad, you are the best.” I said as I hugged him then moved towards my room. What I need right now is to bathe and sleep and when I wake up, I will think about eating.