Chapter 33

"Did l do something wrong "Killian asked me as he walked me home. Despite the fact that l was avoiding Killian for the past few days but he still continues to walk me like before. l made sure to avoid the cafeteria and l was the last in class and first to leave. Throughout the whole day l made sure l was busy with something or the other so that we had no contact but l have to admit the guy is thick skinned. He doesn't lose hope no matter what.

"No l just have a lot going on" l lied. This was honestly one of the hardest things l have had to do because Killian doesn't deserve this cold treatment, he has been nothing short of an angel to me.

"Don't lie, it doesn't suit you" he said holding my hands and l looked down unable to face him. How can l face him after everything l have done to him and his family.

"l'm not" l exclaimed. "My whole life is nothing short of a movie, it's just one secret after the other. Every day l wonder what each day has in store for me because it's a never ending cycle of mystery and miseries." l told him honestly.

"Let's go out and eat ,l promise l won't take more of your time" l couldn't say no to him because l felt guilty for hurting him so l agreed and l found myself on the McDonald drive-thru. Killian knows that l don't like fancy compared to comfort which is why he brought me here.

"l don't want a relationship Killian, l can't maintain a relationship in this situation which is why l think we should stay away from each other" l don't want to keep stringing Killian along knowing quite well that l can't be with him.

"l don't believe that Ells, where is the girl who blushed when l complemented her or the girl who shuddered from my touch, where is the girl who laughed wholeheartedly with me on our first date. Something is going on with you and l want to know what it is, help me understand what is going on" he begged but nothing was going to change my mind when it was made up.

"l just need space" l held his free hand since he was using the other one to hold his burger.

"Then you can have space but don't cut me out" he said with pitiful eyes and l shook my head repeatedly.

"Why don't you understand, I don't want to do this anymore Killearn, I just want to get to know my new family and concentrate on school. I don't have the time or the energy for relationship right now "

"that's bullshit and we both know it, that is something going on with you, tell me what it is ,is Ali blackmailing you or threatening you, just tell me how to fix it dammit." He shouted and l saw a glimpse of Connor in his anger. This is why l don't want to be in a relationship with Killian because it will always remind me of his cousin and that is something I will never be able to take.

"There is nothing going on and l am not being blackmailed "l whispered afraid of his anger.

"Then why can't you just give me a chance" he said softly but the damage was already done.

"Take me home" l said staring ahead and l heard him sigh and start driving.

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As soon as l arrived to my place l went to my room but no one wanted to give me peace so Ali let herself in without even knocking.

"Ali this not your parent's mansion rather it's my room" l told her as a matter of fact.

"l know but l want to ask you something "she said frowning like being in my room was going to kill her and l rolled my eyes, 'talk about dramatic' l mumbled to myself.

"If this is about the money then no" l said continuing with my studies and ignoring her. "You told me they knew about me but why didn't they try to contact me or form a relationship with me" she asked. Right after she asked l regretted telling her because her feelings were hurt. l can imagine how she feels, she probably thinks that she was unwanted but that is not the case.

"They thought that the truth would disrupt our lives" l told her honestly.

"But you obviously didn't agree "she said and l frowned.

"Ali you're the one who wanted a DNA test and now that it didn't go your way then it's my fault "l asked her.

"Because your face was a reality l couldn't hide or ignore anymore "she shouted.

"l didn't choose to look like your parents Ali and l'm sorry you had to find out this way but l am not sorry for the way l look. l am so tired of your unreasonable reasoning, l am tired if your blame game. If you want to sue, blame or insult anyone then find the nurse or the doctor who was responsible for whatever happened.

"how were they" she asked sitting on my bed and l joined her.

" The very best parents in the whole world. They were both surgeons Mom was a heart surgeon and dad was a brain surgeon, they loved everything to do with Madison and healing people. They saved so many peoples lives and they touched just as many lives. Mum was just like your mum she loved cooking and baking and most of the time we did it together it was a way of bonding. Mom also loved make up you know dress up and just forcing me to go to parties but I obviously had no interest in that so I feel like you guys would've Bondo doing something like that. Dad was overprotective but he was honestly the best ,there's nothing he wouldn't do for me. dad was a favourite person and he loves to being outside and outdoors but I feel like if the cancer hadn't taken most of his years, he would've travelled the world you know, he was just a bubbly person to be around and he didn't let the cancer get to him, he always tried to be strong for me and Mom.

it was obviously hard living with the possibility that that would die and it was harder on him because he felt like he wasn't given enough time to see me go to college, or walk me down the aisle or see me graduate. he was my prom date you know, he didn't want any boy to take me there including Ashton my best friend. I pretended to be angry the whole night but it was honestly the best night of my life. There's so much he wanted to do that he never got to d--" my voice cracked.

"Their relationship was of true love and it was pure and a match made in heaven, you are a product of true love and l'm sure had they got to know you then they would have loved you."